1 00:01:27,220 --> 00:01:30,060 Dearest, I feel certain 2 00:01:30,100 --> 00:01:31,900 that I am going mad again. 3 00:01:31,980 --> 00:01:33,260 I feel we can't go 4 00:01:33,340 --> 00:01:35,300 through another of these terrible times, 5 00:01:35,340 --> 00:01:37,460 and I... shan't 6 00:01:37,540 --> 00:01:40,740 recover this time. 7 00:01:40,780 --> 00:01:45,100 I begin to hear voices, and can't concentrate. 8 00:01:48,300 --> 00:01:50,140 So, I am doing what seems to be 9 00:01:50,220 --> 00:01:52,100 the best thing to do. 10 00:02:07,540 --> 00:02:09,060 You have given me 11 00:02:09,100 --> 00:02:11,860 the greatest possible happiness. 12 00:02:11,940 --> 00:02:14,340 You have been in every way 13 00:02:14,420 --> 00:02:16,620 all that anyone could be. 14 00:02:20,140 --> 00:02:23,140 I know that I am spoiling your life, 15 00:02:23,180 --> 00:02:25,780 and without me, you could work. 16 00:02:25,860 --> 00:02:27,820 And you will, 17 00:02:27,900 --> 00:02:29,700 I know. 18 00:02:32,420 --> 00:02:35,940 You see, I can't even write this properly. 19 00:02:38,460 --> 00:02:40,780 What I want to say is that I owe 20 00:02:40,820 --> 00:02:43,420 all the happiness of my life to you. 21 00:02:43,500 --> 00:02:46,340 You have been entirely patient with me... 22 00:02:47,980 --> 00:02:49,700 and 23 00:02:49,740 --> 00:02:52,420 incredibly good. 24 00:02:52,460 --> 00:02:53,700 Everything's gone 25 00:02:53,740 --> 00:02:56,340 from me but the certainty 26 00:02:56,420 --> 00:02:58,860 of your goodness. 27 00:02:58,940 --> 00:03:01,660 I can't go on spoiling your life any longer. 28 00:03:03,940 --> 00:03:07,380 I don't think two people could have been happier 29 00:03:07,460 --> 00:03:09,820 than we have been. 30 00:03:09,900 --> 00:03:11,380 Virginia. 31 00:05:03,340 --> 00:05:04,580 Good morning, Doctor. 32 00:05:04,660 --> 00:05:06,020 Mr. Woolf. 33 00:05:06,060 --> 00:05:08,140 No worse, I think. 34 00:05:08,220 --> 00:05:10,060 I see. 35 00:05:10,140 --> 00:05:14,060 The main thing is to keep her where she is, and calm. 36 00:05:16,100 --> 00:05:17,340 Friday, then. 37 00:08:39,340 --> 00:08:40,500 Good morning, Leonard. 38 00:08:40,580 --> 00:08:41,780 Good morning, Virginia. 39 00:08:41,860 --> 00:08:43,140 How was your sleep ? 40 00:08:43,220 --> 00:08:44,740 Uneventful. 41 00:08:44,820 --> 00:08:46,460 The headaches ? 42 00:08:46,540 --> 00:08:50,220 No. No headaches. 43 00:08:50,300 --> 00:08:51,620 Doctor seemed pleased. 44 00:08:51,660 --> 00:08:54,220 That's all from this morning ? 45 00:08:54,300 --> 00:08:56,620 Yes. This young man has submitted his manuscript. 46 00:08:56,660 --> 00:08:58,180 I've found three errors of fact 47 00:08:58,220 --> 00:09:00,100 and two spelling mistakes, 48 00:09:00,140 --> 00:09:02,580 and I'm not yet on page four. 49 00:09:02,660 --> 00:09:04,580 Have you had breakfast ? 50 00:09:04,660 --> 00:09:05,660 Yes. 51 00:09:05,740 --> 00:09:06,820 Liar. 52 00:09:06,900 --> 00:09:08,820 Virginia, it's not my insistence. 53 00:09:08,900 --> 00:09:11,140 It's your own doctor's. 54 00:09:11,220 --> 00:09:13,740 I'm going to send 55 00:09:13,820 --> 00:09:17,100 Nelly up with some fruit and a bun. 56 00:09:17,140 --> 00:09:18,820 Right. Lunch, then. 57 00:09:18,860 --> 00:09:19,820 Proper lunch, 58 00:09:19,900 --> 00:09:22,460 husband and wife sitting down together... 59 00:09:22,540 --> 00:09:23,780 soup, pudding 60 00:09:23,820 --> 00:09:25,540 and all. 61 00:09:25,620 --> 00:09:27,820 By force if necessary. 62 00:09:29,780 --> 00:09:31,940 Leonard, I believe I may have a first sentence. 63 00:09:37,020 --> 00:09:39,180 Work, then. 64 00:09:45,740 --> 00:09:47,660 Then you must eat. 65 00:10:43,140 --> 00:10:46,180 Mrs. Dalloway said... 66 00:10:46,260 --> 00:10:52,420 she would buy the flowers... herself. 67 00:10:52,500 --> 00:10:53,660 Mrs. Dalloway said 68 00:10:53,740 --> 00:10:56,860 she would buy the flowers herself. 69 00:10:58,540 --> 00:11:01,540 Sally, I think I'll buy the flowers myself. 70 00:11:01,620 --> 00:11:03,660 What ? 71 00:11:03,820 --> 00:11:05,740 What flowers ? 72 00:11:05,820 --> 00:11:08,420 Oh, shit. I forgot. 73 00:11:09,580 --> 00:11:11,140 You're never going to be a big boy 74 00:11:11,220 --> 00:11:13,260 if you don't eat your breakfast. 75 00:11:13,380 --> 00:11:14,660 You're going to be the big brother. 76 00:11:14,740 --> 00:11:15,740 It's a very important job. 77 00:11:15,820 --> 00:11:16,900 Happy birthday. 78 00:11:16,980 --> 00:11:18,580 - Morning, honey. - Oh, Dan. 79 00:11:19,660 --> 00:11:21,140 Roses on your own birthday. 80 00:11:21,220 --> 00:11:22,500 You're too much. Really. 81 00:11:22,580 --> 00:11:23,980 He'll eat it 82 00:11:24,020 --> 00:11:25,060 now that you're here. 83 00:11:26,380 --> 00:11:27,300 It's your birthday. 84 00:11:27,340 --> 00:11:28,900 You shouldn't be out buying me flowers. 85 00:11:28,940 --> 00:11:30,500 Well, you were still sleeping. 86 00:11:30,580 --> 00:11:32,180 So ? 87 00:11:32,260 --> 00:11:34,100 Well, we decided it would be better 88 00:11:34,180 --> 00:11:35,980 if we let you sleep in a little, didn't we ? 89 00:11:36,060 --> 00:11:37,220 Morning, bug. 90 00:11:40,780 --> 00:11:42,020 You need to rest, Laura. 91 00:11:42,060 --> 00:11:43,620 You're only four months away. 92 00:11:43,700 --> 00:11:44,740 Dan, don't. 93 00:11:44,780 --> 00:11:46,220 I'm fine. 94 00:11:46,300 --> 00:11:48,140 I'm just tired. 95 00:11:49,420 --> 00:11:51,380 I've been telling him he's got to eat his breakfast. 96 00:11:51,460 --> 00:11:52,580 That's true. 97 00:11:52,620 --> 00:11:54,300 So, it's a beautiful day. 98 00:11:54,380 --> 00:11:56,620 What are you two going to be doing with it ? 99 00:11:56,700 --> 00:12:00,180 We've got our plans, don't we ? 100 00:12:00,260 --> 00:12:01,380 What plans ? 101 00:12:01,420 --> 00:12:02,700 Hmm... 102 00:12:02,780 --> 00:12:05,300 Well, it wouldn't be much of a party, 103 00:12:05,380 --> 00:12:06,300 would it, if I told you 104 00:12:06,380 --> 00:12:07,380 every detail in advance ? 105 00:12:07,460 --> 00:12:08,580 Well, I better just stop 106 00:12:08,620 --> 00:12:10,180 asking questions then, huh ? 107 00:12:10,220 --> 00:12:12,380 That the time ? 108 00:12:12,460 --> 00:12:13,700 I better get going. 109 00:12:13,740 --> 00:12:14,660 Have a good day. 110 00:12:14,780 --> 00:12:15,740 You, too. 111 00:12:18,980 --> 00:12:20,780 Dan, happy birthday. 112 00:12:20,860 --> 00:12:21,940 Oh, thank you. 113 00:12:54,660 --> 00:12:56,300 You need to finish your breakfast. 114 00:13:21,340 --> 00:13:22,980 Oh, I'm going to make a cake. 115 00:13:25,540 --> 00:13:28,100 That's what I'm going to do. 116 00:13:28,180 --> 00:13:30,100 I'm going to make the cake for Daddy's birthday. 117 00:13:30,180 --> 00:13:31,660 Mommy, can I help ? 118 00:13:32,620 --> 00:13:34,020 Can I help make the cake ? 119 00:13:35,540 --> 00:13:37,100 Of course you can, sweet pea. 120 00:13:38,860 --> 00:13:40,460 I'm not going to do anything without you. 121 00:13:40,580 --> 00:13:41,500 No, of course. 122 00:13:41,580 --> 00:13:43,220 You have to come. 123 00:13:43,300 --> 00:13:46,380 Of course. 124 00:13:46,460 --> 00:13:47,460 Well, I always wanted you 125 00:13:47,500 --> 00:13:49,420 and everybody involved in the actual ceremony. 126 00:13:49,500 --> 00:13:51,140 I don't know. 127 00:13:51,180 --> 00:13:52,540 Around 60. 128 00:13:52,620 --> 00:13:53,940 Well, it will. 129 00:13:54,020 --> 00:13:55,780 It'll mean so much. 130 00:13:55,860 --> 00:13:57,060 The whole occasion. 131 00:13:57,100 --> 00:13:59,060 It's the least I can do 132 00:13:59,140 --> 00:14:01,060 to have a nice dinner and say thank you 133 00:14:01,100 --> 00:14:02,180 to everybody. 134 00:14:02,220 --> 00:14:03,780 You've done so much for him. 135 00:14:03,860 --> 00:14:05,260 Oh, I take that as a yes. 136 00:14:05,340 --> 00:14:06,820 He'll be thrilled. 137 00:14:06,980 --> 00:14:08,100 Oh, my God. 138 00:14:08,180 --> 00:14:11,180 I'm thrilled. Oh, good. 139 00:14:11,260 --> 00:14:12,580 What if nobody comes ? 140 00:14:12,620 --> 00:14:14,260 This is Clarissa Vaughan. 141 00:14:14,340 --> 00:14:16,540 Yes, I am just confirming 142 00:14:16,620 --> 00:14:18,820 that you're sending a car to pick me up first. 143 00:14:18,860 --> 00:14:20,140 Yeah. 144 00:14:20,220 --> 00:14:21,740 - Hi, Clarissa. - Hi, can't talk. 145 00:14:21,820 --> 00:14:24,340 And then we're going over to 679 Hudson, 146 00:14:24,420 --> 00:14:26,220 which is at 9th and 14th. 147 00:14:26,300 --> 00:14:29,780 Then you will take me uptown and you will wait for us. 148 00:14:29,860 --> 00:14:31,380 And it'll be over at seven. 149 00:14:39,220 --> 00:14:43,020 Flowers ! What a beautiful morning. 150 00:14:43,100 --> 00:14:44,940 Hi, Clarissa. How are you ? 151 00:14:45,900 --> 00:14:47,340 I'm having a party. 152 00:14:47,380 --> 00:14:50,260 My friend Richard's won the Carruthers. 153 00:14:50,340 --> 00:14:51,660 Well, that's just terrific... 154 00:14:52,580 --> 00:14:54,140 if I knew what it was. 155 00:14:54,220 --> 00:14:57,740 It's a poetry prize for a life's work. 156 00:14:59,100 --> 00:15:00,540 It's the most prestigious. 157 00:15:00,620 --> 00:15:01,980 For a poet, it's the best you can do. 158 00:15:02,060 --> 00:15:03,220 Oh, very good. 159 00:15:03,300 --> 00:15:04,980 So, what would you like ? 160 00:15:05,060 --> 00:15:06,820 The lilies are perfect. 161 00:15:06,860 --> 00:15:09,860 No. Too morbid. 162 00:15:09,900 --> 00:15:10,940 Hydrangeas, I think. 163 00:15:11,020 --> 00:15:12,380 And, um... 164 00:15:12,460 --> 00:15:16,340 Oh, oh, let's just have buckets of roses. 165 00:15:18,660 --> 00:15:22,700 And... I think I'm going to take these with me. 166 00:15:22,780 --> 00:15:23,500 Rodney ? 167 00:15:23,620 --> 00:15:24,980 Okay. 168 00:15:25,060 --> 00:15:25,980 Thank you. 169 00:15:28,260 --> 00:15:30,340 I actually tried to read Richard's novel. 170 00:15:31,340 --> 00:15:33,220 You did ? 171 00:15:34,380 --> 00:15:36,940 Oh, I know. It's not easy. 172 00:15:37,060 --> 00:15:38,100 I know. 173 00:15:38,180 --> 00:15:40,540 It did take him ten years to write. 174 00:15:40,620 --> 00:15:43,460 Maybe it just takes another ten to read. 175 00:15:46,060 --> 00:15:47,180 It's you, isn't it ? 176 00:15:47,260 --> 00:15:48,580 What is ? 177 00:15:48,620 --> 00:15:50,060 In the novel, isn't it meant to be you ? 178 00:15:50,140 --> 00:15:52,740 Oh, I see. 179 00:15:52,780 --> 00:15:54,220 Yeah. 180 00:15:54,340 --> 00:15:55,660 Sort of. 181 00:15:55,740 --> 00:15:57,100 I mean, in a way. 182 00:15:57,180 --> 00:15:58,380 You know, Richard's a writer. 183 00:15:58,460 --> 00:15:59,660 That's what he is. 184 00:15:59,740 --> 00:16:01,180 He uses things which actually happen. 185 00:16:01,260 --> 00:16:02,620 Yeah. 186 00:16:02,700 --> 00:16:05,860 And years ago, he and I were students. 187 00:16:05,940 --> 00:16:06,980 That's true. 188 00:16:07,060 --> 00:16:08,500 But, you know, then he changes things. 189 00:16:08,580 --> 00:16:09,340 Oh, sure. 190 00:16:09,420 --> 00:16:11,460 I don't mean in a bad way. 191 00:16:15,420 --> 00:16:19,020 It's more like... he makes them his own. 192 00:16:27,540 --> 00:16:30,620 A woman's whole life... 193 00:16:30,700 --> 00:16:33,900 in a single day, 194 00:16:33,980 --> 00:16:37,660 just one day... 195 00:16:37,740 --> 00:16:40,500 and in that day, 196 00:16:40,580 --> 00:16:42,460 her whole life. 197 00:16:44,060 --> 00:16:46,180 This is what we need. 198 00:16:46,220 --> 00:16:47,620 Shortening... 