1 00:00:08,397 --> 00:00:11,064 (radio chatter) 2 00:00:22,226 --> 00:00:24,064 - [Voiceover] Everyone has a story. 3 00:00:24,064 --> 00:00:27,269 I'm Heather, and this is mine. 4 00:00:27,269 --> 00:00:28,269 - The lot is 5 00:00:30,462 --> 00:00:33,831 pretty much where the truckers kinda tend to hang out, 6 00:00:33,831 --> 00:00:38,083 you know, it's a place where they can stop over, 7 00:00:38,083 --> 00:00:41,269 and they sleep when they're on their long-night ride 8 00:00:41,269 --> 00:00:42,352 and all that. 9 00:00:49,322 --> 00:00:50,966 (honking) 10 00:00:50,966 --> 00:00:51,799 - Hey lady. 11 00:00:51,799 --> 00:00:53,714 I saw you earlier today. 12 00:00:53,714 --> 00:00:55,484 You still working commercial companies? 13 00:00:55,484 --> 00:00:57,036 - I'm walkin'. 14 00:00:57,036 --> 00:00:57,869 - Walkin'? 15 00:00:57,869 --> 00:00:59,833 Woah, woah, woah, come here, come here, come here. 16 00:00:59,833 --> 00:01:01,679 Look, look, look, look. 17 00:01:01,679 --> 00:01:02,679 Wanna party? 18 00:01:04,155 --> 00:01:05,072 Come on in. 19 00:01:07,752 --> 00:01:09,919 Atta girl, that's my girl. 20 00:01:12,683 --> 00:01:13,933 That's my girl. 21 00:01:17,639 --> 00:01:20,276 (radio chatter) 22 00:01:20,276 --> 00:01:22,859 (somber music) 23 00:01:23,911 --> 00:01:25,883 Think I'm some kinda faggot or somethin', huh? 24 00:01:25,883 --> 00:01:28,268 You're gonna fuck me, God dammit. 25 00:01:28,268 --> 00:01:29,844 That's what I'm (grunting) 26 00:01:29,844 --> 00:01:31,627 just fuckin' that asshole, huh? 27 00:01:31,627 --> 00:01:32,460 That's it. 28 00:01:36,287 --> 00:01:38,007 Fuckin' that asshole. 29 00:01:38,007 --> 00:01:39,618 That's what you like. 30 00:01:39,618 --> 00:01:42,391 That's what I like, isn't it? 31 00:01:42,391 --> 00:01:44,598 I'm gonna come, fuck it. 32 00:01:44,598 --> 00:01:47,015 Fuckin' bitch, I'm gonna come in your fuckin' asshole. 33 00:01:47,015 --> 00:01:50,932 ♫ I don't know what time it is 34 00:01:55,218 --> 00:01:57,218 ♫ And I 35 00:01:58,382 --> 00:02:01,882 ♫ Don't even know the day 36 00:02:06,074 --> 00:02:08,241 ♫ My eyes 37 00:02:10,148 --> 00:02:14,315 ♫ Fill up with tears for you darlin' 38 00:02:16,905 --> 00:02:19,155 ♫ You know 39 00:02:20,032 --> 00:02:23,449 ♫ I still love you today 40 00:02:28,024 --> 00:02:30,107 ♫ If, if 41 00:02:32,019 --> 00:02:35,602 ♫ If only dreams came true 42 00:02:38,724 --> 00:02:41,365 ♫ Then I 43 00:02:41,365 --> 00:02:45,532 ♫ Would be back in your arms again 44 00:02:47,587 --> 00:02:49,700 ♫ Yeah 45 00:02:49,700 --> 00:02:52,283 ♫ If this were 46 00:02:54,028 --> 00:02:58,195 ♫ Guessed it'd be too much for you baby 47 00:03:00,564 --> 00:03:02,282 ♫ You know ♫ 48 00:03:02,282 --> 00:03:05,089 - [Heather] They don't care that I'm not beautiful. 49 00:03:05,089 --> 00:03:07,355 I don't even think they look at me. 50 00:03:07,355 --> 00:03:09,862 That's not what I'm there for. 51 00:03:09,862 --> 00:03:11,953 Most times, they don't even want me 52 00:03:11,953 --> 00:03:14,151 to be fuckin' naked. 53 00:03:14,151 --> 00:03:18,252 Just hike up the skirt and bend at the waist. 54 00:03:18,252 --> 00:03:21,250 And they sure don't want me to look at them. 55 00:03:21,250 --> 00:03:23,801 Facin' them, or facin' away, 56 00:03:23,801 --> 00:03:26,856 as long as I'm on my knees and not meetin' their eyes, 57 00:03:26,856 --> 00:03:28,689 it's money well-spent. 58 00:03:31,642 --> 00:03:33,859 There's a poetry to pain. 59 00:03:33,859 --> 00:03:37,128 It's in all the storybooks, songs, movies. 60 00:03:37,128 --> 00:03:39,465 I've always fuckin' hated that. 61 00:03:39,465 --> 00:03:41,320 Pain is just somethin' that happens 62 00:03:41,320 --> 00:03:43,335 while you live your life. 63 00:03:43,335 --> 00:03:45,668 It doesn't make you special. 64 00:03:46,593 --> 00:03:48,213 You do what you have to do to survive, 65 00:03:48,213 --> 00:03:51,454 and if what you have to do sucks, 66 00:03:51,454 --> 00:03:53,121 well, then it sucks. 67 00:03:58,415 --> 00:04:00,915 There are no Prince Charmin's, 68 00:04:01,802 --> 00:04:03,621 'cause at the end of the day, 69 00:04:03,621 --> 00:04:06,634 every guy wants the same thing. 70 00:04:06,634 --> 00:04:07,467 Property. 71 00:04:08,742 --> 00:04:10,845 Something to show off to people, 72 00:04:10,845 --> 00:04:13,067 to hang on his arm at parties and say, 73 00:04:13,067 --> 00:04:15,234 look what the fuck I have. 74 00:04:16,200 --> 00:04:19,617 Something he won, or earned, or paid for. 75 00:04:21,706 --> 00:04:25,123 Property isn't supposed to feel or think. 76 00:04:26,094 --> 00:04:30,681 It's just supposed to lay there and be walked on. 77 00:04:30,681 --> 00:04:32,205 The world is the world and there's no point 78 00:04:32,205 --> 00:04:33,705 fuckin' hatin' it. 79 00:04:35,674 --> 00:04:36,841 Wasted energy. 80 00:04:37,880 --> 00:04:39,798 Same with dreaming. 81 00:04:39,798 --> 00:04:42,798 But still, it would be nice to once, 82 00:04:43,787 --> 00:04:47,537 just once, know that I could look at someone, 83 00:04:50,256 --> 00:04:51,506 and them at me, 84 00:04:52,367 --> 00:04:54,942 and not still feel lonely. 85 00:04:54,942 --> 00:04:57,452 (gentle music) 86 00:04:57,452 --> 00:04:59,952 (dog barking) 87 00:05:19,749 --> 00:05:21,195 - Yeah she was kind of a mystery, 88 00:05:21,195 --> 00:05:23,394 and maybe that's part of what intrigued me about her 89 00:05:23,394 --> 00:05:26,569 in the first place, 'cause she was so different 90 00:05:26,569 --> 00:05:28,902 than everybody else in town. 91 00:05:30,354 --> 00:05:32,304 Where did she come from? 92 00:05:32,304 --> 00:05:35,434 And I knew, I knew she had a rough life, 93 00:05:35,434 --> 00:05:38,882 I knew that she was probably runnin' from somethin'. 94 00:05:38,882 --> 00:05:40,821 I know somethin' real bad happened, 95 00:05:40,821 --> 00:05:45,175 and I never talked about it, I never asked. 96 00:05:45,175 --> 00:05:48,925 I think, because, I didn't wanna have to ask. 97 00:05:53,818 --> 00:05:56,485 (country music) 98 00:07:06,112 --> 00:07:07,376 Funny thing to say. 99 00:07:07,376 --> 00:07:10,834 You know, 'cause she's a woman and all, but the thing 100 00:07:10,834 --> 00:07:13,013 that women usually say about men, 101 00:07:13,013 --> 00:07:16,839 like that they feel protected and they feel safe, 102 00:07:16,839 --> 00:07:18,983 there was somethin' about Charlie that made me feel 103 00:07:18,983 --> 00:07:22,483 safe with her, and made me feel protected. 104 00:07:46,459 --> 00:07:47,376 - I'm here. 105 00:07:48,299 --> 00:07:49,132 Yeah. 106 00:07:49,993 --> 00:07:52,136 Long haul, yeah. 107 00:07:52,136 --> 00:07:54,082 - So the last load is in. 108 00:07:54,082 --> 00:07:55,605 - I dropped it at the back lot. 109 00:07:55,605 --> 00:07:57,178 Yeah, back row. 110 00:07:57,178 --> 00:07:59,183 Back row, yeah. 111 00:07:59,183 --> 00:08:01,766 Lizard row, it's there. 112 00:08:01,766 --> 00:08:04,310 - You know where you are, right? 