199 00:17:44,660 --> 00:17:48,300 Mrs. Dalloway, it's you. 200 00:17:48,380 --> 00:17:49,620 Yes, it's me ! 201 00:17:49,700 --> 00:17:52,100 Oh... It's me. 202 00:17:52,180 --> 00:17:53,340 Come in. 203 00:17:54,820 --> 00:17:57,940 Richard, it's a beautiful morning. 204 00:17:58,020 --> 00:18:01,340 How about we let in a little more light ? 205 00:18:01,420 --> 00:18:03,100 Is it still morning ? 206 00:18:03,180 --> 00:18:04,980 Yes, it is. 207 00:18:05,060 --> 00:18:07,140 Have I died ? 208 00:18:08,940 --> 00:18:11,180 Good morning, my dear. 209 00:18:14,180 --> 00:18:15,060 Any visitors ? 210 00:18:15,140 --> 00:18:16,060 Yes. 211 00:18:16,140 --> 00:18:17,220 Are they still here ? 212 00:18:17,260 --> 00:18:18,700 No. They've gone. 213 00:18:18,780 --> 00:18:20,540 Mm. How'd they look ? 214 00:18:20,620 --> 00:18:22,500 Today ? 215 00:18:22,580 --> 00:18:24,540 Sort of like black fire. 216 00:18:25,820 --> 00:18:26,900 I mean, sort of light 217 00:18:26,980 --> 00:18:30,300 and dark at the same time. 218 00:18:30,380 --> 00:18:32,500 There was one a bit like an electrified jellyfish. 219 00:18:33,980 --> 00:18:35,820 They were singing. 220 00:18:35,900 --> 00:18:37,340 May have been Greek. 221 00:18:38,700 --> 00:18:41,300 So the ceremony is at 5:00. 222 00:18:41,380 --> 00:18:42,580 Do you remember ? 223 00:18:48,420 --> 00:18:49,820 And then... 224 00:18:49,900 --> 00:18:52,180 the party is right after. 225 00:19:01,180 --> 00:19:02,700 They did bring you breakfast, didn't they ? 226 00:19:02,780 --> 00:19:05,420 What a question. Of course. 227 00:19:05,500 --> 00:19:06,460 Richard, you did eat it ? 228 00:19:06,540 --> 00:19:07,820 Well, can you see it ? 229 00:19:07,900 --> 00:19:09,980 Is it here ? 230 00:19:10,060 --> 00:19:10,980 Any breakfast lying around ? 231 00:19:11,060 --> 00:19:13,300 No, I don't see it. 232 00:19:13,380 --> 00:19:15,060 Well, then I must have eaten it, mustn't I ? 233 00:19:15,140 --> 00:19:17,420 I suppose. 234 00:19:17,500 --> 00:19:18,500 Does it matter ? 235 00:19:20,140 --> 00:19:21,380 Of course, it matters. 236 00:19:21,420 --> 00:19:24,700 You know what the doctors say. 237 00:19:30,660 --> 00:19:33,500 Have you been skipping pills ? 238 00:19:33,580 --> 00:19:34,820 Clarissa, I can't take this. 239 00:19:34,900 --> 00:19:35,780 Take what ? 240 00:19:35,860 --> 00:19:37,060 Having to be proud and brave 241 00:19:37,140 --> 00:19:38,500 in front of everybody. 242 00:19:38,540 --> 00:19:40,580 Oh. Honey, it's not a performance. 243 00:19:40,700 --> 00:19:41,660 Of course it is. 244 00:19:41,740 --> 00:19:43,860 I got the prize for my performance. 245 00:19:43,940 --> 00:19:44,860 Well, that is nonsense. 246 00:19:44,940 --> 00:19:46,980 I got the prize for having AIDS and going nuts 247 00:19:47,060 --> 00:19:48,180 and being brave about it. 248 00:19:48,260 --> 00:19:50,500 I actually got the prize for having come through. 249 00:19:50,540 --> 00:19:52,260 It's not true. 250 00:19:52,340 --> 00:19:53,820 - For surviving, that's what - It's not true. 251 00:19:53,900 --> 00:19:55,300 I got the prize for. Oh, you think they 252 00:19:55,380 --> 00:19:56,420 would have given it to me if I were healthy ? 253 00:19:56,460 --> 00:19:58,380 Yes, as a matter of fact, I do. 254 00:20:06,060 --> 00:20:07,980 Is it here somewhere ? 255 00:20:08,060 --> 00:20:08,940 What ? 256 00:20:09,020 --> 00:20:10,380 The prize. I'd like to look at it. 257 00:20:14,420 --> 00:20:16,660 No, you haven't gotten it yet. 258 00:20:18,540 --> 00:20:20,260 It's tonight. 259 00:20:20,340 --> 00:20:21,820 Are you sure ? 260 00:20:21,900 --> 00:20:23,980 Um... 261 00:20:24,060 --> 00:20:26,180 I remember the ceremony perfectly. 262 00:20:27,180 --> 00:20:29,660 I seem to have fallen out of time. 263 00:20:34,140 --> 00:20:35,180 Richard. 264 00:20:35,260 --> 00:20:37,860 Richard... 265 00:20:37,900 --> 00:20:39,580 it's a party, 266 00:20:39,660 --> 00:20:41,860 and it's only a party. 267 00:20:43,100 --> 00:20:45,020 Hmm ? Populated entirely 268 00:20:45,100 --> 00:20:48,700 by people who respect and admire you. 269 00:20:48,780 --> 00:20:50,220 A small party, is it ? 270 00:20:50,300 --> 00:20:51,860 A select party, is it ? 271 00:20:51,940 --> 00:20:53,340 Your friends. 272 00:20:53,420 --> 00:20:55,180 I thought I lost all my friends. 273 00:20:55,260 --> 00:20:57,260 I thought I drove my friends crazy. 274 00:20:58,340 --> 00:20:59,260 Jesus. 275 00:20:59,340 --> 00:21:01,460 Oh, Mrs. Dalloway, 276 00:21:01,540 --> 00:21:05,940 always giving parties to cover the silence. 277 00:21:17,540 --> 00:21:18,740 Richard... 278 00:21:22,340 --> 00:21:24,260 You won't need to do anything. 279 00:21:24,340 --> 00:21:26,220 All you have to do is appear, 280 00:21:26,300 --> 00:21:29,260 sit on the sofa. 281 00:21:30,860 --> 00:21:32,820 And I will be there. 282 00:21:34,540 --> 00:21:36,220 This is a group of people 283 00:21:36,300 --> 00:21:39,940 who want to tell you your work is going to live. 284 00:21:39,980 --> 00:21:41,140 Oh, is it ? 285 00:21:41,220 --> 00:21:44,060 Is my work going to live ? 286 00:21:44,140 --> 00:21:46,220 I can't go through with it, Clarissa. 287 00:21:46,380 --> 00:21:49,260 Oh... Why do you say that ? 288 00:21:49,340 --> 00:21:50,860 - I can't. - Why ? 289 00:21:50,940 --> 00:21:52,500 Because I wanted to be a writer, that's all. 290 00:21:52,580 --> 00:21:53,460 So ? 291 00:21:53,540 --> 00:21:56,300 I wanted to write about it all. 292 00:21:56,340 --> 00:21:58,380 Everything that happens in a moment. 293 00:21:58,460 --> 00:22:00,420 The way the flowers looked 294 00:22:00,460 --> 00:22:02,140 when you carried them in your arms. 295 00:22:02,220 --> 00:22:04,420 This towel, how it... smells, how it feels. 296 00:22:04,500 --> 00:22:05,540 This thread. 297 00:22:05,580 --> 00:22:08,100 All our feelings, 298 00:22:08,140 --> 00:22:09,860 yours and mine. 299 00:22:09,940 --> 00:22:10,860 The history of it, 300 00:22:10,940 --> 00:22:13,500 who we once were. 301 00:22:13,580 --> 00:22:15,260 Everything in the world. 302 00:22:16,540 --> 00:22:19,660 Everything all mixed up... 303 00:22:19,740 --> 00:22:22,420 like it's all mixed up now. 304 00:22:26,020 --> 00:22:27,940 And I failed. 305 00:22:33,740 --> 00:22:36,820 I failed. 306 00:22:36,900 --> 00:22:40,580 No matter what you start with, it ends up being so much less. 307 00:22:45,020 --> 00:22:46,860 Sheer fucking pride... 308 00:22:46,900 --> 00:22:48,460 and stupidity. 309 00:22:55,980 --> 00:22:59,100 We want everything, don't we ? 310 00:23:02,660 --> 00:23:03,540 I suppose we do. 311 00:23:03,620 --> 00:23:06,660 You kissed me on a beach. 312 00:23:11,500 --> 00:23:12,380 Yeah. 313 00:23:12,460 --> 00:23:14,180 Do you remember... 314 00:23:16,500 --> 00:23:18,660 how many years ago ? 315 00:23:18,740 --> 00:23:19,860 Of course. 316 00:23:19,940 --> 00:23:23,140 What did you want then ? 317 00:23:28,420 --> 00:23:30,140 Come closer. 318 00:23:32,100 --> 00:23:33,620 I'm right here. 319 00:23:33,740 --> 00:23:35,780 Come closer, would you, please ? 320 00:23:41,420 --> 00:23:43,100 Take my hand. 321 00:23:48,060 --> 00:23:49,580 Would you be angry ? 322 00:23:51,740 --> 00:23:53,860 Would I be angry if you didn't show up 323 00:23:53,940 --> 00:23:55,140 at the party ? 324 00:23:55,180 --> 00:23:58,380 Would you be angry if I died ? 325 00:23:58,460 --> 00:23:59,620 If you died ? 326 00:23:59,700 --> 00:24:01,940 Who is this party for ? 327 00:24:02,940 --> 00:24:04,060 What do you mean, who's it for ? 328 00:24:04,140 --> 00:24:05,900 What are you asking ? What are you trying to say ? 329 00:24:05,980 --> 00:24:07,620 I'm not trying to say anything. 330 00:24:07,700 --> 00:24:08,740 Mm. 331 00:24:08,820 --> 00:24:10,020 I'm saying... 332 00:24:10,140 --> 00:24:15,020 I think I'm only staying alive to satisfy you. 333 00:24:22,980 --> 00:24:24,980 Well... 334 00:24:25,060 --> 00:24:27,620 so that is what we do. 335 00:24:27,700 --> 00:24:29,380 That is what people do. 336 00:24:29,460 --> 00:24:33,060 They stay alive for each other. 337 00:24:33,100 --> 00:24:34,060 And the doctors told you, 338 00:24:34,100 --> 00:24:35,500 you-you don't need to die. 339 00:24:35,540 --> 00:24:36,460 They told you that. 340 00:24:37,540 --> 00:24:39,900 You can... live like this for years. 341 00:24:39,980 --> 00:24:41,700 Well, exactly. 342 00:24:44,660 --> 00:24:45,580 I don't accept this. 343 00:24:46,700 --> 00:24:48,420 I don't accept what you say. 344 00:24:48,500 --> 00:24:49,420 Oh. 345 00:24:49,460 --> 00:24:51,660 And it's for you to decide, is it ? 346 00:24:52,500 --> 00:24:54,100 How long have you been doing that ? 347 00:24:55,340 --> 00:24:56,300 How many years ? 348 00:24:56,340 --> 00:24:57,580 Coming to the apartment. 349 00:24:57,660 --> 00:25:00,500 What about your own life ? 350 00:25:00,580 --> 00:25:03,100 What about Sally ? 351 00:25:04,380 --> 00:25:06,340 Just wait till I die. 352 00:25:06,420 --> 00:25:07,740 Then you'll have to think of yourself. 353 00:25:09,220 --> 00:25:10,940 How are you going to like that ? 354 00:25:18,740 --> 00:25:20,460 Richard... 355 00:25:22,900 --> 00:25:25,660 it would be great if you did come to the party, 356 00:25:25,740 --> 00:25:28,100 if you felt well enough to come. 357 00:25:28,180 --> 00:25:29,300 Just to let you know, 358 00:25:29,380 --> 00:25:32,340 I am making the crab thing. 359 00:25:32,420 --> 00:25:35,260 Not that I imagine it makes any difference to you. 360 00:25:35,340 --> 00:25:36,900 Of course, it makes a difference. 361 00:25:36,980 --> 00:25:38,140 I love the crab thing. 362 00:25:39,860 --> 00:25:42,060 Clarissa ? 363 00:25:43,140 --> 00:25:44,180 Yes ? 364 00:25:58,220 --> 00:26:00,260 I'll be back at 3:30, 365 00:26:00,300 --> 00:26:01,740 and I'll help you get dressed. 366 00:26:01,820 --> 00:26:03,940 Wonderful. 367 00:26:03,980 --> 00:26:05,980 3:30. 368 00:26:17,100 --> 00:26:18,540 Wonderful. 369 00:26:42,620 --> 00:26:45,820 It's on this day, 370 00:26:45,900 --> 00:26:47,980 this day of all days... 371 00:26:56,980 --> 00:26:58,820 her fate becomes clear to her. 372 00:27:05,380 --> 00:27:06,700 Excuse me, Mrs. Woolf. 373 00:27:06,780 --> 00:27:09,020 Mr. Woolf said I was to come and speak with you. 374 00:27:10,660 --> 00:27:12,340 I've nearly finished, Nelly. 375 00:27:12,420 --> 00:27:14,300 You can tell me in the kitchen. 376 00:27:14,380 --> 00:27:15,820 I'll be down very soon. 377 00:27:20,420 --> 00:27:22,660 Hmm. 378 00:27:23,780 --> 00:27:25,980 What happens is, she says she wants something, 379 00:27:26,060 --> 00:27:27,460 and then it turns out she doesn't. 380 00:27:27,540 --> 00:27:29,140 Well, she never does, does she ? 381 00:27:29,220 --> 00:27:30,140 She never wants anything. 382 00:27:30,220 --> 00:27:31,140 Mm-hmm. 383 00:27:31,180 --> 00:27:33,380 Especially when she's particularly after it. 384 00:27:33,420 --> 00:27:34,340 That's a sure sign. 385 00:27:34,460 --> 00:27:35,540 I wish I'd been there. 386 00:27:35,620 --> 00:27:36,900 I wish you had, too. 387 00:27:36,980 --> 00:27:39,060 Did you give her that look ? 388 00:27:39,140 --> 00:27:40,140 That sort of look you do ? 389 00:27:42,620 --> 00:27:44,340 I said, Madam... 390 00:27:50,540 --> 00:27:52,700 Yes, Nelly, tell me. 391 00:27:52,780 --> 00:27:53,860 How can I help ? 392 00:27:53,900 --> 00:27:55,180 It's about lunch. 393 00:27:55,260 --> 00:27:58,500 I just had to go ahead on my own. 394 00:27:58,540 --> 00:28:00,260 I understand. 395 00:28:02,940 --> 00:28:04,860 You chose a pie ? 396 00:28:04,940 --> 00:28:06,580 I chose a lamb pie. 397 00:28:06,660 --> 00:28:08,780 That seems suitable. 398 00:28:08,860 --> 00:28:12,180 You being so busy with your writing... 399 00:28:12,260 --> 00:28:16,500 I had no instructions. 400 00:28:17,620 --> 00:28:19,980 You do remember that my sister is coming 401 00:28:20,020 --> 00:28:21,580 at 4:00 with the children ? 402 00:28:21,660 --> 00:28:22,780 Yes, ma'am. 403 00:28:22,860 --> 00:28:24,740 I hadn't forgotten. 404 00:28:27,100 --> 00:28:28,260 China tea, I think. 405 00:28:31,020 --> 00:28:33,020 And ginger. 406 00:28:35,700 --> 00:28:37,060 Ginger, Madam ? 407 00:28:39,220 --> 00:28:42,700 I'd like to give the children a treat. 408 00:28:45,300 --> 00:28:46,860 We'd have to go to London 409 00:28:46,940 --> 00:28:47,820 for ginger, Madam. 410 00:28:47,900 --> 00:28:49,140 I haven't finished this, 411 00:28:49,260 --> 00:28:51,060 and there's the rest of lunch 412 00:28:51,180 --> 00:28:52,500 to get ready. 413 00:28:53,540 --> 00:28:55,340 The 12:30 train, Nelly, will get you 414 00:28:55,420 --> 00:28:56,900 into London just after 1:00. 415 00:28:56,980 --> 00:28:58,380 If you return on the 2:30, 416 00:28:58,420 --> 00:29:00,940 you should be back in Richmond soon after 3:00. 417 00:29:02,580 --> 00:29:03,780 Do I miscalculate ? 418 00:29:04,860 --> 00:29:05,940 No. 419 00:29:06,020 --> 00:29:08,380 Well, then, is something detaining you, Nelly ? 420 00:29:17,100 --> 00:29:19,140 I can't think of anything more exhilarating 421 00:29:19,180 --> 00:29:20,300 than a trip to London. 422 00:29:27,300 --> 00:29:28,940 - Good morning, Mrs. Woolf. - Good morning. 423 00:29:29,020 --> 00:29:31,860 We shall publish no more new authors. 424 00:29:31,940 --> 00:29:32,940 I have to tell you, 425 00:29:33,020 --> 00:29:34,700 I've discovered ten errors in the first proof. 426 00:29:34,780 --> 00:29:36,300 Lucky to have found them then. 427 00:29:36,380 --> 00:29:38,940 Passiondale was a... 428 00:29:39,020 --> 00:29:40,100 charnel house 429 00:29:40,180 --> 00:29:42,700 from which no min returned. 430 00:29:44,340 --> 00:29:46,140 Do you think it's possible that 431 00:29:46,220 --> 00:29:47,820 bad writing actually attracts a higher 432 00:29:47,900 --> 00:29:48,700 incidence of error ? 433 00:29:50,580 --> 00:29:53,420 If it's all right, I thought I might take a short walk. 434 00:29:54,940 --> 00:29:56,260 Not far ? 435 00:29:56,300 --> 00:29:57,740 No. Just for air. 436 00:30:00,460 --> 00:30:01,540 Go then. 437 00:30:02,540 --> 00:30:04,620 If I could walk midmorning, 438 00:30:04,700 --> 00:30:06,020 I'd be a happy man. 439 00:30:16,020 --> 00:30:17,740 She'll die. 440 00:30:19,860 --> 00:30:21,100 She's going to die. 441 00:30:23,460 --> 00:30:26,020 That's what's going to happen. 442 00:30:26,180 --> 00:30:27,540 Huh. 443 00:30:27,620 --> 00:30:29,140 That's it. 444 00:30:35,260 --> 00:30:36,740 She'll kill herself. 445 00:30:39,740 --> 00:30:41,700 She'll kill herself over something 446 00:30:41,780 --> 00:30:43,540 which doesn't seem to matter. 447 00:30:43,620 --> 00:30:46,060 Let's think. 448 00:30:46,140 --> 00:30:47,820 You grease the pan, Mommy. 449 00:30:47,900 --> 00:30:49,900 I know you grease the pan, sweet one. 450 00:30:49,980 --> 00:30:51,220 Even Mommy knows that. 451 00:30:53,580 --> 00:30:55,820 This is what we're going to do. 452 00:30:56,860 --> 00:30:57,980 Flour... 453 00:30:58,060 --> 00:31:00,340 bowl... 454 00:31:00,420 --> 00:31:01,500 sifter. 455 00:31:01,580 --> 00:31:02,580 Can I do it, Mommy ? 456 00:31:03,620 --> 00:31:05,140 Can you sift the flour ? 457 00:31:06,620 --> 00:31:08,220 Yes, you can sift the flour, baby, 458 00:31:08,340 --> 00:31:09,940 if that's what makes you happy. 459 00:31:15,540 --> 00:31:16,900 Yeah. 460 00:31:20,460 --> 00:31:22,700 Isn't it beautiful ? 461 00:31:22,780 --> 00:31:25,940 Don't you think it looks like snow ? 462 00:31:26,020 --> 00:31:26,900 Hmm ? 463 00:31:26,980 --> 00:31:27,860 Okay. 464 00:31:27,940 --> 00:31:30,180 Now, the next thing... 465 00:31:30,220 --> 00:31:31,820 The next thing I'm going 466 00:31:31,900 --> 00:31:34,900 to show you... uh, is... 467 00:31:34,980 --> 00:31:36,060 we measure out the cups. 468 00:31:36,140 --> 00:31:38,500 Mommy, it isn't that difficult. 469 00:31:38,540 --> 00:31:40,260 Now, I know. I know it isn't difficult. 470 00:31:40,340 --> 00:31:41,260 It's just that I... 471 00:31:41,340 --> 00:31:43,620 I just want to do this for Daddy. 472 00:31:43,660 --> 00:31:45,540 Because it's his birthday ? 473 00:31:45,580 --> 00:31:46,500 That's right. 474 00:31:46,540 --> 00:31:47,980 We're baking the cake 475 00:31:48,020 --> 00:31:49,900 to show him that we love him. 476 00:31:49,980 --> 00:31:52,420 Otherwise he won't know we love him ? 477 00:31:55,340 --> 00:31:57,620 That's right. 478 00:32:06,340 --> 00:32:07,980 I got all the stuff. 479 00:32:08,060 --> 00:32:10,220 I'm going right out again. 480 00:32:10,300 --> 00:32:11,900 My God, what a zoo ! 481 00:32:11,980 --> 00:32:14,580 Why do people have to talk about dry cleaning ? 482 00:32:14,660 --> 00:32:16,700 I mean, what is there to talk about ? 483 00:32:16,780 --> 00:32:18,340 I bought you some flowers. 484 00:32:20,540 --> 00:32:21,740 Where are you ? 485 00:32:21,820 --> 00:32:23,460 In here. 486 00:32:23,500 --> 00:32:25,820 I got someone at work to cover me. 487 00:32:25,900 --> 00:32:28,980 I'll be with you all night. 488 00:32:35,060 --> 00:32:36,340 Are you all right ? 489 00:32:36,420 --> 00:32:38,220 Sure. 490 00:32:41,460 --> 00:32:43,700 I guess you saw Richard. 491 00:32:43,780 --> 00:32:45,020 That's right. 492 00:32:47,660 --> 00:32:49,340 Well, of course. 493 00:32:50,380 --> 00:32:51,260 I bet he said, 494 00:32:51,340 --> 00:32:52,900 Oh, by the way, honey, do you mind ? 495 00:32:52,980 --> 00:32:54,020 Can I skip the party ? 496 00:32:56,060 --> 00:32:57,220 Don't worry. 497 00:32:57,260 --> 00:32:58,860 He always shows up. 498 00:32:58,940 --> 00:32:59,940 Oh, sure. 499 00:33:00,020 --> 00:33:01,060 In the end. 500 00:33:01,100 --> 00:33:02,820 What, Richard miss an award ? 501 00:33:02,900 --> 00:33:04,940 A chance to talk about his work. 502 00:33:05,020 --> 00:33:06,340 I don't think so. 503 00:33:06,380 --> 00:33:07,460 He'll show up. 504 00:33:07,540 --> 00:33:09,180 You did the seating. 505 00:33:10,740 --> 00:33:11,980 I did. 506 00:33:14,100 --> 00:33:15,780 I don't believe it... Louis Waters. 507 00:33:15,900 --> 00:33:18,020 Is Louis coming ? 508 00:33:18,100 --> 00:33:19,140 Richard's Louis ? 509 00:33:19,180 --> 00:33:20,500 He is. 510 00:33:20,580 --> 00:33:22,500 You put him next to me. 511 00:33:24,980 --> 00:33:26,900 Why do I always have to sit next to the exes ? 512 00:33:26,980 --> 00:33:28,740 Is this some kind of a hint, sweetheart ? 513 00:33:28,820 --> 00:33:31,140 And, anyway, shouldn't the exes have a table 514 00:33:31,260 --> 00:33:34,500 of their own, where they can all ex together 515 00:33:34,540 --> 00:33:35,980 in ex-quisite agony ? 516 00:33:38,540 --> 00:33:39,900 I'm off. 517 00:33:41,620 --> 00:33:43,820 Try not to pass out from excitement. 518 00:33:48,340 --> 00:33:49,540 Clarissa... 519 00:33:49,620 --> 00:33:50,820 it's going to be beautiful. 520 00:33:57,220 --> 00:33:58,900 Thank you. 521 00:33:59,020 --> 00:34:01,740 You're welcome. 522 00:34:08,340 --> 00:34:11,260 Why is everything wrong ? 523 00:34:15,660 --> 00:34:16,780 It didn't work. 524 00:34:16,860 --> 00:34:17,820 Damn it ! 525 00:34:17,900 --> 00:34:19,780 It didn't work. 526 00:34:22,980 --> 00:34:24,260 Hey, Scott. 527 00:34:24,340 --> 00:34:26,300 Hi, Mrs. Barlowe. 528 00:34:38,940 --> 00:34:40,460 Mommy, Mommy, there's someone at the door ! 529 00:34:48,780 --> 00:34:50,060 Hello ? 530 00:34:51,580 --> 00:34:53,900 Hello ? Laura ? 531 00:34:53,980 --> 00:34:54,940 Hi, Kitty. 532 00:34:55,020 --> 00:34:56,100 Hi. Am I interrupting ? 533 00:34:56,180 --> 00:34:57,700 Oh, of course not. Come in. 534 00:34:57,780 --> 00:34:58,820 Are you all right ? 535 00:34:58,900 --> 00:35:00,380 Why, sure. 536 00:35:01,420 --> 00:35:02,500 Hi, Richie. 537 00:35:02,580 --> 00:35:03,620 Sit down. 538 00:35:03,660 --> 00:35:05,060 I've got coffee on. 539 00:35:05,100 --> 00:35:06,820 Um, would you like some ? 540 00:35:06,860 --> 00:35:07,940 Please. 541 00:35:08,020 --> 00:35:09,220 Oh, look. 542 00:35:09,300 --> 00:35:11,460 You made a cake. 543 00:35:11,540 --> 00:35:12,740 I know. 544 00:35:12,780 --> 00:35:13,860 Didn't work. 545 00:35:13,900 --> 00:35:16,420 I thought it was going to work. 546 00:35:16,500 --> 00:35:18,860 I thought it would work better than that. 547 00:35:19,940 --> 00:35:20,940 Oh, Laura, I don't understand 548 00:35:21,020 --> 00:35:22,020 why you find it so difficult. 549 00:35:22,100 --> 00:35:23,060 I don't know either. 550 00:35:23,140 --> 00:35:24,260 Anyone can make a cake. 551 00:35:24,340 --> 00:35:25,220 I know. 552 00:35:25,300 --> 00:35:26,300 Everyone can. 553 00:35:26,380 --> 00:35:27,940 It's ridiculously easy. 554 00:35:29,140 --> 00:35:30,940 Like, I bet you didn't even grease the pan. 555 00:35:31,020 --> 00:35:32,580 I greased the pan. 556 00:35:32,660 --> 00:35:33,620 All right. 557 00:35:33,700 --> 00:35:34,740 You know, you have 558 00:35:34,820 --> 00:35:37,020 other virtues... and Dan loves you so much, 559 00:35:37,100 --> 00:35:38,300 he won't even notice. 560 00:35:38,380 --> 00:35:39,380 Whatever you do, 561 00:35:39,460 --> 00:35:41,700 he's going to say it's wonderful. 562 00:35:41,780 --> 00:35:42,980 Well, it's true. 563 00:35:44,900 --> 00:35:46,460 Does Ray have a birthday ? 564 00:35:48,300 --> 00:35:49,300 Sure he does. 565 00:35:49,380 --> 00:35:50,340 When is it ? 566 00:35:50,420 --> 00:35:51,500 September. 567 00:35:51,580 --> 00:35:52,940 We go to the country club. 568 00:35:53,020 --> 00:35:54,740 We always go to the country club. 569 00:35:54,820 --> 00:35:57,540 We drink martinis and spend the day with 50 people. 570 00:35:57,620 --> 00:35:59,100 Ray's got a lot of friends. 571 00:35:59,180 --> 00:36:01,460 He does. 572 00:36:01,540 --> 00:36:03,020 You both have a lot of friends. 573 00:36:03,100 --> 00:36:04,020 You're good at it. 574 00:36:07,100 --> 00:36:08,180 How is Ray ? 575 00:36:08,260 --> 00:36:10,140 I haven't seen him in a while. 576 00:36:10,220 --> 00:36:11,260 Ray's fine. 577 00:36:11,340 --> 00:36:12,420 Mmm. 578 00:36:12,460 --> 00:36:14,500 These guys are something, aren't they ? 579 00:36:14,540 --> 00:36:15,780 You can say that again. 580 00:36:15,820 --> 00:36:17,780 They came home from the war. 581 00:36:17,860 --> 00:36:19,980 They deserved it, didn't they ? 582 00:36:20,060 --> 00:36:22,220 After what they'd been through. 583 00:36:22,300 --> 00:36:23,940 What... did they deserve ? 584 00:36:23,980 --> 00:36:25,140 I don't know. 585 00:36:25,220 --> 00:36:28,140 Us, I guess. 586 00:36:28,220 --> 00:36:30,020 All this. 587 00:36:31,540 --> 00:36:32,660 Oh. 588 00:36:32,740 --> 00:36:34,580 You're reading a book. 589 00:36:34,660 --> 00:36:35,780 Yeah. 590 00:36:37,060 --> 00:36:38,900 What's this one about ? 591 00:36:38,980 --> 00:36:40,180 Oh, it's about... 592 00:36:40,260 --> 00:36:42,860 this woman who's incredibly... 