113 00:08:04,310 --> 00:08:07,280 Keep a low profile and don't, 114 00:08:07,280 --> 00:08:09,225 don't do that shit that you always do 115 00:08:09,225 --> 00:08:11,373 and start fuckin' shit up. 116 00:08:11,373 --> 00:08:13,877 - I'm not gonna fuck it up, God. 117 00:08:13,877 --> 00:08:15,166 - You know how you fuck shit up. 118 00:08:15,166 --> 00:08:16,424 Just don't do it. 119 00:08:16,424 --> 00:08:17,518 - I know, I know, lay low. 120 00:08:17,518 --> 00:08:18,935 Got it, I got it. 121 00:08:19,952 --> 00:08:21,764 Look, I'll do the best I can. 122 00:08:21,764 --> 00:08:23,615 - On more haul tomorrow, all right? 123 00:08:23,615 --> 00:08:24,577 - Right. 124 00:08:24,577 --> 00:08:25,836 I know, I'm doing a turnaround in the morning. 125 00:08:25,836 --> 00:08:29,397 I'm just layin' low tonight, and tomorrow I'm off. 126 00:08:29,397 --> 00:08:30,514 Yeah. 127 00:08:30,514 --> 00:08:31,776 Okay. 128 00:08:31,776 --> 00:08:33,644 Yeah, that's my last one. 129 00:08:33,644 --> 00:08:36,117 - The feds are bucklin' down, so we're gonna, 130 00:08:36,117 --> 00:08:39,584 we're gonna start runnin' light after this one. 131 00:08:39,584 --> 00:08:42,464 Don't bring any attention to the operation. 132 00:08:42,464 --> 00:08:44,166 - I just want my debt paid off, that's it. 133 00:08:44,166 --> 00:08:45,796 Then I wanna be done. 134 00:08:45,796 --> 00:08:47,252 We made the deal. 135 00:08:47,252 --> 00:08:48,469 - Yeah. 136 00:08:48,469 --> 00:08:49,302 I know. 137 00:08:50,409 --> 00:08:52,495 - So you glad I'm back? 138 00:08:52,495 --> 00:08:53,745 - Stupid bitch. 139 00:08:59,029 --> 00:09:01,696 (country music) 140 00:09:22,684 --> 00:09:23,517 - Charlie. 141 00:09:25,064 --> 00:09:26,397 - [Charlie] Hey! 142 00:09:28,581 --> 00:09:30,045 - Where the fuck you been? 143 00:09:30,045 --> 00:09:32,389 - Hangin' out with my lower companions, 144 00:09:32,389 --> 00:09:33,441 you know, the usual. 145 00:09:33,441 --> 00:09:35,360 - Oh you mean, like truckers? 146 00:09:35,360 --> 00:09:37,633 They're havin' a party down the street, wanna go? 147 00:09:37,633 --> 00:09:38,466 - I don't know, are you going? 148 00:09:38,466 --> 00:09:39,383 - Of course. 149 00:09:39,383 --> 00:09:41,067 I'll be there in some incapacity. 150 00:09:41,067 --> 00:09:42,904 (laughs) 151 00:09:42,904 --> 00:09:43,737 - All right. 152 00:09:43,737 --> 00:09:44,570 Fuck yeah, all right, I'll go. 153 00:09:44,570 --> 00:09:45,403 I'll see you thee. 154 00:09:45,403 --> 00:09:46,299 - Okay. 155 00:09:46,299 --> 00:09:48,347 (upbeat country music) 156 00:09:48,347 --> 00:09:50,597 (shouting) 157 00:09:53,553 --> 00:09:56,553 (people chattering) 158 00:10:24,784 --> 00:10:29,310 - Hey, so a lot's happened since I saw you last. 159 00:10:29,310 --> 00:10:30,494 - Oh my God, I know. 160 00:10:30,494 --> 00:10:31,754 - Yeah, totally well, 161 00:10:31,754 --> 00:10:33,861 after I found out he was bisexual, 162 00:10:33,861 --> 00:10:37,004 I had him ride the Harley and get the divorce papers. 163 00:10:37,004 --> 00:10:38,120 (laughs) 164 00:10:38,120 --> 00:10:39,538 Right? 165 00:10:39,538 --> 00:10:40,683 - Right, I guess, yeah. 166 00:10:40,683 --> 00:10:42,129 - What can I do, man? 167 00:10:42,129 --> 00:10:42,962 Wanna ride? 168 00:10:42,962 --> 00:10:44,355 Wanna ride on Sunday? 169 00:10:44,355 --> 00:10:47,028 - Yeah, I gotta go to Texas. 170 00:10:47,028 --> 00:10:47,861 - Okay. 171 00:10:47,861 --> 00:10:48,694 - Next time. 172 00:10:48,694 --> 00:10:49,777 - Okay, sure. 173 00:10:53,546 --> 00:10:56,546 (people chattering) 174 00:10:59,205 --> 00:11:02,707 - Yeah, did you see the tits on that bitch? 175 00:11:02,707 --> 00:11:06,207 (laughter and chattering) 176 00:11:25,853 --> 00:11:26,686 - Hey. 177 00:11:29,006 --> 00:11:32,009 What kind of Halloween costume is this? 178 00:11:32,009 --> 00:11:34,426 What the hell is that anyway? 179 00:11:37,056 --> 00:11:40,192 What the hell you supposed to be, anyway? 180 00:11:40,192 --> 00:11:42,578 - Oh come on, that's the best you've got? 181 00:11:42,578 --> 00:11:44,918 - Oh, I can do a lot better than that. 182 00:11:44,918 --> 00:11:46,418 I got lots better. 183 00:11:47,349 --> 00:11:49,306 - Good, I'm sure you do. 184 00:11:49,306 --> 00:11:50,139 - I do. 185 00:11:51,486 --> 00:11:52,797 Come on, let's have some fun. 186 00:11:52,797 --> 00:11:53,797 Let's party. 187 00:11:57,219 --> 00:11:58,614 - All right. 188 00:11:58,614 --> 00:12:01,114 All right, I'll be right back. 189 00:12:03,699 --> 00:12:05,699 - [Voiceover] Oh, sorry. 190 00:12:16,416 --> 00:12:17,249 - Hey. 191 00:12:18,727 --> 00:12:21,039 Dude, I've been looking for you. 192 00:12:21,039 --> 00:12:22,264 - I figured soon. 193 00:12:22,264 --> 00:12:23,403 What are you looking for? 194 00:12:23,403 --> 00:12:24,267 - Got shiva? 195 00:12:24,267 --> 00:12:26,511 - [Woman] Yeah, I got your black, how much do you want? 196 00:12:26,511 --> 00:12:27,594 - Half piece? 197 00:12:29,293 --> 00:12:31,460 - I got a half piece, 350? 198 00:12:34,163 --> 00:12:35,228 - [Charlie] 320. 199 00:12:35,228 --> 00:12:36,164 - Fuck. 200 00:12:36,164 --> 00:12:37,884 Yeah, I'll do it tonight. 201 00:12:37,884 --> 00:12:39,333 But that's it for that. 202 00:12:39,333 --> 00:12:41,512 Be careful, it's strong. 203 00:12:41,512 --> 00:12:42,512 - All right. 204 00:12:45,814 --> 00:12:47,897 All right, good seein' ya 205 00:12:49,261 --> 00:12:50,928 - I'm just gonna go. 206 00:12:53,428 --> 00:12:55,678 (laughter) 207 00:13:21,417 --> 00:13:23,370 - Oh, what's wrong, buttercup? 208 00:13:23,370 --> 00:13:25,055 - I don't feel good. 209 00:13:25,055 --> 00:13:27,460 - You're okay, you just need to walk it off, that's all. 210 00:13:27,460 --> 00:13:28,311 Come on. 211 00:13:28,311 --> 00:13:30,634 - [Charlie] But I just had that one. 212 00:13:30,634 --> 00:13:33,259 - You're gonna be all right. 213 00:13:33,259 --> 00:13:36,509 (gagging and coughing) 214 00:13:39,066 --> 00:13:40,399 I got your hair. 215 00:13:42,476 --> 00:13:43,944 That's all right. 216 00:13:43,944 --> 00:13:45,533 You're all right. 217 00:13:45,533 --> 00:13:46,622 - I feel better. 218 00:13:46,622 --> 00:13:47,896 - Yeah, you feel real good right now. 219 00:13:47,896 --> 00:13:49,413 - [Charlie] No, I feel good, I'm going. 220 00:13:49,413 --> 00:13:51,381 - [Man] Hey, where are you goin'? 221 00:13:51,381 --> 00:13:53,529 Hey, hey, come here. 222 00:13:53,529 --> 00:13:54,584 You're not going anywhere. 223 00:13:54,584 --> 00:13:55,417 - What? 224 00:13:56,542 --> 00:13:58,219 No, no, no. 225 00:13:58,219 --> 00:14:00,168 - The party is just beginning, honey. 226 00:14:00,168 --> 00:14:01,322 Now you hold still. 227 00:14:01,322 --> 00:14:02,604 - What are you doing? 228 00:14:02,604 --> 00:14:03,437 Get off. 229 00:14:04,384 --> 00:14:05,217 Don't! 230 00:14:07,429 --> 00:14:08,769 - [Man] We're gonna have a little fun right now. 231 00:14:08,769 --> 00:14:10,316 - Get the fuck off of me! 232 00:14:10,316 --> 00:14:11,535 Stop it! 233 00:14:11,535 --> 00:14:13,262 (shouts) 234 00:14:13,262 --> 00:14:14,262 - You bitch! 235 00:14:15,566 --> 00:14:16,483 You hit me? 236 00:14:17,486 --> 00:14:18,819 You dare hit me? 237 00:14:19,834 --> 00:14:20,789 You dare to hit me? 238 00:14:20,789 --> 00:14:23,087 I'm gonna tear you up. 239 00:14:23,087 --> 00:14:25,089 Woah, woah, woah. 240 00:14:25,089 --> 00:14:26,506 All right now. 241 00:14:26,506 --> 00:14:28,346 Hold on, take your finger off the trigger. 242 00:14:28,346 --> 00:14:29,263 - Fuck you. 243 00:14:34,289 --> 00:14:36,106 - Come on, now. 244 00:14:36,106 --> 00:14:37,750 (gunshot) 245 00:14:37,750 --> 00:14:40,000 (groaning) 246 00:15:40,207 --> 00:15:43,385 (phone ringing) 247 00:15:43,385 --> 00:15:44,964 - Yeah. 248 00:15:44,964 --> 00:15:45,797 What now? 249 00:15:47,644 --> 00:15:49,512 - I shot someone. 250 00:15:49,512 --> 00:15:51,063 Ducky, I don't know what to do. 251 00:15:51,063 --> 00:15:52,482 - You shot someone? 252 00:15:52,482 --> 00:15:53,505 - What do I do? 253 00:15:53,505 --> 00:15:55,153 - You know what? 254 00:15:55,153 --> 00:15:57,862 This is how you don't bring attention 255 00:15:57,862 --> 00:15:59,854 to the operation. 256 00:15:59,854 --> 00:16:01,921 - Should I come over there? 257 00:16:01,921 --> 00:16:03,743 - No, you cannot come here. 258 00:16:03,743 --> 00:16:04,791 - [Voiceover] I'll do the last haul. 259 00:16:04,791 --> 00:16:06,871 - Yeah, you will do the last haul. 260 00:16:06,871 --> 00:16:09,345 - Okay, well what do I do? 261 00:16:09,345 --> 00:16:11,963 - You'll get the money, and you'll send it here, 262 00:16:11,963 --> 00:16:13,636 but don't call me ever again. 263 00:16:13,636 --> 00:16:17,053 And you can start over wherever you want. 264 00:16:18,442 --> 00:16:20,775 But do not contact me again. 265 00:16:23,733 --> 00:16:25,650 - Okay, I'm hanging up. 266 00:16:45,261 --> 00:16:46,094 - Charlie, 267 00:16:48,447 --> 00:16:51,364 she had this dark spirit about her, 268 00:16:52,709 --> 00:16:54,884 you know, it's like when I think of a color, 269 00:16:54,884 --> 00:16:57,620 I guess I'd think of black. 270 00:16:57,620 --> 00:17:00,789 And she liked to wear black (laughs) 271 00:17:00,789 --> 00:17:04,363 all the time, and she had black hair and black eyeliner, 272 00:17:04,363 --> 00:17:08,530 black pants, black tank tops, black shirts, you know. 273 00:17:09,434 --> 00:17:11,796 I always said, you know, maybe she'd throw in 274 00:17:11,796 --> 00:17:15,274 a little color here and there, but I don't know, 275 00:17:15,274 --> 00:17:18,038 I guess maybe I was her color, you know. 276 00:17:18,038 --> 00:17:20,538 And she was that neutral tone. 277 00:17:25,566 --> 00:17:29,733 Along with that there was always somethin' she was hidin'. 278 00:17:49,023 --> 00:17:51,693 Maybe she had a non-interference pact with herself 279 00:17:51,693 --> 00:17:53,536 or some fuckin' thing. 280 00:17:53,536 --> 00:17:56,915 A promise to not open up and let anyone in her mind 281 00:17:56,915 --> 00:17:58,588 or her heart. 282 00:17:58,588 --> 00:17:59,825 But that's good. 283 00:17:59,825 --> 00:18:01,194 That's protection. 284 00:18:01,194 --> 00:18:04,342 It's like cellophane-covered. 285 00:18:04,342 --> 00:18:08,425 Seran-wrapped up tight so nothin' gets in or out. 286 00:18:10,528 --> 00:18:11,460 (coughing) 287 00:18:11,460 --> 00:18:13,295 We were all just the walking wounded, anyway. 288 00:18:13,295 --> 00:18:16,315 Inhaling lungs full of fucking hash. 289 00:18:16,315 --> 00:18:19,242 Life is short, or life is long. 290 00:18:19,242 --> 00:18:20,492 Who even knows? 291 00:18:25,947 --> 00:18:28,197 (coughing) 292 00:18:30,235 --> 00:18:32,818 (gentle music) 293 00:18:50,136 --> 00:18:52,386 Charlie was hardly a saint. 294 00:18:53,885 --> 00:18:56,635 On the other hand, maybe she was. 295 00:19:23,713 --> 00:19:26,130 (rock music) 296 00:19:31,918 --> 00:19:35,241 - There's your map, directions to get there. 297 00:19:35,241 --> 00:19:38,241 Hook up your rig and get outta here. 298 00:19:47,227 --> 00:19:50,547 ♫ Get down, get in her face 299 00:19:50,547 --> 00:19:54,794 ♫ My bad reputation got me the best place 300 00:19:54,794 --> 00:19:59,053 ♫ Gotta have it, gotta have it, they say 301 00:19:59,053 --> 00:20:03,182 ♫ Should no longer 'til we got up in your case ♫ 302 00:20:03,182 --> 00:20:05,656 - [Heather] I have to say, Charlie came into town 303 00:20:05,656 --> 00:20:08,646 like a lightning storm, or a hurricane or somethin'. 304 00:20:08,646 --> 00:20:11,250 Suddenly, she was just there. 305 00:20:11,250 --> 00:20:15,097 Yeah, she could knock down anyone's world. 306 00:20:15,097 --> 00:20:17,927 She said she like livin' in isolation and that, 307 00:20:17,927 --> 00:20:20,882 bein' a loner is better than bein' lonely. 308 00:20:20,882 --> 00:20:23,465 I think she was lonely, though. 309 00:20:35,192 --> 00:20:39,383 Funny thing is that nothing ever changes, 310 00:20:39,383 --> 00:20:43,079 and Charlie knew that, and it worked for her. 311 00:20:43,079 --> 00:20:45,301 Even in the Bible it says, 312 00:20:45,301 --> 00:20:48,960 there's nothin' new under the sun. 313 00:20:48,960 --> 00:20:51,043 I used to read the Bible. 314 00:21:29,794 --> 00:21:33,011 (upbeat country music) 315 00:21:33,011 --> 00:21:36,511 (chattering and laughing) 316 00:21:44,527 --> 00:21:48,694 ♫ 17 days on the road and I'm as high as a kite ♫ 317 00:21:50,098 --> 00:21:51,828 - This place is dead. 318 00:21:51,828 --> 00:21:52,857 - Yeah? 319 00:21:52,857 --> 00:21:54,774 Just the way I like it. 320 00:21:55,849 --> 00:21:59,432 - What's the matter, you don't like people? 321 00:22:07,532 --> 00:22:11,614 ♫ She made it out on Sunday mornin' ♫ 322 00:22:11,614 --> 00:22:13,043 - I've never been the saint, 323 00:22:13,043 --> 00:22:15,763 and I've been doing the sinner since I was a kid. 324 00:22:15,763 --> 00:22:18,252 Nothin' here in this shit town. 325 00:22:18,252 --> 00:22:21,002 We just started chattin' a little bit, 326 00:22:21,002 --> 00:22:23,919 and it was kinda funny, kinda nice, 327 00:22:26,130 --> 00:22:28,831 I don't know, she just seemed like she 328 00:22:28,831 --> 00:22:31,414 paid attention to me, you know? 329 00:22:34,033 --> 00:22:37,159 ♫ She's gonna see the way 330 00:22:37,159 --> 00:22:40,700 ♫ She's gonna find another way 331 00:22:40,700 --> 00:22:44,338 ♫ She's got a lifetime to remember 332 00:22:44,338 --> 00:22:48,505 ♫ Nothin' more to say when you feel alone ♫ 333 00:22:50,620 --> 00:22:53,787 (twangy guitar music) 334 00:23:44,799 --> 00:23:45,966 - Got a ciggy? 335 00:23:47,420 --> 00:23:49,558 - Smoking kills. 336 00:23:49,558 --> 00:23:50,897 - I'm no quitter. 337 00:23:50,897 --> 00:23:53,570 - Yeah, you got ambition. 338 00:23:53,570 --> 00:23:55,114 - Look, I don't need new friends, 339 00:23:55,114 --> 00:23:58,031 I just need to bum a fuckin' ciggy. 340 00:24:02,078 --> 00:24:03,745 - Give me a lighter. 341 00:24:24,886 --> 00:24:27,002 Busy lot here, yeah? 342 00:24:27,002 --> 00:24:28,495 (laughs) 343 00:24:28,495 --> 00:24:30,745 - Yeah, busy as a dead bee. 344 00:24:34,372 --> 00:24:35,455 Or a cricket. 345 00:24:42,401 --> 00:24:45,148 Just about every day I think I'm gonna 346 00:24:45,148 --> 00:24:48,552 stick out my thumb and bail on this place. 347 00:24:48,552 --> 00:24:52,906 Make it as far as the Eiffel Tower, or Mexico. 348 00:24:52,906 --> 00:24:54,606 Maybe even Pasadena. 349 00:24:54,606 --> 00:24:56,028 (laughs) 350 00:24:56,028 --> 00:24:57,955 Pasadena, gonna go see that Golden Gate Bridge 351 00:24:57,955 --> 00:24:59,041 they got out there. 352 00:24:59,041 --> 00:25:01,498 - Pasadena, yeah, it's a bad idea 353 00:25:01,498 --> 00:25:03,509 to hang around bridges. 354 00:25:03,509 --> 00:25:06,259 - I seem to be good at bad ideas. 