593 00:36:42,940 --> 00:36:46,020 Well, she's a hostess, and she's incredibly confident, 594 00:36:46,100 --> 00:36:48,140 and she's going to give a party, 595 00:36:48,220 --> 00:36:50,500 and maybe because she's confident, 596 00:36:50,540 --> 00:36:53,420 everyone thinks she's fine... 597 00:36:53,500 --> 00:36:54,940 but she isn't. 598 00:37:03,340 --> 00:37:05,260 So. 599 00:37:06,500 --> 00:37:07,620 Well. 600 00:37:12,460 --> 00:37:13,740 Kitty, what is it ? 601 00:37:13,820 --> 00:37:15,540 Is something wrong ? 602 00:37:17,380 --> 00:37:19,460 I, uh... I have to go into the hospital 603 00:37:19,500 --> 00:37:20,660 for a couple of days. 604 00:37:20,740 --> 00:37:22,340 Kitty. 605 00:37:23,500 --> 00:37:26,660 Yeah. I have, um... 606 00:37:26,700 --> 00:37:28,860 some kind of... growth, in my uterus, 607 00:37:28,940 --> 00:37:31,460 and they're going to go in and take a look. 608 00:37:31,500 --> 00:37:32,420 When ? 609 00:37:32,460 --> 00:37:34,700 This afternoon. 610 00:37:35,900 --> 00:37:38,020 Well, I need you to feed the dog. 611 00:37:39,820 --> 00:37:41,060 Of course. 612 00:37:58,060 --> 00:38:00,620 Is that what you came here to ask ? 613 00:38:03,900 --> 00:38:05,980 What did the doctor say exactly ? 614 00:38:07,660 --> 00:38:10,180 Well, it's probably what the trouble's been. 615 00:38:10,220 --> 00:38:12,580 About getting pregnant. 616 00:38:13,740 --> 00:38:16,460 The thing is... 617 00:38:16,540 --> 00:38:17,860 I mean, you know, 618 00:38:17,900 --> 00:38:20,700 I've been... really happy with Ray. 619 00:38:25,260 --> 00:38:27,340 And now it turns out there was a reason. 620 00:38:30,060 --> 00:38:32,100 There was a reason I couldn't conceive. 621 00:38:36,980 --> 00:38:38,020 You're lucky, Laura. 622 00:38:38,060 --> 00:38:40,220 I don't think you can call yourself a woman 623 00:38:40,300 --> 00:38:41,420 until you're a mother. 624 00:38:46,260 --> 00:38:49,540 The joke is... 625 00:38:49,580 --> 00:38:51,340 all my life I could do everything. 626 00:38:53,620 --> 00:38:55,860 I mean, I could do anything, really. 627 00:38:58,180 --> 00:39:00,420 Except the one thing I wanted. 628 00:39:00,460 --> 00:39:02,220 Yes. 629 00:39:03,260 --> 00:39:04,500 That's all. 630 00:39:06,060 --> 00:39:08,140 Well, at least now they'll be able to deal with it. 631 00:39:08,220 --> 00:39:10,140 That's right. That's what they're doing. 632 00:39:10,220 --> 00:39:11,180 That's right. 633 00:39:11,260 --> 00:39:12,580 Mm. I'm not worried. 634 00:39:12,620 --> 00:39:15,020 What would be the point of worrying ? 635 00:39:15,100 --> 00:39:16,940 No, it's not in your hands. 636 00:39:17,020 --> 00:39:18,260 But that's it. 637 00:39:18,340 --> 00:39:22,620 It's in the hands of some physician I've never even met. 638 00:39:22,700 --> 00:39:26,180 Some surgeon who probably drinks more martinis 639 00:39:26,260 --> 00:39:27,220 than Ray and... 640 00:39:27,300 --> 00:39:28,220 Oh, Kitty. 641 00:39:28,300 --> 00:39:30,740 I'm mean, of course I'm worried about Ray. 642 00:39:30,860 --> 00:39:31,580 Come here. 643 00:39:31,660 --> 00:39:32,820 I'm doing fine. 644 00:39:32,900 --> 00:39:33,780 Really. 645 00:39:33,860 --> 00:39:34,860 I know. I know you are. 646 00:39:34,940 --> 00:39:36,180 I'm more worried about Ray. 647 00:39:36,260 --> 00:39:38,340 If anything, he's not good with this stuff. 648 00:39:39,700 --> 00:39:40,900 Forget about him, hmm ? 649 00:39:40,980 --> 00:39:42,300 Just forget about Ray. 650 00:40:04,420 --> 00:40:05,980 You're sweet. 651 00:40:11,780 --> 00:40:12,940 You know the routine, right ? 652 00:40:13,020 --> 00:40:15,260 Half a can in the evening, and... 653 00:40:15,340 --> 00:40:17,380 check the water now and then, 654 00:40:17,420 --> 00:40:20,300 and Ray will feed him in the morning. 655 00:40:25,820 --> 00:40:27,700 Kitty, you didn't mind ? 656 00:40:30,140 --> 00:40:32,580 What ? 657 00:40:32,660 --> 00:40:33,580 I didn't mind what ? 658 00:40:42,780 --> 00:40:44,980 Do you want me to drive you ? 659 00:40:49,060 --> 00:40:51,340 I think I'll feel better if I drive myself. 660 00:40:55,860 --> 00:40:57,460 Kitty, it's going to be all right. 661 00:41:00,540 --> 00:41:01,780 Of course it is. 662 00:41:05,020 --> 00:41:06,100 Bye. 663 00:41:26,300 --> 00:41:27,340 What ? 664 00:41:27,420 --> 00:41:28,580 What do you want ? 665 00:41:45,500 --> 00:41:48,260 Mr. Woolf, Mrs. Bell has arrived. 666 00:41:50,660 --> 00:41:52,300 Not due till 4:00. 667 00:41:52,380 --> 00:41:55,260 I can't help it. She's here. 668 00:42:00,700 --> 00:42:03,620 You look a perfect angel. 669 00:42:03,700 --> 00:42:05,820 Don't let the boys make fun of you. 670 00:42:05,900 --> 00:42:07,420 Fly away, fly. 671 00:42:10,140 --> 00:42:12,060 Virginia. 672 00:42:13,460 --> 00:42:16,020 Leonard thinks it's the end of civilization... 673 00:42:16,100 --> 00:42:18,980 people who are invited at 4:00 and arrive at 2:30. 674 00:42:19,060 --> 00:42:21,300 Oh, God. 675 00:42:22,460 --> 00:42:23,700 Barbarians. 676 00:42:23,780 --> 00:42:28,420 Well, we finished lunch sooner than we imagined. 677 00:42:31,420 --> 00:42:34,660 I've had to send Nelly off to London for sugar ginger. 678 00:42:34,740 --> 00:42:37,180 Oh, Virginia. 679 00:42:37,260 --> 00:42:41,220 You're not still frightened of the servants, are you ? 680 00:42:41,260 --> 00:42:42,540 Come on. 681 00:42:45,860 --> 00:42:47,260 And how are you, sister ? 682 00:42:47,340 --> 00:42:49,380 Frantic. 683 00:42:49,460 --> 00:42:51,180 It's been ridiculous in London. 684 00:42:51,260 --> 00:42:53,060 Ridiculous ? How ? 685 00:42:53,100 --> 00:42:56,420 Busy. 686 00:42:57,780 --> 00:42:59,420 Why is busy ridiculous ? 687 00:42:59,500 --> 00:43:02,940 I would have invited you to our party, 688 00:43:03,020 --> 00:43:04,100 but I knew you wouldn't come. 689 00:43:04,180 --> 00:43:05,540 Did you ? How did you know that ? 690 00:43:07,260 --> 00:43:09,420 I thought you never came to town. 691 00:43:10,820 --> 00:43:13,100 That's because you no longer ask me. 692 00:43:15,860 --> 00:43:18,500 Are you not forbidden to come ? 693 00:43:18,540 --> 00:43:21,060 Do the doctors not forbid it ? 694 00:43:21,140 --> 00:43:23,100 Oh, the doctors. 695 00:43:24,780 --> 00:43:26,340 Do you not pay heed to your doctors ? 696 00:43:26,420 --> 00:43:29,460 Not when they're a bunch of contemptible Victorians. 697 00:43:29,540 --> 00:43:31,580 So... what are you saying ? 698 00:43:32,940 --> 00:43:35,060 Are you feeling better ? 699 00:43:35,140 --> 00:43:37,540 Has this vastness made you stronger ? 700 00:43:37,620 --> 00:43:41,380 I'm saying, Vanessa, that even crazy people like to be asked. 701 00:43:41,420 --> 00:43:42,940 Nessa ! Nessa ! 702 00:43:43,020 --> 00:43:44,900 Nessa ! Nessa ! 703 00:43:45,020 --> 00:43:47,140 Hello, changelings. 704 00:43:47,180 --> 00:43:48,820 What have you got ? 705 00:43:48,900 --> 00:43:50,020 What have you found ? 706 00:43:50,060 --> 00:43:51,460 We found a bird. 707 00:43:51,500 --> 00:43:53,020 Did you ? 708 00:43:53,100 --> 00:43:54,020 Yes. 709 00:43:54,060 --> 00:43:55,620 Where did you find that ? 710 00:43:55,700 --> 00:43:57,540 I think it must have fallen from a tree. 711 00:43:57,580 --> 00:43:58,940 Oh, my goodness. 712 00:43:59,020 --> 00:44:00,580 Just look at him. 713 00:44:00,660 --> 00:44:02,820 We might be able to save him. 714 00:44:02,860 --> 00:44:04,300 Save him ? 715 00:44:04,380 --> 00:44:07,380 I think you have to be careful, Quentin. 716 00:44:07,460 --> 00:44:08,380 There's a time to die, 717 00:44:08,460 --> 00:44:09,700 and it may be the bird's time. 718 00:44:09,780 --> 00:44:11,620 Come on, let's pick some grass 719 00:44:11,700 --> 00:44:13,180 to make a grave. 720 00:44:13,260 --> 00:44:15,140 - Oh, Julian. - I'm just saying. 721 00:44:15,180 --> 00:44:16,820 Then at least there'll be a bed for him to die on. 722 00:44:16,900 --> 00:44:19,940 Come on, Nessa, let's make a grave. 723 00:44:21,580 --> 00:44:22,940 Nessa, come on ! 724 00:44:23,020 --> 00:44:24,180 Oh... 725 00:44:24,300 --> 00:44:25,980 Very well, I'm coming. 726 00:44:26,060 --> 00:44:27,220 Wait for me then. 727 00:44:27,300 --> 00:44:29,780 Angelica, will you be all right ? 728 00:44:29,860 --> 00:44:30,820 Stay with your aunt. 729 00:44:30,900 --> 00:44:32,940 You're going too fast. 730 00:44:51,420 --> 00:44:52,860 Do you think she'd like roses ? 731 00:44:59,980 --> 00:45:02,180 Is it a she ? 732 00:45:03,500 --> 00:45:05,940 Yes, the females are larger. 733 00:45:06,020 --> 00:45:09,620 And less colorful. 734 00:45:09,700 --> 00:45:12,340 What happens when we die ? 735 00:45:12,420 --> 00:45:14,100 What happens ? 736 00:45:19,340 --> 00:45:22,300 We return to the place that we came from. 737 00:45:22,380 --> 00:45:25,140 I don't remember where I came from. 738 00:45:25,220 --> 00:45:26,620 Nor do I. 739 00:45:30,700 --> 00:45:33,180 She looks very small. 740 00:45:34,580 --> 00:45:36,260 Yes. 741 00:45:36,340 --> 00:45:38,820 Yes, that's one of the things that happens... 742 00:45:38,900 --> 00:45:42,300 we look smaller. 743 00:45:42,380 --> 00:45:45,500 But very peaceful. 744 00:45:57,460 --> 00:45:58,940 Oh, is it done ? 745 00:45:59,020 --> 00:46:01,140 Have we finished ? 746 00:46:01,220 --> 00:46:03,060 Is the bird funeral complete ? 747 00:46:03,140 --> 00:46:04,020 Yes. 748 00:46:04,100 --> 00:46:05,380 Very well, then. 749 00:46:05,460 --> 00:46:08,180 Are we to be denied tea altogether for coming so early ? 750 00:46:08,260 --> 00:46:09,580 No, of course not. 751 00:46:09,660 --> 00:46:10,740 Good. 752 00:46:10,820 --> 00:46:13,740 Come on, Angelica. 753 00:46:13,820 --> 00:46:15,060 Come on, come on, boys. 754 00:46:15,140 --> 00:46:16,100 Let's get some tea. 755 00:46:16,180 --> 00:46:18,020 Nessa, tell him to stop it ! 756 00:46:18,100 --> 00:46:20,220 Now stop it, Julian. 757 00:46:26,740 --> 00:46:30,780 Virginia, we're going in. 758 00:46:30,860 --> 00:46:32,980 Virginia ! 759 00:47:46,460 --> 00:47:48,180 Hey, bug. 760 00:47:48,260 --> 00:47:50,300 I've got this idea. 761 00:47:50,380 --> 00:47:52,660 We're going to make another cake. 762 00:47:54,220 --> 00:47:56,100 We're going to make a better one. 763 00:47:56,140 --> 00:47:57,620 What happened to the first one ? 764 00:48:01,940 --> 00:48:04,500 And after that... 765 00:48:04,580 --> 00:48:07,140 I think we should go out. 766 00:48:17,460 --> 00:48:18,700 Yes ? 767 00:48:18,780 --> 00:48:20,860 Clarissa, it's Louis. 768 00:48:20,940 --> 00:48:22,340 Louis Waters. 769 00:48:22,380 --> 00:48:25,140 Louis ? Oh, my God. 770 00:48:25,220 --> 00:48:26,100 You're early. 771 00:48:26,180 --> 00:48:27,100 Do you mind ? 772 00:48:27,180 --> 00:48:28,700 Is it all right ? 773 00:48:46,020 --> 00:48:48,380 Oh, why should I mind ? 774 00:48:48,460 --> 00:48:49,500 I'm delighted ! 775 00:48:49,580 --> 00:48:51,060 Well, now ! 776 00:48:53,900 --> 00:48:55,700 I feel like I'm interrupting. 777 00:48:55,780 --> 00:48:56,660 Oh, why ?! 778 00:48:56,740 --> 00:48:58,100 No. 779 00:48:58,180 --> 00:48:59,900 I know the ceremony isn't until 5:00, 780 00:48:59,980 --> 00:49:01,180 but I flew in this morning. 781 00:49:01,220 --> 00:49:06,340 Oh, well, Richard's going to be thrilled. 782 00:49:06,380 --> 00:49:08,780 He'll be thrilled to see you. 783 00:49:08,860 --> 00:49:09,780 You think so ? 784 00:49:09,860 --> 00:49:11,300 Of course. 785 00:49:17,460 --> 00:49:19,700 What are we doing ? We should go in. 786 00:49:27,780 --> 00:49:29,140 Are you all right ? 787 00:49:29,220 --> 00:49:30,780 Yes. It's nothing. 