355 00:25:07,916 --> 00:25:08,938 - Well if you hate it so much, why don't you just 356 00:25:08,938 --> 00:25:10,688 ditch on out of here? 357 00:25:12,213 --> 00:25:14,927 - And jeopardize my career? 358 00:25:14,927 --> 00:25:19,094 - Yeah, you're really movin' up the ladder here, huh? 359 00:25:20,293 --> 00:25:23,460 (motorcycle rumbling) 360 00:25:29,712 --> 00:25:31,729 - I don't want your ciggies. 361 00:25:31,729 --> 00:25:33,979 I got my own all by myself. 362 00:25:36,184 --> 00:25:37,477 - I really don't think a girl like you 363 00:25:37,477 --> 00:25:39,227 should be by herself. 364 00:25:47,018 --> 00:25:49,474 - Spider well you just get in here 365 00:25:49,474 --> 00:25:50,974 and shut the door. 366 00:25:53,135 --> 00:25:57,302 - Itchy fur and like a porcupine (mumbles) or somethin'. 367 00:25:59,958 --> 00:26:00,875 - You know, 368 00:26:01,786 --> 00:26:04,453 I once scene porcupines humpin'. 369 00:26:07,984 --> 00:26:09,975 (coughing) 370 00:26:09,975 --> 00:26:11,986 - Like two cactuses in love, shit. 371 00:26:11,986 --> 00:26:15,089 - I bet you didn't see anything. 372 00:26:15,089 --> 00:26:16,089 - I did too. 373 00:26:17,298 --> 00:26:20,391 - I saw a bat once, but it flew away. 374 00:26:20,391 --> 00:26:22,083 It would have been romantic if it bit me. 375 00:26:22,083 --> 00:26:23,004 (laughter) 376 00:26:23,004 --> 00:26:24,921 - Bit like a porcupine. 377 00:26:26,402 --> 00:26:28,123 (grunting goofily) 378 00:26:28,123 --> 00:26:29,081 - Spider. 379 00:26:29,081 --> 00:26:30,489 Spider. 380 00:26:30,489 --> 00:26:31,779 Spider. 381 00:26:31,779 --> 00:26:32,612 - What's up? 382 00:26:32,612 --> 00:26:34,029 - Do I look okay? 383 00:26:36,522 --> 00:26:38,406 - You don't look as hot as you did in high school, 384 00:26:38,406 --> 00:26:40,277 but you look okay, yeah. 385 00:26:40,277 --> 00:26:42,944 - Just get out of here, just go. 386 00:26:44,326 --> 00:26:46,166 I used to be beautiful. 387 00:26:46,166 --> 00:26:48,833 At least that's what people say. 388 00:28:09,312 --> 00:28:11,812 (dog barking) 389 00:29:26,539 --> 00:29:30,372 (gentle, twangy guitar music) 390 00:29:33,038 --> 00:29:36,121 (truck horn blowing) 391 00:29:37,079 --> 00:29:40,412 - You know, there's someone new in town. 392 00:29:41,802 --> 00:29:45,052 Yeah, I saw her, she saw me, and I know 393 00:29:46,638 --> 00:29:49,062 maybe nobody wants to hang around me anymore 394 00:29:49,062 --> 00:29:53,229 like they did in high school, but she did talk to me. 395 00:29:55,494 --> 00:29:58,578 I don't know, maybe she'll talk to me again. 396 00:29:58,578 --> 00:30:01,401 Maybe I could talk to her, and she could listen. 397 00:30:01,401 --> 00:30:02,234 Whatever. 398 00:30:03,244 --> 00:30:05,744 Maybe we could party together. 399 00:30:07,771 --> 00:30:11,104 And that's the world out there, grandma. 400 00:30:13,124 --> 00:30:14,457 Hard to keep up. 401 00:30:25,012 --> 00:30:25,845 Try it? 402 00:30:31,263 --> 00:30:32,096 All right. 403 00:30:47,217 --> 00:30:49,139 We need it to phase out. 404 00:30:49,139 --> 00:30:53,306 We needed more drugs, and she knew just how to find them. 405 00:31:06,347 --> 00:31:07,777 (yells) 406 00:31:07,777 --> 00:31:09,713 You scared the shit out of me! 407 00:31:09,713 --> 00:31:12,473 (laughter) 408 00:31:12,473 --> 00:31:14,657 You're late, you look like shit. 409 00:31:14,657 --> 00:31:16,592 - Yeah, but do I look good? 410 00:31:16,592 --> 00:31:17,974 - Do I look good? 411 00:31:17,974 --> 00:31:19,031 (laughs) 412 00:31:19,031 --> 00:31:21,114 Oh, well, get in the car. 413 00:31:22,070 --> 00:31:24,721 (laughs) 414 00:31:24,721 --> 00:31:26,522 - What, you expected the Boogie Man or somethin'? 415 00:31:26,522 --> 00:31:28,425 - Scary like the friggin' Bogie Man. 416 00:31:28,425 --> 00:31:30,122 So where the hell we goin'? 417 00:31:30,122 --> 00:31:32,205 (grunts) 418 00:31:34,557 --> 00:31:37,085 - Wasn't sure you'd really meet me. 419 00:31:37,085 --> 00:31:39,585 This lady, she died of cancer. 420 00:31:41,206 --> 00:31:43,214 I circled and organized all the obituaries, 421 00:31:43,214 --> 00:31:45,793 like in order of how they died, what they died from, 422 00:31:45,793 --> 00:31:47,894 and so I can know what kind of prescription drugs they took. 423 00:31:47,894 --> 00:31:49,674 - Oh yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, I get it. 424 00:31:49,674 --> 00:31:53,642 So she'd have pain from the cancer, right? 425 00:31:53,642 --> 00:31:56,299 So she's take pain prescriptions! 426 00:31:56,299 --> 00:31:57,151 - [Charlie] Right! 427 00:31:57,151 --> 00:31:58,196 - Oh yeah, okay. 428 00:31:58,196 --> 00:32:01,055 So, but we need an address. 429 00:32:01,055 --> 00:32:05,243 - I called the mortuary, and told them I was family. 430 00:32:05,243 --> 00:32:08,203 - And they just gave it to you? 431 00:32:08,203 --> 00:32:12,109 - I played the cousin callin' to send flowers card. 432 00:32:12,109 --> 00:32:15,026 You know, everybody's got a cousin. 433 00:32:16,013 --> 00:32:18,393 - I see like, these fleas jumpin'. 434 00:32:18,393 --> 00:32:19,559 Did you see anything? 435 00:32:19,559 --> 00:32:20,642 Look at that. 436 00:32:21,691 --> 00:32:22,992 - You're fine. 437 00:32:22,992 --> 00:32:25,467 - [Heather] I see, like, fleas, 438 00:32:25,467 --> 00:32:27,893 I see them jumpin' all over the place. 439 00:32:27,893 --> 00:32:29,152 Can't sleep. 440 00:32:29,152 --> 00:32:30,945 Can't ever sleep. 441 00:32:30,945 --> 00:32:33,022 - Yeah, me either. 442 00:32:33,022 --> 00:32:35,939 Don't worry, I've done this before. 443 00:32:39,627 --> 00:32:41,659 Follow my lead. 444 00:32:41,659 --> 00:32:42,659 Put this on. 445 00:32:45,927 --> 00:32:47,760 - Followin' your lead. 446 00:32:55,780 --> 00:32:57,113 - How do I look? 447 00:32:58,012 --> 00:32:59,012 - Thank you. 448 00:33:07,884 --> 00:33:10,134 (knocking) 449 00:33:16,319 --> 00:33:18,569 (knocking) 450 00:33:21,449 --> 00:33:24,138 - [Charlie] Hi, Mr. Tabernacle? 451 00:33:24,138 --> 00:33:25,840 We're so sorry for your loss. 452 00:33:25,840 --> 00:33:28,616 - We're not the Jehovah's Witnesses, or Mormons, 453 00:33:28,616 --> 00:33:31,207 or Avon, (mumbles), anything like that. 454 00:33:31,207 --> 00:33:32,322 - Who are you? 455 00:33:32,322 --> 00:33:33,852 - We're here from the hospital, 456 00:33:33,852 --> 00:33:35,925 and we're here to pick up all of your late wife's 457 00:33:35,925 --> 00:33:37,942 prescription medications. 458 00:33:37,942 --> 00:33:41,230 - Yeah, so you don't have to throw them away, 459 00:33:41,230 --> 00:33:43,519 you know, toxic waste and stuff 460 00:33:43,519 --> 00:33:44,931 is not good for society. 461 00:33:44,931 --> 00:33:48,209 - I'm sorry, this is not a good time. 462 00:33:48,209 --> 00:33:49,764 - You're in love. 463 00:33:49,764 --> 00:33:50,925 I love love. 464 00:33:50,925 --> 00:33:51,871 - You do? 465 00:33:51,871 --> 00:33:54,123 - Well, I love the thought of it, yeah, 466 00:33:54,123 --> 00:33:57,962 you know, it's (mumbling) 467 00:33:57,962 --> 00:34:00,379 - You're from the hospital? 468 00:34:00,379 --> 00:34:03,212 - Yeah, yeah, yes, can we come in? 469 00:34:05,504 --> 00:34:07,360 - Okay, come into the living room 470 00:34:07,360 --> 00:34:09,401 and I'll get the prescriptions. 