788 00:49:30,860 --> 00:49:32,580 It's just the party. 789 00:49:32,660 --> 00:49:34,100 Oh, right. 790 00:49:37,100 --> 00:49:38,700 Oh, wow ! 791 00:49:38,780 --> 00:49:39,660 It's looking beautiful. 792 00:49:39,740 --> 00:49:41,340 Thanks. 793 00:49:41,420 --> 00:49:42,100 Are you still with... ? 794 00:49:42,180 --> 00:49:43,100 Yes, I am. 795 00:49:43,180 --> 00:49:45,020 Still with her. Ten years. 796 00:49:46,140 --> 00:49:46,900 It's crazy. 797 00:49:46,980 --> 00:49:48,940 Why is it crazy ? 798 00:49:49,020 --> 00:49:50,620 No reason. 799 00:49:50,700 --> 00:49:52,140 Would you like something to drink ? 800 00:49:52,220 --> 00:49:53,780 Some water. 801 00:49:53,860 --> 00:49:54,660 Okay. 802 00:50:09,740 --> 00:50:11,940 Are you still an editor ? 803 00:50:12,020 --> 00:50:14,140 Oh, sure. 804 00:50:14,180 --> 00:50:15,500 With the same publisher ? 805 00:50:16,780 --> 00:50:18,100 Mm-hmm. 806 00:50:18,220 --> 00:50:19,940 How's San Francisco ? 807 00:50:20,020 --> 00:50:23,900 Oh, it's one of those cities people tell you to like. 808 00:50:37,860 --> 00:50:39,820 Richard said he thought 809 00:50:39,900 --> 00:50:40,900 you were happy out there. 810 00:50:40,980 --> 00:50:41,860 Oh, great. 811 00:50:41,940 --> 00:50:43,820 So now the illness makes him psychic. 812 00:50:46,820 --> 00:50:48,100 You have to prepare yourself, Louis. 813 00:50:48,140 --> 00:50:50,380 He's very changed. 814 00:50:53,180 --> 00:50:54,420 I read the book. 815 00:50:54,500 --> 00:50:55,620 Oh, God... 816 00:50:55,700 --> 00:50:57,540 Exactly. 817 00:50:57,620 --> 00:50:59,300 I thought you were meant to do more 818 00:50:59,340 --> 00:51:00,900 than just change people's names. 819 00:51:00,980 --> 00:51:01,900 Well... 820 00:51:01,980 --> 00:51:04,100 Isn't it meant to be fiction ? 821 00:51:04,140 --> 00:51:05,780 He even had you living 822 00:51:05,860 --> 00:51:07,300 on 10th Street. 823 00:51:07,380 --> 00:51:08,380 It isn't me. 824 00:51:08,460 --> 00:51:09,460 Isn't it ? 825 00:51:09,540 --> 00:51:10,700 You know how Richard is. 826 00:51:10,780 --> 00:51:11,740 It's a fantasy. 827 00:51:11,780 --> 00:51:13,220 A whole chapter on 828 00:51:13,260 --> 00:51:15,940 Should she buy some nail polish ? 829 00:51:15,980 --> 00:51:17,260 And then, guess what ? 830 00:51:17,340 --> 00:51:19,300 After 50 pages, she doesn't. 831 00:51:20,300 --> 00:51:23,300 The whole thing seems to go on for eternity. 832 00:51:23,460 --> 00:51:24,260 Nothing happens. 833 00:51:24,300 --> 00:51:25,220 And then, wham ! 834 00:51:25,380 --> 00:51:27,620 For no reason, she kills herself. 835 00:51:27,660 --> 00:51:28,900 His mother 836 00:51:28,940 --> 00:51:29,980 kills herself. 837 00:51:30,020 --> 00:51:31,620 Yeah, sure, his mother, but still for no reason. 838 00:51:31,660 --> 00:51:33,860 Well, I... 839 00:51:34,020 --> 00:51:34,900 Out of the blue. 840 00:51:36,820 --> 00:51:38,500 I know the book is tough, but I liked it. 841 00:51:39,740 --> 00:51:40,580 I know. 842 00:51:40,700 --> 00:51:43,980 Only one thing upset me. 843 00:51:44,060 --> 00:51:45,220 What's that ? 844 00:51:45,260 --> 00:51:46,180 What upset you ? 845 00:51:48,140 --> 00:51:49,580 Well... 846 00:51:49,660 --> 00:51:52,460 that there wasn't more about you. 847 00:51:57,060 --> 00:51:58,660 That's kind. 848 00:52:01,420 --> 00:52:03,180 I went back to Wellfleet. 849 00:52:06,500 --> 00:52:07,380 You did ? 850 00:52:07,460 --> 00:52:08,340 One day. 851 00:52:08,420 --> 00:52:09,460 I didn't tell you ? 852 00:52:11,820 --> 00:52:13,180 No. 853 00:52:13,260 --> 00:52:15,180 But then, I never see you. 854 00:52:16,580 --> 00:52:18,340 You remember the house. 855 00:52:18,380 --> 00:52:20,860 It's still there. 856 00:52:20,940 --> 00:52:21,900 I think you're courageous. 857 00:52:21,980 --> 00:52:24,700 Courageous ? Why ? 858 00:52:24,820 --> 00:52:26,460 To dare go visit. 859 00:52:26,540 --> 00:52:28,660 What I mean is... 860 00:52:28,740 --> 00:52:30,460 to face the fact 861 00:52:30,540 --> 00:52:34,820 that we have lost those feelings forever. 862 00:52:37,700 --> 00:52:39,020 Shit ! 863 00:52:39,100 --> 00:52:40,900 Clarissa ? 864 00:52:40,940 --> 00:52:43,100 Um... 865 00:52:43,140 --> 00:52:45,100 I don't know what's happening. 866 00:52:45,180 --> 00:52:46,060 I'm sorry. 867 00:52:46,140 --> 00:52:47,500 I seem to be in some strange 868 00:52:47,580 --> 00:52:49,020 sort of mood. 869 00:52:49,100 --> 00:52:50,020 I'm sorry. 870 00:52:50,060 --> 00:52:52,860 It's, uh, it's very rude of me. 871 00:52:54,900 --> 00:52:57,140 I seem to be unraveling. 872 00:52:57,220 --> 00:52:58,140 I shouldn't have come. 873 00:52:58,220 --> 00:52:59,180 No, it's not you. 874 00:52:59,300 --> 00:53:00,020 It's not you. 875 00:53:01,020 --> 00:53:02,940 It's more like having a presentiment. 876 00:53:03,020 --> 00:53:04,500 Do you know what I'm saying ? 877 00:53:06,220 --> 00:53:08,580 Oh, God, it's probably just nerves 878 00:53:08,660 --> 00:53:10,540 about the party, you know ? 879 00:53:10,620 --> 00:53:13,020 Bad hostess ! 880 00:53:13,100 --> 00:53:15,620 Clarissa, what's happened ? 881 00:53:15,660 --> 00:53:17,380 Jesus ! 882 00:53:17,420 --> 00:53:19,700 What is it ?! 883 00:53:19,780 --> 00:53:21,140 Oh ! Oh, God ! 884 00:53:23,020 --> 00:53:25,980 Do you want me to go ? 885 00:53:26,060 --> 00:53:29,620 No, don't go ! Don't... 886 00:53:29,700 --> 00:53:31,380 Don't go. 887 00:53:31,460 --> 00:53:33,220 Explain to me why this is happening. 888 00:53:35,260 --> 00:53:37,580 Don't... don't touch me. 889 00:53:37,700 --> 00:53:38,820 Jesus. 890 00:53:38,860 --> 00:53:40,940 It's better if you don't. 891 00:53:43,940 --> 00:53:46,540 It's just too much. 892 00:53:46,620 --> 00:53:49,380 You fly in from San Francisco, 893 00:53:49,460 --> 00:53:52,220 and I've been nursing Richard for years. 894 00:53:52,260 --> 00:53:55,220 And all the time, I've held myself together... 895 00:53:55,300 --> 00:53:56,700 no problem. 896 00:53:56,860 --> 00:53:58,180 I know. 897 00:54:00,580 --> 00:54:04,020 One morning, in Wellfleet... 898 00:54:04,100 --> 00:54:08,340 you were there, we were all there... 899 00:54:08,420 --> 00:54:10,820 I'd been sleeping with him, 900 00:54:10,900 --> 00:54:13,860 and I was out on the back porch. 901 00:54:13,940 --> 00:54:17,660 He came out behind me, 902 00:54:17,740 --> 00:54:22,380 and he put his hand on my shoulder. 903 00:54:22,460 --> 00:54:25,100 Good morning, Mrs. Dalloway. 904 00:54:28,660 --> 00:54:30,220 That's... 905 00:54:32,340 --> 00:54:33,940 That's when... 906 00:54:34,020 --> 00:54:36,700 From then on, I've... been stuck. 907 00:54:36,780 --> 00:54:37,780 Stuck ? 908 00:54:37,860 --> 00:54:39,940 Yep. 909 00:54:41,220 --> 00:54:42,340 Yeah. 910 00:54:43,460 --> 00:54:45,260 With the name, I mean. 911 00:54:48,900 --> 00:54:51,260 And now you walk in. 912 00:54:51,340 --> 00:54:54,420 To see you 913 00:54:54,500 --> 00:54:57,820 walk in... because I never see you. 914 00:54:57,900 --> 00:55:00,220 Look at you. 915 00:55:02,180 --> 00:55:06,500 Anyway, it doesn't matter. 916 00:55:06,580 --> 00:55:08,420 It was you he stayed with. 917 00:55:08,460 --> 00:55:09,420 It was you he lived with. 918 00:55:09,500 --> 00:55:12,460 I had one summer. 919 00:55:23,540 --> 00:55:25,820 The day I left him, 920 00:55:25,900 --> 00:55:32,260 I got on a train and made my way across Europe. 921 00:55:32,340 --> 00:55:36,740 I felt free for the first time in years. 922 00:55:51,900 --> 00:55:55,580 So... tell me about San Francisco. 923 00:55:55,660 --> 00:55:56,860 What's to tell ? 924 00:55:56,900 --> 00:56:00,420 I still teach drama to idiots, mostly. 925 00:56:00,540 --> 00:56:01,980 They can't all be idiots. 926 00:56:02,020 --> 00:56:04,140 No, no. In fact, 927 00:56:04,220 --> 00:56:07,100 I shouldn't tell you this, but... 928 00:56:07,180 --> 00:56:08,300 I've fallen in love. 929 00:56:08,380 --> 00:56:10,420 Really ? 930 00:56:10,500 --> 00:56:12,500 Yes. 931 00:56:12,580 --> 00:56:14,420 With a student. 932 00:56:14,500 --> 00:56:15,580 With a student. 933 00:56:15,660 --> 00:56:17,260 Exactly. 934 00:56:17,340 --> 00:56:19,180 I know. 935 00:56:19,260 --> 00:56:21,540 You think, Am I still up for this ? 936 00:56:21,660 --> 00:56:23,460 All this intensity, all those arguments, 937 00:56:23,580 --> 00:56:26,220 doors being slammed. 938 00:56:26,300 --> 00:56:29,100 Well, you know what it's like. 939 00:56:30,300 --> 00:56:31,540 Are you feeling better ? 940 00:56:33,700 --> 00:56:34,740 A little. 941 00:56:34,820 --> 00:56:36,300 Thank you. 942 00:56:40,420 --> 00:56:42,140 You think I'm ridiculous ? 943 00:56:44,100 --> 00:56:46,380 Ridiculous ? 944 00:56:46,460 --> 00:56:48,980 Fortunate, too. 945 00:57:17,860 --> 00:57:20,220 I'm going to leave you at Mrs. Latch's. 946 00:57:20,300 --> 00:57:22,140 I have to do something. 947 00:57:32,940 --> 00:57:35,380 Mommy, I don't want to go. 948 00:57:35,460 --> 00:57:37,500 You have to. I'm sorry. 949 00:57:37,580 --> 00:57:39,660 I have something to do before Daddy gets home. 950 00:58:25,460 --> 00:58:27,260 Hello. 951 00:58:27,340 --> 00:58:28,780 Hi, Mrs. Latch. 952 00:58:28,860 --> 00:58:30,420 My boy's not very happy. 953 00:58:31,500 --> 00:58:33,660 Mommy, I don't want to do this. 954 00:58:33,700 --> 00:58:36,100 I have to go, honey. 955 00:58:37,380 --> 00:58:39,540 Your mommy has things she has to do. 956 00:58:39,620 --> 00:58:41,020 Come in, I got cookies. 957 00:58:42,380 --> 00:58:43,300 Okay, baby ? 958 00:58:45,180 --> 00:58:46,740 You have to be brave now. 959 00:58:48,260 --> 00:58:49,140 Don't worry now. 960 00:58:49,220 --> 00:58:50,540 It's going to be fine. 961 00:58:50,620 --> 00:58:51,540 Well... 962 00:59:08,580 --> 00:59:09,500 Honey ! 963 00:59:28,900 --> 00:59:31,060 Come on. Come on, darling. 964 00:59:35,380 --> 00:59:37,700 Mommy ! 965 00:59:37,740 --> 00:59:38,660 - Stop it. - No ! 966 00:59:38,700 --> 00:59:39,900 Darling, stop it. 967 00:59:39,940 --> 00:59:41,020 Mommy ! 968 00:59:41,140 --> 00:59:42,140 - All right. - Mommy ! 969 00:59:42,180 --> 00:59:44,020 Mommy ! 970 00:59:44,100 --> 00:59:45,380 Mommy ! 971 00:59:47,380 --> 00:59:48,340 Come on. 972 00:59:48,420 --> 00:59:49,780 Mommy ! 973 00:59:50,820 --> 00:59:53,300 Mommy ! 974 00:59:54,500 --> 00:59:57,020 No ! 975 01:01:27,860 --> 01:01:29,380 Breakfast is served 976 01:01:29,460 --> 01:01:31,300 between 7:00 and 11:00 in the Regency Room, 977 01:01:31,340 --> 01:01:32,580 and room service is available 978 01:01:32,660 --> 01:01:34,140 24 hours. 979 01:01:35,820 --> 01:01:37,340 Thank you, ma'am. 980 01:01:39,140 --> 01:01:40,900 Is there anything else you need ? 981 01:01:41,060 --> 01:01:43,540 Yes, um... 982 01:01:43,620 --> 01:01:45,460 No. 983 01:01:45,540 --> 01:01:47,100 Not to be disturbed. 984 01:02:58,260 --> 01:03:01,700 'Did it matter, then ? ' She asked herself, 985 01:03:01,780 --> 01:03:04,100 walking toward Bon Street. 986 01:03:04,180 --> 01:03:09,260 Did it matter that she must inevitably cease completely ? 987 01:03:09,340 --> 01:03:12,900 All this must go on without her. 988 01:03:12,980 --> 01:03:16,020 Did she resent it ? 989 01:03:16,100 --> 01:03:18,940 Or did it not become consoling 990 01:03:18,980 --> 01:03:23,780 to believe that death ended absolutely ? 991 01:03:23,860 --> 01:03:28,140 It is possible to die. 992 01:03:29,900 --> 01:03:31,420 It is possible... 