471 00:34:09,401 --> 00:34:11,151 Don't touch anything. 472 00:34:16,668 --> 00:34:18,708 - It's like a real home here. 473 00:34:18,708 --> 00:34:20,541 Really homey and shit. 474 00:34:22,075 --> 00:34:24,658 We should have brought flowers. 475 00:34:30,784 --> 00:34:33,367 (bell tolling) 476 00:34:35,164 --> 00:34:36,865 - I got her prescriptions. 477 00:34:36,865 --> 00:34:38,564 Which ones do you want? 478 00:34:38,564 --> 00:34:39,414 - All of them. 479 00:34:39,414 --> 00:34:41,213 - All of them, everything, we need all of those. 480 00:34:41,213 --> 00:34:43,911 (cheering) 481 00:34:43,911 --> 00:34:44,744 Yeah! 482 00:34:48,385 --> 00:34:51,587 - You are fucking crazy, girl! 483 00:34:51,587 --> 00:34:53,754 (barking) 484 00:34:55,595 --> 00:34:57,533 - [Charlie] Yeah! 485 00:34:57,533 --> 00:35:00,866 - [Heather] Give me a swig of that shit. 486 00:35:01,737 --> 00:35:03,987 - [Charlie] Where we goin'? 487 00:35:04,950 --> 00:35:07,117 (barking) 488 00:35:11,820 --> 00:35:12,951 - I wanna show you somethin'. 489 00:35:12,951 --> 00:35:13,801 Woo. 490 00:35:13,801 --> 00:35:14,651 (laughs) 491 00:35:14,651 --> 00:35:16,245 Yeah it was really excitin', you know, 492 00:35:16,245 --> 00:35:19,578 something woke up in me that I had never 493 00:35:21,086 --> 00:35:23,933 experienced before with men. 494 00:35:23,933 --> 00:35:26,516 (horn honking) 495 00:35:27,769 --> 00:35:29,231 - Look. 496 00:35:29,231 --> 00:35:32,481 These say take in anticipation of pain. 497 00:35:37,427 --> 00:35:38,546 All right. 498 00:35:38,546 --> 00:35:39,592 - Life is pain. 499 00:35:39,592 --> 00:35:41,842 (laughter) 500 00:35:43,070 --> 00:35:43,903 Oh. 501 00:35:45,586 --> 00:35:47,483 Is that you rockin' the boat? 502 00:35:47,483 --> 00:35:48,635 - Woah! 503 00:35:48,635 --> 00:35:50,672 (laughter) 504 00:35:50,672 --> 00:35:52,963 - Don't rock the boat. 505 00:35:52,963 --> 00:35:55,233 Oh, I just chipped my tooth. 506 00:35:55,233 --> 00:35:57,618 (laughs) 507 00:35:57,618 --> 00:36:01,159 Everything I have ever known is right here 508 00:36:01,159 --> 00:36:04,551 in the middle of nowhere like nothin'. 509 00:36:04,551 --> 00:36:06,331 (laughs) 510 00:36:06,331 --> 00:36:09,069 It all adds up to nothin'. 511 00:36:09,069 --> 00:36:11,755 - Yeah, well I'd rather be nowhere 512 00:36:11,755 --> 00:36:14,781 than somewhere that I'm not wanted, right? 513 00:36:14,781 --> 00:36:15,614 Right? 514 00:36:18,726 --> 00:36:22,107 - When I was a kid, my grandma used to bring me here 515 00:36:22,107 --> 00:36:25,321 when my mama drank too much Boone's. 516 00:36:25,321 --> 00:36:26,513 - Boone's? 517 00:36:26,513 --> 00:36:28,354 Boone's, like Strawberry Hill? 518 00:36:28,354 --> 00:36:29,205 (laughs) 519 00:36:29,205 --> 00:36:30,038 Oh my god. 520 00:36:31,071 --> 00:36:33,251 What's your mom like? 521 00:36:33,251 --> 00:36:34,668 - Oh, no mom now. 522 00:36:35,934 --> 00:36:37,699 Never knew of the dad. 523 00:36:37,699 --> 00:36:39,174 - [Charlie] Yeah. 524 00:36:39,174 --> 00:36:42,174 Do you know anybody who's got a dad? 525 00:36:43,188 --> 00:36:44,021 - No. 526 00:36:44,021 --> 00:36:44,854 Shit. (laughs) 527 00:36:44,854 --> 00:36:45,687 - No? 528 00:36:57,463 --> 00:36:59,546 (laughs) 529 00:37:01,848 --> 00:37:05,181 - Sorry I blew smoke right in your face. 530 00:37:06,779 --> 00:37:09,029 (laughter) 531 00:37:15,148 --> 00:37:18,481 - You're makin' me have ugly face again. 532 00:37:31,830 --> 00:37:36,155 - [Heather] Where are you takin' me, Charlie? 533 00:37:36,155 --> 00:37:36,988 - Come on. 534 00:37:38,055 --> 00:37:40,224 We're just exploring. 535 00:37:40,224 --> 00:37:41,641 Stand right here. 536 00:37:42,579 --> 00:37:43,431 - Why? 537 00:37:43,431 --> 00:37:46,199 - Just stand there and relax. 538 00:37:46,199 --> 00:37:47,420 - Why? 539 00:37:47,420 --> 00:37:48,477 - Do you trust me? 540 00:37:48,477 --> 00:37:49,560 - Trust is... 541 00:37:51,499 --> 00:37:53,332 - Sh, close your eyes. 542 00:37:54,671 --> 00:37:55,521 - Okay. 543 00:37:55,521 --> 00:37:57,420 - Close, stay, keep them closed. 544 00:37:57,420 --> 00:37:58,268 - They're closed. 545 00:37:58,268 --> 00:37:59,101 - Okay. 546 00:38:08,342 --> 00:38:09,675 My beauty queen. 547 00:38:11,024 --> 00:38:12,524 - My trophy crown. 548 00:38:13,909 --> 00:38:15,826 Miss Dairy Chill, 1998. 549 00:38:18,703 --> 00:38:20,953 (laughter) 550 00:38:22,277 --> 00:38:23,839 - Close your eyes! 551 00:38:23,839 --> 00:38:24,672 - What? 552 00:38:26,937 --> 00:38:28,571 - They told me at the bar this used to be yours, 553 00:38:28,571 --> 00:38:29,689 so I stole it. 554 00:38:29,689 --> 00:38:31,759 Okay, I borrowed it. 555 00:38:31,759 --> 00:38:33,089 Stole it. 556 00:38:33,089 --> 00:38:36,175 - Can I open my eyes, you shit? 557 00:38:36,175 --> 00:38:37,008 - Okay. 558 00:38:40,132 --> 00:38:42,003 Open your eyes. 559 00:38:42,003 --> 00:38:44,253 (laughter) 560 00:38:45,626 --> 00:38:47,459 God, you're beautiful. 561 00:38:48,960 --> 00:38:51,043 - Charlie, I'm not a gay, 562 00:38:52,125 --> 00:38:54,882 I'm not a dyke like you. 563 00:38:54,882 --> 00:38:56,132 - Are you sure? 564 00:38:57,106 --> 00:38:57,939 - Um. 565 00:38:59,811 --> 00:39:00,644 No. 566 00:39:09,919 --> 00:39:13,041 (muttering) 567 00:39:13,041 --> 00:39:15,124 - Okay, look, look, look, 568 00:39:16,203 --> 00:39:18,417 just don't put anything in a box, okay? 569 00:39:18,417 --> 00:39:21,850 We don't need to be like checked off or something, okay? 570 00:39:21,850 --> 00:39:22,683 I just, 571 00:39:25,344 --> 00:39:27,677 I just wanna know you, okay? 572 00:39:29,047 --> 00:39:29,964 All of you. 573 00:39:31,166 --> 00:39:32,749 - It's just that... 574 00:39:34,724 --> 00:39:38,557 It's just, I, I never kissed someone like you. 575 00:39:41,731 --> 00:39:42,564 - Like me? 576 00:39:43,783 --> 00:39:45,616 - Someone who matters. 577 00:39:47,819 --> 00:39:50,486 (laughs softly) 578 00:40:08,259 --> 00:40:10,035 (laughs) 579 00:40:10,035 --> 00:40:11,368 - Okay, Charlie. 580 00:40:12,263 --> 00:40:13,096 - Yeah? 581 00:40:37,773 --> 00:40:39,501 - I just wanted to be with her. 582 00:40:39,501 --> 00:40:42,146 It wasn't about who she was, or what she did, 583 00:40:42,146 --> 00:40:43,966 or what she looked like, or any of that. 584 00:40:43,966 --> 00:40:46,785 It was just, (sighs) I don't know, 585 00:40:46,785 --> 00:40:50,551 as pure as can be, and just bein' with someone 586 00:40:50,551 --> 00:40:54,051 who cared about you, and who accepted you. 587 00:40:55,621 --> 00:40:59,558 I mean, accepted me for everything I was, you know? 588 00:40:59,558 --> 00:41:02,766 It didn't matter to her that I was a hooker 589 00:41:02,766 --> 00:41:05,340 or a drug addict, you know? 590 00:41:05,340 --> 00:41:07,860 None of that shit mattered. 591 00:41:07,860 --> 00:41:11,183 She'd just look in my eyes, and I'd look in her eyes, 592 00:41:11,183 --> 00:41:14,596 and we'd just forget about all that shit, you know? 593 00:41:14,596 --> 00:41:17,042 So I guess maybe, in a way, it's another kind of addiction, 594 00:41:17,042 --> 00:41:19,642 in a way, 'cause you know, we kind of 595 00:41:19,642 --> 00:41:22,142 became addicted to each other. 