993 01:03:31,500 --> 01:03:32,860 ...to die. 994 01:03:36,020 --> 01:03:38,820 There was a lovely coat for Angelica at Harrod's, 995 01:03:38,860 --> 01:03:40,340 then nothing for the boys. 996 01:03:40,420 --> 01:03:41,500 It seems so unfair. 997 01:03:41,580 --> 01:03:43,100 Why should Angelica be favored ? 998 01:03:46,300 --> 01:03:47,500 Virginia ? 999 01:03:49,420 --> 01:03:51,780 Virginia ? 1000 01:03:51,860 --> 01:03:53,220 Virginia ! 1001 01:03:55,380 --> 01:03:57,220 What are you thinking about ? 1002 01:04:08,900 --> 01:04:11,860 Are you still with us ? 1003 01:04:21,420 --> 01:04:26,620 Your aunt's a very lucky woman, Angelica... 1004 01:04:26,660 --> 01:04:29,060 because she has two lives. 1005 01:04:29,100 --> 01:04:31,460 She has the life she's leading, 1006 01:04:31,540 --> 01:04:34,020 and also the book she's writing. 1007 01:04:34,100 --> 01:04:38,180 This makes her very fortunate indeed. 1008 01:04:38,260 --> 01:04:40,220 What were you thinking about ? 1009 01:05:06,100 --> 01:05:10,220 I was going to kill my heroine... 1010 01:05:10,300 --> 01:05:13,620 but I've changed my mind. 1011 01:05:14,980 --> 01:05:17,660 I... I can't. 1012 01:05:30,740 --> 01:05:34,140 I fear I may have to kill someone else instead. 1013 01:05:41,460 --> 01:05:42,980 Oh, Quentin ! 1014 01:05:44,260 --> 01:05:45,300 We're ready ! 1015 01:05:46,900 --> 01:05:48,420 A fascinating visit. 1016 01:05:48,500 --> 01:05:51,660 We enjoyed it thoroughly. 1017 01:05:52,740 --> 01:05:53,940 Do you have to go already ? 1018 01:05:55,620 --> 01:05:56,820 I do wish you wouldn't go. 1019 01:05:56,900 --> 01:05:57,780 Oh, Virginia, 1020 01:05:57,860 --> 01:06:00,580 the last thing you want is our noisiness. 1021 01:06:00,660 --> 01:06:04,100 My hopeless, clumsy boys. 1022 01:06:04,180 --> 01:06:05,940 Say good-bye, boys. 1023 01:06:06,020 --> 01:06:08,300 Bye ! 1024 01:06:10,500 --> 01:06:11,740 You'll return to what ? 1025 01:06:11,780 --> 01:06:13,180 Tonight ? 1026 01:06:13,220 --> 01:06:18,420 Oh, just some... insufferable dinner. 1027 01:06:18,500 --> 01:06:21,340 Not even you could envy, Virginia. 1028 01:06:21,420 --> 01:06:22,820 But I do. 1029 01:06:58,340 --> 01:06:59,580 Say something, Nessa. 1030 01:06:59,620 --> 01:07:01,220 Didn't you think I seemed better ? 1031 01:07:01,380 --> 01:07:03,540 Yes... 1032 01:07:03,620 --> 01:07:06,940 Yes... Virginia, you seemed better. 1033 01:07:20,180 --> 01:07:21,660 You think... 1034 01:07:22,820 --> 01:07:25,980 You think I may one day escape ? 1035 01:07:26,020 --> 01:07:29,140 One day. One... 1036 01:07:30,780 --> 01:07:31,700 Nessa. 1037 01:07:34,020 --> 01:07:35,260 Nessa ! 1038 01:07:35,300 --> 01:07:36,860 Come on, Nessa. 1039 01:07:36,900 --> 01:07:38,460 Come, Angelica, we must go. 1040 01:07:40,580 --> 01:07:41,860 Come on ! 1041 01:07:41,900 --> 01:07:42,820 Good-bye. 1042 01:07:42,860 --> 01:07:44,860 Good-bye, little girl. 1043 01:07:44,940 --> 01:07:47,540 Angelica ! 1044 01:07:47,620 --> 01:07:48,940 The train ! 1045 01:07:50,980 --> 01:07:53,660 We're going to miss the train. 1046 01:07:53,700 --> 01:07:55,140 Come on. Hurry up. 1047 01:07:55,220 --> 01:07:56,140 Big step. 1048 01:08:01,300 --> 01:08:02,780 Come on, come on, come on ! 1049 01:08:02,860 --> 01:08:04,380 I want to go home. 1050 01:08:04,420 --> 01:08:05,340 Yeah, all right. 1051 01:08:05,380 --> 01:08:07,700 We stayed too long, we've missed the train. 1052 01:08:07,780 --> 01:08:09,860 Stay close. 1053 01:09:29,860 --> 01:09:31,340 I'm sorry, I know. 1054 01:09:31,420 --> 01:09:32,740 I tried to get here earlier. 1055 01:09:32,780 --> 01:09:34,300 I tried, okay ? Don't start. 1056 01:09:34,340 --> 01:09:36,140 I know, 1057 01:09:36,220 --> 01:09:39,820 it's just incredibly important because it's your party. 1058 01:09:39,900 --> 01:09:42,380 Julia, how have you been doing ? 1059 01:09:42,500 --> 01:09:44,860 I'm fine. 1060 01:09:44,900 --> 01:09:45,700 Come here. 1061 01:09:45,740 --> 01:09:48,460 What have you been doing ? 1062 01:09:48,540 --> 01:09:50,820 Well, studying, Mom. 1063 01:09:54,580 --> 01:09:55,620 Um... 1064 01:09:55,700 --> 01:09:58,540 So, what should I do ? Chairs ? 1065 01:09:58,620 --> 01:10:00,780 No. Let's clear off the desk first. 1066 01:10:00,860 --> 01:10:03,660 You can take it into the bedroom. 1067 01:10:03,740 --> 01:10:06,020 I bumped into Louis Waters. 1068 01:10:06,060 --> 01:10:07,300 Oh, you did ? 1069 01:10:07,340 --> 01:10:08,500 Where ? 1070 01:10:08,580 --> 01:10:09,460 In the street. 1071 01:10:12,420 --> 01:10:13,860 They're all here, aren't they ? 1072 01:10:13,940 --> 01:10:14,940 All the ghosts. 1073 01:10:15,100 --> 01:10:18,660 All of the ghosts are assembling for the party. 1074 01:10:18,700 --> 01:10:21,380 He's so weird. 1075 01:10:21,420 --> 01:10:23,820 Oh, what ? 1076 01:10:23,900 --> 01:10:25,140 You can't see that ? 1077 01:10:25,220 --> 01:10:27,580 You can't see that Louis Waters is weird ? 1078 01:10:30,300 --> 01:10:32,180 I can see that he's sad. 1079 01:10:32,260 --> 01:10:36,500 Well... all your friends are sad. 1080 01:10:38,740 --> 01:10:40,460 You've been crying. What's happening ? 1081 01:10:44,460 --> 01:10:46,540 All it is, I looked around this room, 1082 01:10:46,620 --> 01:10:49,340 and I thought, I'm giving a party. 1083 01:10:49,380 --> 01:10:51,900 All I want to do is give a party. 1084 01:10:51,940 --> 01:10:53,180 And ? 1085 01:10:53,220 --> 01:10:55,940 I know why he does it ; he does it deliberately. 1086 01:10:56,020 --> 01:10:58,860 Oh, is this Richard ? 1087 01:10:58,940 --> 01:11:00,380 Of course. 1088 01:11:00,420 --> 01:11:02,140 He did it this morning. 1089 01:11:02,180 --> 01:11:04,100 He gives me that look. 1090 01:11:04,180 --> 01:11:05,540 What look ? 1091 01:11:06,820 --> 01:11:09,060 To say... 1092 01:11:09,100 --> 01:11:12,780 Your life is... trivial. 1093 01:11:13,780 --> 01:11:16,700 You are so trivial. 1094 01:11:16,740 --> 01:11:19,100 Just... 1095 01:11:19,140 --> 01:11:20,620 daily stuff, you know. 1096 01:11:20,700 --> 01:11:22,980 Schedules and parties and... details. 1097 01:11:23,060 --> 01:11:26,700 That's what he means... by it, that is what he's saying. 1098 01:11:26,780 --> 01:11:28,860 Mom, it only matters if you think it's true. 1099 01:11:30,540 --> 01:11:32,060 Well ? 1100 01:11:32,100 --> 01:11:33,980 Do you ? Tell me. 1101 01:11:36,740 --> 01:11:39,020 When I'm with him, I feel... 1102 01:11:42,940 --> 01:11:45,260 Yes, I am living. 1103 01:11:46,980 --> 01:11:50,340 And when I'm not with him... 1104 01:11:50,420 --> 01:11:52,900 Yes, everything does seem sort of s... 1105 01:11:52,980 --> 01:11:55,180 ...silly. 1106 01:12:00,100 --> 01:12:01,820 I don't mean with you. 1107 01:12:01,860 --> 01:12:03,060 Oh, I... 1108 01:12:03,140 --> 01:12:05,780 God. Jesus. 1109 01:12:07,020 --> 01:12:08,940 Never with you. 1110 01:12:09,020 --> 01:12:10,060 It's all the rest of it. 1111 01:12:15,140 --> 01:12:16,340 Sally ? 1112 01:12:17,540 --> 01:12:19,300 The rest of it. 1113 01:12:23,580 --> 01:12:26,140 False comfort. 1114 01:12:26,180 --> 01:12:27,660 Because ? 1115 01:12:28,780 --> 01:12:30,660 If you say to me, When were you happiest ? 1116 01:12:30,700 --> 01:12:31,820 Mom... 1117 01:12:31,900 --> 01:12:34,300 Tell me the moment you were happiest. 1118 01:12:34,380 --> 01:12:37,420 I know, I know, it was years ago. 1119 01:12:37,500 --> 01:12:40,420 Yeah. 1120 01:12:40,500 --> 01:12:44,860 All you're saying is... you were once young. 1121 01:12:50,500 --> 01:12:53,300 I remember one morning... 1122 01:12:53,380 --> 01:12:55,340 getting up at dawn, 1123 01:12:55,420 --> 01:12:59,540 there was such a sense of possibility. 1124 01:12:59,620 --> 01:13:01,460 You know ? That feeling ? 1125 01:13:01,540 --> 01:13:02,540 Hmm ? 1126 01:13:02,620 --> 01:13:04,860 And I remember thinking to myself, 1127 01:13:04,900 --> 01:13:07,700 So, this is the beginning of happiness. 1128 01:13:07,780 --> 01:13:09,500 This is where it starts. 1129 01:13:09,580 --> 01:13:12,540 And, of course, there will always be more. 1130 01:13:15,940 --> 01:13:18,340 It never occurred to me 1131 01:13:18,420 --> 01:13:21,340 it wasn't the beginning. 1132 01:13:22,980 --> 01:13:26,140 It was happiness. 1133 01:13:26,180 --> 01:13:31,660 It was the moment... 1134 01:13:31,740 --> 01:13:33,860 right then. 1135 01:14:55,460 --> 01:14:57,260 Ah, Nelly, good evening. I was wondering 1136 01:14:57,380 --> 01:14:58,420 if you'd seen Mrs. Woolf. 1137 01:14:58,500 --> 01:15:00,380 I thought you knew, sir. 1138 01:15:00,460 --> 01:15:02,380 Mrs. Woolf has gone out. 1139 01:15:37,660 --> 01:15:39,020 Excuse me ! Excuse me ! 1140 01:16:04,980 --> 01:16:07,180 Mr. Woolf, what an unexpected pleasure. 1141 01:16:07,260 --> 01:16:08,700 Perhaps you could tell me 1142 01:16:08,780 --> 01:16:10,860 exactly what you think you're doing ? 1143 01:16:10,900 --> 01:16:12,220 What I was doing ? 1144 01:16:12,300 --> 01:16:13,540 I went to look for you, and you weren't there. 1145 01:16:13,620 --> 01:16:16,060 You were working in the garden. I didn't wish to disturb you. 1146 01:16:16,140 --> 01:16:17,780 You disturb me when you disappear. 1147 01:16:17,860 --> 01:16:18,780 I didn't disappear. 1148 01:16:20,660 --> 01:16:21,900 I went for a walk. 1149 01:16:21,940 --> 01:16:23,460 A walk ?! Is that all ? 1150 01:16:23,540 --> 01:16:25,100 Just a walk ? 1151 01:16:26,420 --> 01:16:28,860 Virginia, we must go home now. Nelly's cooking dinner. 1152 01:16:28,940 --> 01:16:31,260 She's already had a very difficult day. 1153 01:16:31,380 --> 01:16:33,020 It's just our obligation to eat Nelly's dinner. 1154 01:16:33,100 --> 01:16:35,340 There is no such obligation. 1155 01:16:35,420 --> 01:16:37,620 No such obligation exists. 1156 01:16:37,700 --> 01:16:38,660 Virginia, 1157 01:16:38,740 --> 01:16:40,220 you have an obligation to your own sanity. 1158 01:16:40,300 --> 01:16:42,300 I have endured this custody ! 1159 01:16:42,380 --> 01:16:44,700 I have endured this imprisonment. 1160 01:16:44,820 --> 01:16:46,020 Oh, Virginia ! 1161 01:16:46,100 --> 01:16:48,700 I am attended by doctors, everywhere. 1162 01:16:48,780 --> 01:16:50,540 I am attended by doctors 1163 01:16:50,620 --> 01:16:53,100 who inform me of my own interests ! 1164 01:16:53,180 --> 01:16:54,300 They know your interests. 1165 01:16:54,380 --> 01:16:55,340 They do not ! 1166 01:16:55,420 --> 01:16:57,180 They do not speak for my interests. 1167 01:16:57,260 --> 01:16:58,500 Virginia, I can... 1168 01:16:58,580 --> 01:17:00,860 I can see that it must be hard for a woman of your... 1169 01:17:00,940 --> 01:17:02,700 - Of what ? Of my what, exactly ? - Uh, your... 1170 01:17:02,740 --> 01:17:03,780 your talents to see 1171 01:17:03,860 --> 01:17:05,700 that she may not be the best judge 1172 01:17:05,780 --> 01:17:06,900 of her own condition ! 1173 01:17:06,980 --> 01:17:08,900 Who, then, is a better judge ? 1174 01:17:08,980 --> 01:17:10,180 You have a history ! 1175 01:17:11,700 --> 01:17:13,500 You have a history of confinement. 1176 01:17:13,580 --> 01:17:14,980 We brought you to Richmond 1177 01:17:15,060 --> 01:17:17,940 because you have a history of fits, moods, blackouts, 1178 01:17:18,020 --> 01:17:19,460 hearing voices. 1179 01:17:19,540 --> 01:17:21,420 We brought you here 1180 01:17:21,460 --> 01:17:22,860 to save you from the irrevocable damage 1181 01:17:22,900 --> 01:17:25,980 you intended upon yourself. 1182 01:17:26,060 --> 01:17:28,620 You've tried to kill yourself twice ! 1183 01:17:32,380 --> 01:17:33,780 I live daily with that threat. 1184 01:17:33,860 --> 01:17:36,220 I set up the press... we set up the printing press 1185 01:17:36,300 --> 01:17:38,260 not just for itself, 1186 01:17:38,340 --> 01:17:41,500 not just purely for itself, but so that you might have 1187 01:17:41,580 --> 01:17:44,860 a ready source of absorption and of remedy. 1188 01:17:44,940 --> 01:17:46,100 Like needlework ? 1189 01:17:47,140 --> 01:17:49,260 It was done for you ! 1190 01:17:49,340 --> 01:17:51,500 It was done for your betterment ! 1191 01:17:51,580 --> 01:17:53,540 It was done out of love ! 1192 01:17:55,340 --> 01:17:58,980 If I didn't know you better, I'd call this ingratitude. 1193 01:17:59,060 --> 01:18:01,900 I am ungrateful ? 1194 01:18:01,980 --> 01:18:04,060 You call me ungrateful ? 1195 01:18:05,780 --> 01:18:09,180 My life has been stolen from me. 1196 01:18:11,780 --> 01:18:14,700 I'm living in a town I have no wish to live in. 1197 01:18:14,780 --> 01:18:19,220 I'm living... a life I have no wish to live. 1198 01:18:23,020 --> 01:18:25,700 How did this happen ? 1199 01:18:38,260 --> 01:18:41,500 It is time for us to move back to London. 1200 01:18:46,780 --> 01:18:48,940 I miss London. 1201 01:18:48,980 --> 01:18:51,940 I miss London life. 1202 01:18:54,540 --> 01:18:56,500 This is not you speaking, Virginia. 1203 01:18:56,580 --> 01:18:57,980 This is an aspect of your illness. 1204 01:18:58,060 --> 01:18:59,940 - It's not you. - It is me. It is my voice. 1205 01:19:00,060 --> 01:19:01,020 It's not your voice. 1206 01:19:01,100 --> 01:19:02,260 It's mine and mine alone. 1207 01:19:02,340 --> 01:19:03,700 This is the voice that you hear. 1208 01:19:03,780 --> 01:19:06,380 It is not ! It is mine ! 1209 01:19:06,420 --> 01:19:08,340 I'm dying in this town ! 1210 01:19:12,340 --> 01:19:14,220 If you were thinking clearly, Virginia, 1211 01:19:14,260 --> 01:19:15,540 you'd recall it was London 1212 01:19:15,620 --> 01:19:17,220 that brought you low. 1213 01:19:17,300 --> 01:19:20,060 If I were thinking clearly... 1214 01:19:21,140 --> 01:19:23,780 If I were thinking clearly... 1215 01:19:23,860 --> 01:19:26,460 We brought you to Richmond to give you peace. 1216 01:19:26,540 --> 01:19:29,260 If I were thinking clearly, Leonard, 1217 01:19:29,300 --> 01:19:33,140 I would tell you that I wrestle alone in the dark, 1218 01:19:33,220 --> 01:19:36,300 in the deep dark, and that only I can know, 1219 01:19:36,380 --> 01:19:39,260 only I can understand my own condition. 1220 01:19:40,580 --> 01:19:42,100 You live with the threat... you tell me... 1221 01:19:42,260 --> 01:19:43,980 you live with the threat of my extinction. 1222 01:19:45,380 --> 01:19:47,460 Leonard, I live with it, 1223 01:19:47,540 --> 01:19:48,980 too. 1224 01:19:52,500 --> 01:19:55,020 This is my right. 1225 01:19:55,060 --> 01:19:57,260 It is the right of every human being. 1226 01:19:57,340 --> 01:20:00,740 I choose not the suffocating anesthetic of the suburbs, 1227 01:20:00,820 --> 01:20:02,980 but the violent jolt of the capital. 1228 01:20:03,060 --> 01:20:04,740 That is my choice. 1229 01:20:04,820 --> 01:20:07,260 The meanest patient, 1230 01:20:07,340 --> 01:20:09,860 yes, even the very lowest is allowed some say 1231 01:20:09,940 --> 01:20:12,460 in the matter of her own prescription. 1232 01:20:12,540 --> 01:20:14,780 Thereby she defines her humanity. 1233 01:20:23,180 --> 01:20:25,900 I wish, for your sake, Leonard, 1234 01:20:25,940 --> 01:20:31,300 I could be happy in this quietness. 1235 01:20:31,380 --> 01:20:36,500 But if it is a choice between Richmond and death, 1236 01:20:36,580 --> 01:20:38,220 I choose death. 1237 01:20:48,500 --> 01:20:50,540 Very well, London, then. 1238 01:20:51,900 --> 01:20:54,020 We'll go back to London. 1239 01:21:27,300 --> 01:21:30,140 You hungry ? 1240 01:21:34,740 --> 01:21:36,740 I'm a little hungry myself. 1241 01:21:55,700 --> 01:21:58,660 Come along. 1242 01:21:58,740 --> 01:22:00,740 London train on platform one ! 1243 01:22:00,820 --> 01:22:04,820 This is the London train terminating at Vauxhall. 1244 01:22:09,140 --> 01:22:13,660 You cannot find peace by avoiding life, Leonard. 1245 01:22:21,420 --> 01:22:23,340 This is the London train ! 1246 01:22:24,700 --> 01:22:28,340 London train on platform one ! 1247 01:22:43,300 --> 01:22:45,620 Mommy ! 1248 01:22:45,700 --> 01:22:48,260 Mommy ! 1249 01:22:57,620 --> 01:22:59,260 Hey. Hey, there, bug. 1250 01:22:59,340 --> 01:23:01,260 Hey, what's wrong ? 1251 01:23:01,340 --> 01:23:03,020 Hi, Mrs. Latch. 1252 01:23:03,060 --> 01:23:04,140 Sorry I'm late. 1253 01:23:04,220 --> 01:23:05,220 He's fine. 1254 01:23:05,300 --> 01:23:06,220 He's been fine. 1255 01:23:06,260 --> 01:23:07,700 He's, he's just happy to see you. 1256 01:23:07,780 --> 01:23:09,980 Aw, it couldn't have been that bad, could it ? Hmm ? 1257 01:23:10,060 --> 01:23:11,660 So, you got it cut, then ? 1258 01:23:11,700 --> 01:23:13,540 Oh, yes, yes. No problem. 1259 01:23:13,580 --> 01:23:14,460 Looks great. 1260 01:23:14,540 --> 01:23:15,900 Well, they didn't have to do very much. 1261 01:23:15,980 --> 01:23:17,580 Well, we had a fine time 1262 01:23:17,620 --> 01:23:18,900 together. 1263 01:23:19,980 --> 01:23:21,860 Thank you very much. 1264 01:23:25,980 --> 01:23:29,660 So, that wasn't too bad, was it ? 1265 01:23:29,740 --> 01:23:31,220 I wasn't gone too long. 1266 01:23:31,300 --> 01:23:33,300 No, you weren't long. 1267 01:23:33,380 --> 01:23:35,100 That's right. 1268 01:23:37,780 --> 01:23:40,460 At one point... 1269 01:23:40,500 --> 01:23:42,420 I don't know. 1270 01:23:45,260 --> 01:23:49,780 There was a moment where I thought I might be longer. 1271 01:23:49,860 --> 01:23:51,580 But I changed my mind. 1272 01:23:59,060 --> 01:23:59,980 What is it, honey ? 1273 01:24:00,020 --> 01:24:03,420 Mommy, I love you. 1274 01:24:05,540 --> 01:24:07,540 I love you, too, baby. 1275 01:24:15,700 --> 01:24:17,420 What's wrong ? 1276 01:24:21,060 --> 01:24:22,060 What ? 1277 01:24:29,460 --> 01:24:30,860 Don't worry, honey, everything's fine. 1278 01:24:30,900 --> 01:24:33,580 We're going to have a wonderful party, 1279 01:24:33,620 --> 01:24:37,300 and we've made your daddy such a nice cake. 1280 01:24:42,740 --> 01:24:44,220 I love you, sweetheart. 1281 01:24:45,460 --> 01:24:47,660 You're my guy. 1282 01:25:22,940 --> 01:25:25,380 Mommy ! 1283 01:25:25,460 --> 01:25:27,700 Mommy ! 1284 01:26:21,860 --> 01:26:24,740 Richard, it's me. I'm early. 1285 01:26:29,140 --> 01:26:31,180 What the hell is going on ? 1286 01:26:32,140 --> 01:26:33,060 Richard ! 1287 01:26:36,140 --> 01:26:38,140 What are you doing here ? You're early ! 1288 01:26:38,220 --> 01:26:40,380 Wha-What is going on here ? 1289 01:26:40,460 --> 01:26:42,020 What are you doing ? 1290 01:26:42,060 --> 01:26:43,820 I-I had this wonderful idea. 1291 01:26:43,860 --> 01:26:47,020 I needed some light. I needed to let in some light ! 1292 01:26:47,060 --> 01:26:49,660 Richard, what are you doing ? 1293 01:26:49,740 --> 01:26:51,980 I had this fantastic notion. 1294 01:26:52,020 --> 01:26:54,180 I took the Xanax and the Ritalin together. 1295 01:26:54,260 --> 01:26:55,660 It-it never occurred to me. 1296 01:26:55,700 --> 01:26:56,340 Richard... 1297 01:26:56,420 --> 01:26:57,460 Don't come near me ! 1298 01:27:02,020 --> 01:27:07,580 It seemed to me I needed to let in some light. 1299 01:27:09,380 --> 01:27:13,180 What do you think ? I cleared away all the windows. 1300 01:27:13,260 --> 01:27:15,740 All right, Richard, do me one simple favor. 1301 01:27:15,860 --> 01:27:16,900 Come. Come sit. 1302 01:27:16,980 --> 01:27:19,780 I don't think I can make it to the party, Clarissa. 1303 01:27:19,860 --> 01:27:20,900 You don't have to go to the party. 1304 01:27:20,980 --> 01:27:22,180 You don't have to go to the ceremony. 1305 01:27:22,220 --> 01:27:23,820 You don't have to do anything you don't want to do. 1306 01:27:23,860 --> 01:27:25,340 You can do as you like. 1307 01:27:25,460 --> 01:27:28,300 But I still have to face the hours, don't I ? 1308 01:27:28,380 --> 01:27:30,380 I mean, the hours after the party, 1309 01:27:30,460 --> 01:27:32,620 and the hours after that... 1310 01:27:32,660 --> 01:27:35,620 You do have good days still. 1311 01:27:35,660 --> 01:27:37,380 You know you do. 1312 01:27:37,460 --> 01:27:39,660 Not really. 1313 01:27:39,700 --> 01:27:41,060 I mean, it's kind of you to say so, but it's... 1314 01:27:41,060 --> 01:27:42,500 I mean, it's kind of you to say so, but it's... 1315 01:27:42,540 --> 01:27:43,820 not really true. 1316 01:27:52,260 --> 01:27:53,180 Are they here ? 1317 01:27:53,260 --> 01:27:54,940 Who ? 1318 01:27:55,020 --> 01:27:55,740 The voices. 1319 01:27:55,820 --> 01:27:58,540 Oh, the voices are always here. 1320 01:27:58,580 --> 01:28:02,180 And it's the voices that you're hearing now, isn't it ? 1321 01:28:02,260 --> 01:28:03,900 No, no, no, no. 1322 01:28:03,980 --> 01:28:07,220 Mrs. Dalloway, it's you. 1323 01:28:11,700 --> 01:28:15,100 I've stayed alive for you, 1324 01:28:15,180 --> 01:28:16,940 but now you have to let me go. 1325 01:28:18,700 --> 01:28:19,620 Richard, I... 1326 01:28:19,700 --> 01:28:20,660 No, wait, wait, wait, wait. 1327 01:28:20,740 --> 01:28:22,900 Wait. 1328 01:28:26,580 --> 01:28:27,500 Tell me a story. 1329 01:28:27,540 --> 01:28:29,100 What about ? 1330 01:28:29,180 --> 01:28:32,940 Tell me a story from your day. 1331 01:28:33,020 --> 01:28:33,940 I, um... 1332 01:28:34,020 --> 01:28:35,860 I-I got up... 1333 01:28:35,940 --> 01:28:37,500 Yes ? 1334 01:28:37,580 --> 01:28:43,780 ...and I went out, and, uh, I went to buy flowers, 1335 01:28:43,820 --> 01:28:45,660 Like Mrs. Dalloway, in the book, you know ? 1336 01:28:45,740 --> 01:28:47,060 Yes. 1337 01:28:47,140 --> 01:28:48,140 And it was a beautiful morning. 1338 01:28:48,220 --> 01:28:49,620 Was it ? 1339 01:28:49,700 --> 01:28:51,620 Yes, it was so beautiful. 1340 01:28:51,700 --> 01:28:53,300 It was so fresh. 1341 01:28:53,380 --> 01:28:55,020 Oh, fresh, was it ? 1342 01:28:55,100 --> 01:28:56,060 Yes. 1343 01:28:59,740 --> 01:29:00,260 Like a... 1344 01:29:01,940 --> 01:29:02,980 like a morning on the beach ? 1345 01:29:03,020 --> 01:29:04,540 Yes. 1346 01:29:04,620 --> 01:29:05,660 Like that ? 1347 01:29:05,740 --> 01:29:07,500 Yes. 1348 01:29:07,540 --> 01:29:11,300 Like that morning when you walked out of that old house, 1349 01:29:11,380 --> 01:29:14,420 and you were, you were 18, and maybe I was 19. 1350 01:29:14,500 --> 01:29:16,220 Yes. 1351 01:29:16,300 --> 01:29:18,340 I was 19 years old, 1352 01:29:18,380 --> 01:29:22,780 and I'd never seen anything so beautiful. 1353 01:29:23,860 --> 01:29:24,820 You... 1354 01:29:24,900 --> 01:29:26,700 coming out of a glass door 1355 01:29:26,740 --> 01:29:29,180 in the early morning, still sleepy. 1356 01:29:29,260 --> 01:29:31,940 Isn't it strange ? 1357 01:29:33,180 --> 01:29:37,660 Most ordinary morning in anybody's life. 1358 01:29:40,100 --> 01:29:42,980 I'm afraid I can't make it to the party, Clarissa. 1359 01:29:43,060 --> 01:29:46,340 The party... 1360 01:29:46,460 --> 01:29:48,340 doesn't matter. 1361 01:29:48,420 --> 01:29:51,740 You've been so good to me, Mrs. Dalloway. 1362 01:29:53,900 --> 01:29:55,900 I love you. 1363 01:30:00,900 --> 01:30:02,300 I don't think two people 1364 01:30:02,380 --> 01:30:04,660 could've been happier than we've been. 1365 01:30:12,300 --> 01:30:13,340 Oh, God, no ! 