596 00:41:28,940 --> 00:41:32,023 I never kissed someone like you. 597 00:41:32,023 --> 00:41:33,690 Someone who matters. 598 00:41:43,861 --> 00:41:46,444 (gentle music) 599 00:42:09,981 --> 00:42:12,231 (laughter) 600 00:44:22,854 --> 00:44:27,208 I guess what's funny about it, when I think about it now, 601 00:44:27,208 --> 00:44:28,041 is that 602 00:44:30,301 --> 00:44:32,246 a lot of that was a cover, you know, 603 00:44:32,246 --> 00:44:34,864 that I didn't really realize at first, 604 00:44:34,864 --> 00:44:39,079 I was kinda attracted to this tough exterior, 605 00:44:39,079 --> 00:44:42,162 but it was that sort of soft interior 606 00:44:43,803 --> 00:44:45,886 that I fell in love with. 607 00:44:52,305 --> 00:44:53,742 - Hey. 608 00:44:53,742 --> 00:44:56,060 What, what, what's in that 609 00:44:56,060 --> 00:44:58,167 red box over there? 610 00:44:58,167 --> 00:45:00,070 - I got you somethin'. 611 00:45:00,070 --> 00:45:02,153 (laughs) 612 00:45:07,217 --> 00:45:08,050 - Aw. 613 00:45:09,005 --> 00:45:12,088 Oh, these, aw, these are real pretty. 614 00:45:13,700 --> 00:45:16,014 I don't wanna ruin these. 615 00:45:16,014 --> 00:45:19,514 I'm gonna save them for somethin' special. 616 00:45:25,387 --> 00:45:28,597 - Yeah, I want you to wear 'em when you go to work, 617 00:45:28,597 --> 00:45:31,007 that way whenever somebody like, 618 00:45:31,007 --> 00:45:33,902 pulls your panties down, or rips 'em off or somethin', 619 00:45:33,902 --> 00:45:35,819 you can think about me. 620 00:45:37,617 --> 00:45:38,450 - Yeah. 621 00:45:40,567 --> 00:45:41,400 Okay. 622 00:45:55,423 --> 00:45:58,090 - Where'd you get these flowers? 623 00:46:02,604 --> 00:46:04,845 - Well, (laughs) 624 00:46:04,845 --> 00:46:08,555 I kinda took 'em from the graveyard. 625 00:46:08,555 --> 00:46:10,044 - You stole somebody's flowers from a, 626 00:46:10,044 --> 00:46:11,341 you stole from a dead person. 627 00:46:11,341 --> 00:46:13,274 - No, well you know, you can't really steal 628 00:46:13,274 --> 00:46:14,303 from a dead person. 629 00:46:14,303 --> 00:46:15,254 - [Charlie] You kiddin' me? 630 00:46:15,254 --> 00:46:16,533 - A dead person's already dead. 631 00:46:16,533 --> 00:46:18,107 - You stole flowers from a dead person. 632 00:46:18,107 --> 00:46:19,474 - No, no, no, they were already dead. 633 00:46:19,474 --> 00:46:21,266 Somebody else bought 'em for a dead person, 634 00:46:21,266 --> 00:46:24,675 but they were dyin' anyways, so I take the flowers 635 00:46:24,675 --> 00:46:27,176 that are gonna die, and I bring 'em here 636 00:46:27,176 --> 00:46:29,835 and I try to plant 'em and give 'em some new life. 637 00:46:29,835 --> 00:46:30,824 (laughs) 638 00:46:30,824 --> 00:46:33,101 - Why don't you just plant them at the graveyard then, 639 00:46:33,101 --> 00:46:34,803 you know, by the grave, instead of bringing them here 640 00:46:34,803 --> 00:46:36,356 to your tub? 641 00:46:36,356 --> 00:46:39,869 - 'Cause, I don't know, it's like a special place, 642 00:46:39,869 --> 00:46:42,407 you know, that I used to come here with my grandma, 643 00:46:42,407 --> 00:46:45,324 so I like to have the flowers here, 644 00:46:46,389 --> 00:46:50,546 but they don't seem to grow very well, actually. 645 00:46:50,546 --> 00:46:52,010 Most of the time they die. 646 00:46:52,010 --> 00:46:53,879 - Well, there's a few that are dying. 647 00:46:53,879 --> 00:46:57,954 - I'm thinking that eventually they'll take root, maybe. 648 00:46:57,954 --> 00:46:59,378 - [Charlie] Maybe. 649 00:46:59,378 --> 00:47:01,898 - So I think this is a good one. 650 00:47:01,898 --> 00:47:06,065 - I can't even take care of myself, much less some flowers. 651 00:47:07,197 --> 00:47:09,189 - I don't know, you seem to do pretty well. 652 00:47:09,189 --> 00:47:12,772 It's just you in that big old truck, right? 653 00:47:13,623 --> 00:47:15,290 - I can drive a rig. 654 00:47:17,679 --> 00:47:20,694 I can drive the fuck out of a rig. 655 00:47:20,694 --> 00:47:23,935 - You ever get lonely, Charlie? 656 00:47:23,935 --> 00:47:25,625 - What kind of question is that? 657 00:47:25,625 --> 00:47:27,492 You and your questions. 658 00:47:27,492 --> 00:47:28,858 - What do you mean, what kind of question is that? 659 00:47:28,858 --> 00:47:31,611 - You know, I heard about those programs that they have 660 00:47:31,611 --> 00:47:32,819 for some of my trucks that you can 661 00:47:32,819 --> 00:47:36,346 adopt a dog and take it out on the road with you. 662 00:47:36,346 --> 00:47:38,372 They do that, and then they have their road dog 663 00:47:38,372 --> 00:47:40,581 with 'em all the time, and then they're never lonely. 664 00:47:40,581 --> 00:47:42,244 - Oh, that sounds good. 665 00:47:42,244 --> 00:47:46,284 - Yeah, I don't know if I could keep a dog alive, you know, 666 00:47:46,284 --> 00:47:47,954 I would have to do the plant first. 667 00:47:47,954 --> 00:47:49,683 Keep the plant first, and then you get a dog, 668 00:47:49,683 --> 00:47:52,109 and then you get a soul mate. 669 00:47:52,109 --> 00:47:54,410 (laughs) 670 00:47:54,410 --> 00:47:57,338 Or you could just skip right ahead. 671 00:47:57,338 --> 00:47:59,209 - Do you ever have one of those? 672 00:47:59,209 --> 00:48:00,258 - A plant? 673 00:48:00,258 --> 00:48:01,628 (laughs) 674 00:48:01,628 --> 00:48:03,250 - No. 675 00:48:03,250 --> 00:48:07,417 You know, ah, you don't like those questions, never mind. 676 00:48:23,950 --> 00:48:27,033 So Charlie was really kinda different 677 00:48:28,103 --> 00:48:30,865 from regular people in town, and I think 678 00:48:30,865 --> 00:48:35,188 she really freaked people out because she walked through 679 00:48:35,188 --> 00:48:38,688 like, you know, she was somethin' special, 680 00:48:39,908 --> 00:48:41,923 but in a good way. 681 00:48:41,923 --> 00:48:44,822 So people didn't really fuck with her. 682 00:48:44,822 --> 00:48:47,583 It was like they knew there was something there 683 00:48:47,583 --> 00:48:49,782 just not to fuck with. 684 00:48:49,782 --> 00:48:53,032 (upbeat country music) 685 00:49:03,378 --> 00:49:07,986 - All right, Jay, we'll catch you next week, all right? 686 00:49:07,986 --> 00:49:10,319 (murmuring) 687 00:49:17,770 --> 00:49:21,937 - Folks, would you like a little more coffee over here? 688 00:49:27,833 --> 00:49:29,369 So you think you can just pretty much 689 00:49:29,369 --> 00:49:30,904 do anything you want in here, huh? 690 00:49:30,904 --> 00:49:32,559 - Hey, we're just celebrating. 691 00:49:32,559 --> 00:49:34,529 - It's just fun, like a game. 692 00:49:34,529 --> 00:49:36,133 - Yup, she lost a bet. 693 00:49:36,133 --> 00:49:37,332 - Well I don't know what they do in places 694 00:49:37,332 --> 00:49:39,332 away from here, but here 695 00:49:41,708 --> 00:49:43,964 we don't allow clitty-lickers. 696 00:49:43,964 --> 00:49:45,409 Now get out. 697 00:49:45,409 --> 00:49:46,340 - I'm sorry. 698 00:49:46,340 --> 00:49:47,190 We didn't mean-- 699 00:49:47,190 --> 00:49:50,000 - Listen to me, you lesbo butch, macho-Mary, 700 00:49:50,000 --> 00:49:51,203 you get your tails out of here, 701 00:49:51,203 --> 00:49:52,356 you grab your dyke friend 702 00:49:52,356 --> 00:49:53,643 and get the hell out of here right now. 703 00:49:53,643 --> 00:49:54,899 - Who the fuck do you think you're talking to? 704 00:49:54,899 --> 00:49:57,022 You don't fuckin' talk to me like that. 705 00:49:57,022 --> 00:49:58,671 Fuck you. 706 00:49:58,671 --> 00:49:59,504 - [Man] Get out! 707 00:49:59,504 --> 00:50:00,337 - Whatever. 