1366 01:30:22,140 --> 01:30:24,100 Happy birthday. 1367 01:30:24,180 --> 01:30:25,420 Happy birthday, Dan. 1368 01:30:25,460 --> 01:30:26,700 This is perfect. 1369 01:30:26,780 --> 01:30:28,460 This is just perfect. 1370 01:30:28,500 --> 01:30:30,620 Oh, do you think so ? 1371 01:30:30,700 --> 01:30:31,740 Do you really think so ? 1372 01:30:31,820 --> 01:30:32,700 Why, sure. 1373 01:30:32,780 --> 01:30:34,500 You must've been working all day. 1374 01:30:34,540 --> 01:30:36,180 Well, that's what we were doing. 1375 01:30:36,300 --> 01:30:37,820 Weren't we, bug ? 1376 01:30:37,900 --> 01:30:39,980 Been working all day. 1377 01:30:40,020 --> 01:30:41,140 This is just fantastic. 1378 01:30:41,220 --> 01:30:42,660 It's what I've always wanted. 1379 01:30:42,740 --> 01:30:44,420 Oh, Dan. 1380 01:30:44,500 --> 01:30:45,780 One day, Richie, I'll tell you. 1381 01:30:45,860 --> 01:30:47,500 I'll tell you how it all happened. 1382 01:30:47,540 --> 01:30:49,420 Don't. 1383 01:30:49,460 --> 01:30:50,540 I want to. 1384 01:30:50,620 --> 01:30:53,420 I want to tell him the story. 1385 01:30:53,500 --> 01:30:54,420 What happened... 1386 01:30:54,500 --> 01:30:56,020 when I was in the war. 1387 01:30:56,100 --> 01:30:58,500 At war, I found myself 1388 01:30:58,540 --> 01:31:00,660 thinking about this girl that I had seen... 1389 01:31:00,740 --> 01:31:02,060 I had never met her... 1390 01:31:02,140 --> 01:31:03,380 at high school, 1391 01:31:03,460 --> 01:31:04,900 this... strange, 1392 01:31:04,980 --> 01:31:08,860 fragile-looking girl named Laura McGrath. 1393 01:31:12,220 --> 01:31:13,460 Yeah. 1394 01:31:13,540 --> 01:31:14,540 And she was shy... 1395 01:31:15,580 --> 01:31:18,060 and she was interesting. 1396 01:31:18,140 --> 01:31:20,420 And... well, your mother won't mind if 1397 01:31:20,460 --> 01:31:21,380 I tell you this, Richie. 1398 01:31:21,420 --> 01:31:22,900 She was the sort of girl that you see 1399 01:31:22,980 --> 01:31:23,980 sitting mostly on her own. 1400 01:31:24,060 --> 01:31:25,700 And I'll tell you... 1401 01:31:25,780 --> 01:31:28,180 sometimes, when I was in the South Pacific, 1402 01:31:28,260 --> 01:31:29,860 the fact is 1403 01:31:29,900 --> 01:31:31,180 that I used to think 1404 01:31:31,260 --> 01:31:32,740 about this girl. 1405 01:31:32,860 --> 01:31:33,740 Dan. 1406 01:31:33,820 --> 01:31:35,180 I used to think 1407 01:31:35,220 --> 01:31:37,100 about bringing her to a house, 1408 01:31:37,140 --> 01:31:39,340 to a life. 1409 01:31:40,540 --> 01:31:42,380 Pretty much like this. 1410 01:31:44,060 --> 01:31:46,500 And it was the thought of the happiness... 1411 01:31:48,100 --> 01:31:51,380 the thought of this woman, 1412 01:31:51,460 --> 01:31:52,500 the thought of this life... 1413 01:31:52,580 --> 01:31:54,260 that's what kept me going. 1414 01:31:55,700 --> 01:31:58,060 I had an idea of our happiness. 1415 01:32:24,940 --> 01:32:26,780 Why does someone have to die ? 1416 01:32:30,940 --> 01:32:32,180 Leonard... 1417 01:32:32,260 --> 01:32:33,900 In your book, you said someone had to die. 1418 01:32:33,980 --> 01:32:34,860 Hmm. 1419 01:32:34,940 --> 01:32:36,940 Why ? 1420 01:32:38,540 --> 01:32:41,340 Is that a stupid question ? 1421 01:32:41,420 --> 01:32:42,700 No. 1422 01:32:42,780 --> 01:32:44,060 I imagine my question is stupid. 1423 01:32:45,820 --> 01:32:47,700 Not at all. 1424 01:32:49,020 --> 01:32:50,220 Well ? 1425 01:32:52,860 --> 01:32:54,740 Someone has to die 1426 01:32:54,820 --> 01:32:57,380 in order that the rest of us should value life more. 1427 01:32:59,420 --> 01:33:01,260 It's contrast. 1428 01:33:01,340 --> 01:33:03,420 And who will die ? 1429 01:33:05,180 --> 01:33:06,700 Tell me. 1430 01:33:09,300 --> 01:33:12,260 The poet will die. 1431 01:33:12,300 --> 01:33:14,900 The visionary. 1432 01:33:28,540 --> 01:33:29,740 What are you doing ? 1433 01:33:29,860 --> 01:33:31,980 I'm brushing my teeth. 1434 01:33:36,180 --> 01:33:38,060 Are you coming to bed ? 1435 01:33:38,140 --> 01:33:40,580 Yeah, in a minute. 1436 01:33:42,540 --> 01:33:44,780 Come to bed, Laura Brown. 1437 01:33:49,100 --> 01:33:50,540 I ran into Ray. 1438 01:33:50,580 --> 01:33:52,500 He said Kitty had to go to the hospital. 1439 01:33:54,060 --> 01:33:55,980 I know. 1440 01:33:56,060 --> 01:33:57,260 Nothing serious. 1441 01:33:57,300 --> 01:33:59,420 He said just a checkup. 1442 01:34:00,940 --> 01:34:02,860 I'm terrified. 1443 01:34:02,940 --> 01:34:04,900 Why ? 1444 01:34:07,100 --> 01:34:09,420 Only I knew that she could disappear. 1445 01:34:11,340 --> 01:34:12,460 Maybe you could 1446 01:34:12,540 --> 01:34:14,220 go see her in the morning, honey. 1447 01:34:21,820 --> 01:34:23,220 I was going to. 1448 01:34:23,300 --> 01:34:25,900 I was going to stop by. 1449 01:34:25,940 --> 01:34:28,620 I've had a wonderful day, 1450 01:34:28,700 --> 01:34:31,100 and I have you to thank. 1451 01:34:36,420 --> 01:34:40,620 Come to bed, honey. 1452 01:34:40,660 --> 01:34:42,660 I'm coming. 1453 01:34:50,940 --> 01:34:53,780 Are you coming ? 1454 01:34:53,860 --> 01:34:55,700 Yes. 1455 01:35:13,460 --> 01:35:15,420 What ? 1456 01:35:18,380 --> 01:35:20,540 I was hoping you were going to bed. 1457 01:35:20,620 --> 01:35:22,620 I am. 1458 01:35:22,700 --> 01:35:24,580 I am going to bed. 1459 01:35:26,900 --> 01:35:28,780 What, then ? 1460 01:35:30,900 --> 01:35:33,940 All else is clear. 1461 01:35:34,020 --> 01:35:36,620 The outline of the story is planned, 1462 01:35:36,700 --> 01:35:38,420 now one thing only. 1463 01:35:38,500 --> 01:35:41,260 Mrs. Dalloway's destiny must be resolved. 1464 01:36:21,020 --> 01:36:23,700 You're Laura Brown. 1465 01:36:23,780 --> 01:36:28,420 Yes, I'm Richard's mother. 1466 01:36:30,380 --> 01:36:32,420 Of course. 1467 01:36:34,420 --> 01:36:35,860 I'm Clarissa Vaughan. 1468 01:36:35,940 --> 01:36:37,660 Please come in. 1469 01:36:46,180 --> 01:36:48,940 My friend Sally is in the kitchen, 1470 01:36:49,020 --> 01:36:51,260 and my daughter. 1471 01:36:51,340 --> 01:36:53,100 I'll take this. 1472 01:36:53,220 --> 01:36:55,980 We were having a party. 1473 01:36:56,020 --> 01:36:59,220 We were going to have a party. 1474 01:36:59,300 --> 01:37:00,460 I was lucky. 1475 01:37:00,540 --> 01:37:02,220 I got the last plane from Toronto. 1476 01:37:02,260 --> 01:37:06,660 So, that's the monster. 1477 01:37:06,740 --> 01:37:08,820 Hope I did the right thing. 1478 01:37:08,900 --> 01:37:10,780 I found your number in his phone book. 1479 01:37:10,860 --> 01:37:15,060 Yes, he had it. 1480 01:37:15,140 --> 01:37:17,540 We didn't speak often. 1481 01:37:28,940 --> 01:37:32,180 It's a terrible thing, Miss Vaughan... to outlive 1482 01:37:32,260 --> 01:37:33,820 your whole family. 1483 01:37:37,220 --> 01:37:39,620 Richard's father died. 1484 01:37:39,700 --> 01:37:42,980 Yes, he-he died of cancer quite young. 1485 01:37:43,020 --> 01:37:44,860 And Richard's sister is dead. 1486 01:37:50,380 --> 01:37:53,340 Obviously, you... feel unworthy. 1487 01:37:53,420 --> 01:37:58,180 Gives you feelings of unworthiness. 1488 01:37:58,260 --> 01:38:01,300 You survive and they don't. 1489 01:38:05,540 --> 01:38:07,660 Have you read the poems ? 1490 01:38:07,740 --> 01:38:10,140 Oh, yes. Oh... 1491 01:38:11,740 --> 01:38:13,700 I also read the novel. 1492 01:38:21,100 --> 01:38:25,980 You see, uh, people say the novel is difficult. 1493 01:38:26,060 --> 01:38:29,580 Uh... I know. 1494 01:38:29,660 --> 01:38:31,460 They say that. 1495 01:38:36,220 --> 01:38:38,660 I know. 1496 01:38:40,820 --> 01:38:43,340 He had me die in the novel. 1497 01:38:43,420 --> 01:38:45,980 I-I-I know why he did that. 1498 01:38:50,740 --> 01:38:51,780 It hurt, of course. 1499 01:38:51,820 --> 01:38:54,060 I can't pretend it didn't hurt, but I... 1500 01:38:54,100 --> 01:38:57,460 I know why he did it. 1501 01:39:00,060 --> 01:39:04,060 You left Richard when he was a child. 1502 01:39:05,780 --> 01:39:09,900 I left both my children. 1503 01:39:09,940 --> 01:39:12,540 I abandoned them. 1504 01:39:18,300 --> 01:39:21,780 They say it's the worst thing a mother can do. 1505 01:39:34,380 --> 01:39:35,940 You have a daughter. 1506 01:39:39,180 --> 01:39:41,860 Yes... 1507 01:39:41,900 --> 01:39:44,740 But I never met Julia's father. 1508 01:39:44,820 --> 01:39:46,900 You so wanted a child. 1509 01:39:48,660 --> 01:39:51,180 That's right. 1510 01:39:51,260 --> 01:39:54,100 You're a lucky woman. 1511 01:40:03,020 --> 01:40:05,540 There are times when you don't belong, 1512 01:40:05,580 --> 01:40:08,540 and you think you're going to kill yourself. 1513 01:40:14,780 --> 01:40:16,900 Once, I went to a hotel. 1514 01:40:20,500 --> 01:40:23,980 Later that night, I made a plan. 1515 01:40:24,060 --> 01:40:26,420 The plan was I would leave my family 1516 01:40:26,500 --> 01:40:30,540 when my second child was born... 1517 01:40:30,580 --> 01:40:32,980 and that's what I did. 1518 01:40:33,060 --> 01:40:36,660 I got up one morning, 1519 01:40:36,740 --> 01:40:39,140 made breakfast, 1520 01:40:39,220 --> 01:40:42,540 went to the bus stop, 1521 01:40:42,580 --> 01:40:45,660 got on a bus. 1522 01:40:45,740 --> 01:40:47,900 I'd left a note. 1523 01:40:52,020 --> 01:40:56,580 I got a job in a library in Canada. 1524 01:41:02,900 --> 01:41:04,740 It would... 1525 01:41:06,700 --> 01:41:10,420 be wonderful to say you regretted it. 1526 01:41:10,500 --> 01:41:12,420 It would be easy. 1527 01:41:17,380 --> 01:41:20,020 But what does it mean ? 1528 01:41:20,100 --> 01:41:23,940 What does it mean to regret... 1529 01:41:24,020 --> 01:41:26,780 when you have no choice ? 1530 01:41:36,780 --> 01:41:39,100 It's what you can bear. 1531 01:41:44,700 --> 01:41:46,540 There it is. 1532 01:41:46,660 --> 01:41:48,900 No one's going to forgive me. 1533 01:41:54,940 --> 01:41:58,900 It was death. 1534 01:41:58,980 --> 01:42:01,580 I chose life. 1535 01:42:58,900 --> 01:43:01,420 Time to take your coat off. 1536 01:43:43,580 --> 01:43:45,540 I thought you might like a cup of tea. 1537 01:43:45,580 --> 01:43:47,220 Oh my goodness. 1538 01:43:47,300 --> 01:43:49,060 Thank you, dear. 1539 01:43:49,100 --> 01:43:51,140 I feel like I'm stealing your room. 1540 01:43:53,100 --> 01:43:54,060 Um, we put the food away, 1541 01:43:54,180 --> 01:43:55,900 so, if you're at all hungry in the night, 1542 01:43:55,980 --> 01:43:57,060 just help yourself. 1543 01:43:57,100 --> 01:43:58,260 Oh, I will. 1544 01:43:58,340 --> 01:44:00,380 Where will you sleep ? 1545 01:44:00,460 --> 01:44:01,700 Oh, the sofa. 1546 01:44:01,740 --> 01:44:03,580 Oh, oh, I'm sorry. 1547 01:44:11,300 --> 01:44:13,460 Good night, sweetheart. 1548 01:44:14,660 --> 01:44:16,540 Good night. 1549 01:44:35,500 --> 01:44:37,500 Dear Leonard, 1550 01:44:37,580 --> 01:44:42,540 to look life in the face... 1551 01:44:42,620 --> 01:44:48,620 always to look life in the face, 1552 01:44:48,660 --> 01:44:53,900 and to know it for what it is. 1553 01:44:53,980 --> 01:44:59,300 At last, to know it, 1554 01:44:59,340 --> 01:45:02,900 to love it for what it is, 1555 01:45:02,980 --> 01:45:06,460 and then... 1556 01:45:06,540 --> 01:45:09,140 to put it away. 1557 01:45:12,740 --> 01:45:15,940 Leonard... 1558 01:45:15,980 --> 01:45:20,420 always the years between us, 1559 01:45:20,460 --> 01:45:24,060 always the years... 1560 01:45:24,140 --> 01:45:29,260 always... the love... 1561 01:45:29,300 --> 01:45:32,460 always... 1562 01:45:32,540 --> 01:45:34,860 the hours.