708 00:50:00,337 --> 00:50:01,203 (shouting) 709 00:50:01,203 --> 00:50:02,067 - [Man] Get on out of here! 710 00:50:02,067 --> 00:50:02,947 - [Charlie] Fuck you! 711 00:50:02,947 --> 00:50:03,780 Fuck you! 712 00:50:04,988 --> 00:50:06,277 - I'll be prayin' for you. 713 00:50:06,277 --> 00:50:08,027 - [Charlie] Fuck off! 714 00:50:11,402 --> 00:50:12,235 - Charlie. 715 00:50:14,264 --> 00:50:17,014 - (laughs) What? 716 00:50:18,140 --> 00:50:19,557 - Come over here. 717 00:50:31,465 --> 00:50:33,886 Oh, does this mean I'm gay? 718 00:50:33,886 --> 00:50:35,247 Such as I am. 719 00:50:35,247 --> 00:50:37,419 Maybe I do believe you. 720 00:50:37,419 --> 00:50:39,502 (laughs) 721 00:50:54,495 --> 00:50:55,587 (laughs) 722 00:50:55,587 --> 00:50:56,570 - [Charlie] Pull these down. 723 00:50:56,570 --> 00:51:01,433 - [Heather] Always askin' me to pull my pans down, my God. 724 00:51:01,433 --> 00:51:03,510 - [Charlie] Your pants look better down. 725 00:51:03,510 --> 00:51:06,343 - Here, come up here for a second. 726 00:51:22,294 --> 00:51:23,695 Oh yeah. 727 00:51:23,695 --> 00:51:24,528 Oh yeah. 728 00:51:28,893 --> 00:51:31,060 (gasping) 729 00:51:54,481 --> 00:51:55,314 Oh yeah. 730 00:51:56,853 --> 00:51:57,686 Oh yeah. 731 00:51:59,344 --> 00:52:02,050 It's a lot of responsibility. 732 00:52:02,050 --> 00:52:04,599 I got my own space, you know. 733 00:52:04,599 --> 00:52:06,160 - Yeah? 734 00:52:06,160 --> 00:52:08,910 - (laughs) Yeah. 735 00:52:26,399 --> 00:52:29,129 Then life became days passin'. 736 00:52:29,129 --> 00:52:31,502 One after another, and the memories began 737 00:52:31,502 --> 00:52:35,507 while we had no idea we were livin' in the middle of 'em. 738 00:52:35,507 --> 00:52:37,840 As they spun, spun, spun by. 739 00:53:01,605 --> 00:53:04,522 - George Bush dressed like a woman. 740 00:53:09,356 --> 00:53:12,356 It's okay, I nod off sometimes, too. 741 00:53:14,964 --> 00:53:17,714 (truck rumbling) 742 00:53:23,062 --> 00:53:26,325 - [Heather] She stayed at home with Grandma while I worked, 743 00:53:26,325 --> 00:53:28,770 just like real families do 744 00:53:28,770 --> 00:53:31,037 when they love one another. 745 00:53:31,037 --> 00:53:33,620 (gentle music) 746 00:54:41,576 --> 00:54:45,076 - I'm crashing my fucking brains out here. 747 00:54:47,462 --> 00:54:49,519 No backup fucking plan, no forward plan, 748 00:54:49,519 --> 00:54:52,686 no path, no future, no left, no right. 749 00:54:57,842 --> 00:55:00,384 - You ever made love to a man? 750 00:55:00,384 --> 00:55:02,801 - Why do you wanna know that? 751 00:55:07,495 --> 00:55:09,162 - I just wanna know. 752 00:55:12,802 --> 00:55:13,635 - Maybe. 753 00:55:17,014 --> 00:55:19,347 Nothin' before this matters. 754 00:55:59,656 --> 00:56:03,222 I bet your grandma's really glad when you're here. 755 00:56:03,222 --> 00:56:04,055 - Yeah. 756 00:56:05,153 --> 00:56:08,486 I can't always be here though, you know? 757 00:56:09,513 --> 00:56:12,930 Sometimes I just, I need to get some air. 758 00:56:15,076 --> 00:56:18,076 Get some candy corn, or get a drink. 759 00:56:21,647 --> 00:56:23,179 - You know, if you could see 760 00:56:23,179 --> 00:56:24,807 the beauty that I see in you, you wouldn't even 761 00:56:24,807 --> 00:56:27,357 have to go out there on the lot and do what you do and-- 762 00:56:27,357 --> 00:56:31,524 - Charlie, you can never ask me to stop workin' the lot. 763 00:56:32,483 --> 00:56:33,752 You gotta promise me. 764 00:56:33,752 --> 00:56:36,502 I want you to fuckin' promise me. 765 00:56:38,130 --> 00:56:40,781 See, I'm, I'm, I'm sick and tired 766 00:56:40,781 --> 00:56:43,114 of bein' alone, and fuck, so 767 00:56:45,209 --> 00:56:49,376 you and me, and we, we need each other in some way. 768 00:56:58,903 --> 00:57:00,920 - Yeah, you wanna be your own boss, 769 00:57:00,920 --> 00:57:02,595 just like me. 770 00:57:02,595 --> 00:57:05,577 (laughter) 771 00:57:05,577 --> 00:57:07,141 Oh ho. 772 00:57:07,141 --> 00:57:09,474 (screeches) 773 00:57:11,899 --> 00:57:12,816 - Oh, woop! 774 00:57:13,661 --> 00:57:15,911 (laughter) 775 00:57:19,828 --> 00:57:20,661 - Ah. 776 00:57:21,726 --> 00:57:23,266 Don't push me now 777 00:57:23,266 --> 00:57:24,933 - You fuckin' bitch. 778 00:57:26,232 --> 00:57:28,482 (laughter) 779 00:57:31,061 --> 00:57:34,478 (murmuring and laughter) 780 00:57:47,852 --> 00:57:49,685 - Do I look glamorous? 781 00:57:50,705 --> 00:57:52,955 (laughter) 782 00:58:02,344 --> 00:58:05,029 (laughter) 783 00:58:05,029 --> 00:58:08,755 I just threw my ashes in the water. 784 00:58:08,755 --> 00:58:09,588 Here. 785 00:58:29,742 --> 00:58:31,409 I hate doin' dishes. 786 00:58:33,065 --> 00:58:35,794 Nothin' worse than doin' dishes. 787 00:58:35,794 --> 00:58:38,335 Okay, maybe I can think of a few things that are worse, 788 00:58:38,335 --> 00:58:39,418 but not many. 789 00:58:42,891 --> 00:58:45,547 - I can't stop smellin' dick. 790 00:58:45,547 --> 00:58:47,389 (laughs) 791 00:58:47,389 --> 00:58:51,556 And thinkin' about this town and the jobs and the men. 792 00:58:55,920 --> 00:58:57,837 I think about the lake. 793 00:59:01,116 --> 00:59:03,449 About how when you came here 794 00:59:05,476 --> 00:59:09,309 it's like a came out of a trance or somethin'. 795 00:59:10,676 --> 00:59:11,843 Like swimmin', 796 00:59:13,633 --> 00:59:14,716 I was washed. 797 00:59:15,641 --> 00:59:17,515 (laughs) 798 00:59:17,515 --> 00:59:18,871 - Me too. 799 00:59:18,871 --> 00:59:20,100 You know, it's kind of like I just 800 00:59:20,100 --> 00:59:22,600 woke the fuck up or somethin'. 801 00:59:27,441 --> 00:59:30,949 I have never felt more alive than I feel right here 802 00:59:30,949 --> 00:59:34,141 right now, doin' dishes with you. 803 00:59:34,141 --> 00:59:36,224 (laughs) 804 00:59:41,811 --> 00:59:44,978 (gentle guitar music) 805 00:59:56,501 --> 01:00:00,105 - Well, you know, I mean, I've been doin' drugs 806 01:00:00,105 --> 01:00:02,386 since I was probably 12. 807 01:00:02,386 --> 01:00:04,402 I mean, I just started early. 808 01:00:04,402 --> 01:00:07,621 My mom's always been kind of been doin' speed, meth, 809 01:00:07,621 --> 01:00:10,160 you know, I got into the cocaine 810 01:00:10,160 --> 01:00:12,143 probably more than anything. 811 01:00:12,143 --> 01:00:15,710 Meth was a little too much for me. 812 01:00:15,710 --> 01:00:18,193 A little too jittery, you know, 813 01:00:18,193 --> 01:00:22,276 but the cocaine, boy that just made me feel good, 814 01:00:23,978 --> 01:00:28,145 and it just made me feel like I could do no wrong, 815 01:00:29,549 --> 01:00:33,382 and I guess I needed something to get my brain 816 01:00:35,027 --> 01:00:39,401 off of what was going on constantly in my life, 817 01:00:39,401 --> 01:00:42,818 and when I was on cocaine, it was, I was, 818 01:00:43,689 --> 01:00:45,384 you don't even have to think about that. 819 01:00:45,384 --> 01:00:49,217 You just feel like you're on top of the world. 820 01:01:14,053 --> 01:01:17,220 (helicopter whirring) 821 01:01:25,199 --> 01:01:27,032 - You hear helicopters? 822 01:01:27,032 --> 01:01:29,115 (laughs) 823 01:01:31,237 --> 01:01:34,404 (upbeat guitar music) 824 01:01:40,954 --> 01:01:43,103 - Gotta to do that. 825 01:01:43,103 --> 01:01:44,520 Fuckin fun to do. 826 01:01:50,191 --> 01:01:51,024 - Get up. 827 01:01:51,905 --> 01:01:52,754 - Here? 828 01:01:52,754 --> 01:01:53,603 There? 829 01:01:53,603 --> 01:01:54,436 - There. 830 01:01:54,436 --> 01:01:55,269 There. 831 01:01:57,740 --> 01:02:01,823 - I think I'm gonna be strangled by this tension. 832 01:02:09,638 --> 01:02:10,721 I am dry ice. 833 01:02:15,991 --> 01:02:17,908 Oh Charlie, let's talk. 834 01:02:19,744 --> 01:02:22,827 Let's talk about something, you know? 835 01:02:24,710 --> 01:02:27,292 (mumbling) paper airplanes, and I'm gonna send to you, 836 01:02:27,292 --> 01:02:29,360 and then you read it, and then 837 01:02:29,360 --> 01:02:32,317 I'll talk, and then I'll write that down, 838 01:02:32,317 --> 01:02:35,050 but you can't read it until I say, okay? 839 01:02:35,050 --> 01:02:35,883 Okay. 840 01:02:37,022 --> 01:02:39,943 And then you can talk like, 841 01:02:39,943 --> 01:02:43,526 about history like Germany, or like Russia, 842 01:02:45,954 --> 01:02:48,923 you know, Russia, it's got bombs, it's like bam! 843 01:02:48,923 --> 01:02:49,997 (laughs) 844 01:02:49,997 --> 01:02:52,313 okay, so just talk. 845 01:02:52,313 --> 01:02:56,397 Just talk, talk about, about everything. 846 01:02:56,397 --> 01:02:59,221 I wanna know, I wanna know about you, Charlie, 847 01:02:59,221 --> 01:03:01,471 like, your life and things. 848 01:03:04,857 --> 01:03:06,977 Oh my gosh, that was perfect. 849 01:03:06,977 --> 01:03:09,227 Tell me what was before me. 850 01:03:13,603 --> 01:03:16,936 - I fucked girls who didn't give a fuck. 851 01:03:18,402 --> 01:03:20,735 (murmuring) 852 01:03:30,701 --> 01:03:32,712 - [Heather] Where the fuck'd you get a gun, Charlie? 853 01:03:32,712 --> 01:03:35,379 - Don't touch that, it's loaded. 854 01:03:36,397 --> 01:03:38,230 - I love you, Charlie. 855 01:03:40,119 --> 01:03:42,054 I know I love you. 856 01:03:42,054 --> 01:03:43,319 - Give me that. 857 01:03:43,319 --> 01:03:45,964 - I'm gonna blow your fucking brains out! 858 01:03:45,964 --> 01:03:48,047 (laughs) 859 01:03:52,466 --> 01:03:54,049 - You're fucked up. 860 01:03:56,330 --> 01:03:58,663 (murmuring) 861 01:04:00,554 --> 01:04:01,971 You're fucked up. 862 01:04:09,888 --> 01:04:11,773 - Just chill out, baby. 863 01:04:11,773 --> 01:04:12,632 Just talk to me. 864 01:04:12,632 --> 01:04:14,049 Tell me anything. 865 01:04:15,352 --> 01:04:16,978 Tell me about yourself. 866 01:04:16,978 --> 01:04:18,916 - [Charlie] What the fuck do you want me to tell you? 867 01:04:18,916 --> 01:04:20,283 - I don't know who you are, Charlie. 868 01:04:20,283 --> 01:04:21,943 Just talk. 869 01:04:21,943 --> 01:04:25,026 (gentle piano music) 870 01:04:39,347 --> 01:04:41,290 - Come here ..... 871 01:04:41,290 --> 01:04:43,623 (murmuring) 872 01:05:16,896 --> 01:05:20,063 (helicopter whirring) 873 01:05:51,738 --> 01:05:53,905 (yelping) 874 01:05:55,442 --> 01:05:57,525 - So, um, I have a story. 875 01:05:58,426 --> 01:06:01,593 There's a story I have about a spider. 876 01:06:03,271 --> 01:06:06,021 There was this spider, and it uh, 877 01:06:07,818 --> 01:06:10,068 it went up this water cell, 878 01:06:11,307 --> 01:06:14,880 no it went up a water spout, like, 879 01:06:14,880 --> 01:06:18,824 you do it with your hands kind of, like this. 880 01:06:18,824 --> 01:06:22,258 And then, but, it's not like a church steeple 881 01:06:22,258 --> 01:06:25,115 or anything, it's not a steeple, it's just like a spider. 882 01:06:25,115 --> 01:06:27,154 But it goes up the water spout, 883 01:06:27,154 --> 01:06:29,321 and then there's this, um, 884 01:06:30,396 --> 01:06:33,979 there's some rain, and the rain comes down. 885 01:06:35,425 --> 01:06:37,801 And then after the rain comes and washes 886 01:06:37,801 --> 01:06:41,051 the spider away or something, and then, 887 01:06:42,152 --> 01:06:43,746 I don't know, the spider's gone, but then 888 01:06:43,746 --> 01:06:46,670 it's not like a sad story. 889 01:06:46,670 --> 01:06:47,753 I don't know. 890 01:06:48,890 --> 01:06:49,807 The spider. 891 01:06:51,257 --> 01:06:53,840 The spider and the water spout, 892 01:06:55,351 --> 01:06:56,518 and then rain, 893 01:06:58,881 --> 01:07:01,131 and then it washes it away. 894 01:07:05,336 --> 01:07:07,590 I don't know why it's not bad that the spider 895 01:07:07,590 --> 01:07:11,399 gets washed away, but I guess it's just washed away, 896 01:07:11,399 --> 01:07:13,021 but I don't think it killed the spider, 897 01:07:13,021 --> 01:07:16,854 or else they wouldn't kept tellin' that story. 898 01:07:18,830 --> 01:07:19,663 Huh. 899 01:07:29,070 --> 01:07:32,237 (gentle guitar music) 900 01:07:35,498 --> 01:07:38,148 - [Heather] And then she would disappear, 901 01:07:38,148 --> 01:07:39,888 jut like a mirage. 902 01:07:39,888 --> 01:07:42,566 There, then gone, then back again. 903 01:07:42,566 --> 01:07:45,025 I never knew where she went or why, 904 01:07:45,025 --> 01:07:48,794 but I missed her every moment she wasn't near. 905 01:07:48,794 --> 01:07:51,544 ♫ Don't cry baby 906 01:07:52,907 --> 01:07:57,012 ♫ I ain't gonna change my mind 907 01:07:57,012 --> 01:07:59,845 ♫ Some day, maybe 908 01:08:01,463 --> 01:08:05,728 ♫ You will be okay in time 909 01:08:05,728 --> 01:08:10,000 ♫ 'Cause everybody knows it's how the story goes 910 01:08:10,000 --> 01:08:14,455 ♫ Bound to leave you in the end 911 01:08:14,455 --> 01:08:16,028 ♫ Now baby's got new shoes 912 01:08:16,028 --> 01:08:18,517 ♫ But it won't take away those blues 913 01:08:18,517 --> 01:08:22,933 ♫ So you listen to the message I sent 914 01:08:22,933 --> 01:08:25,683 ♫ Don't cry baby 915 01:08:26,968 --> 01:08:31,135 ♫ You don't want the neighbors to see ♫ 916 01:08:38,506 --> 01:08:42,267 - I know I, I stashed a bag in here somewhere. 917 01:08:42,267 --> 01:08:43,600 I can't find it. 918 01:08:45,228 --> 01:08:48,895 I can't find it, I don't have anything left. 919 01:08:53,897 --> 01:08:56,109 I hid it in one of these pockets 920 01:08:56,109 --> 01:08:59,942 so that no one could find it, and now I can't. 921 01:09:06,688 --> 01:09:07,521 - Fuck. 922 01:09:10,252 --> 01:09:11,669 - Trucker got me. 923 01:09:18,067 --> 01:09:19,900 - My veins are fucked. 924 01:09:24,748 --> 01:09:25,998 Pull this shit. 925 01:09:28,006 --> 01:09:30,339 (murmuring) 926 01:09:36,429 --> 01:09:37,927 - You're just gonna leave me 927 01:09:37,927 --> 01:09:39,878 just like everybody else? 928 01:09:39,878 --> 01:09:40,795 Is that it? 929 01:09:42,863 --> 01:09:45,205 One more, fuckin' one more! 930 01:09:45,205 --> 01:09:47,958 One more fuckin' fuckers leave me. 931 01:09:47,958 --> 01:09:51,291 (shouting hysterically) 932 01:09:54,926 --> 01:09:56,287 - Guess what? 933 01:09:56,287 --> 01:09:57,438 Fuckin' what. 934 01:09:57,438 --> 01:09:59,697 I wonder, too, okay. 935 01:09:59,697 --> 01:10:01,752 I mean, where the fuck is everyone always goin'? 936 01:10:01,752 --> 01:10:02,598 Huh? 937 01:10:02,598 --> 01:10:03,864 Where's everyone goin' all the time? 938 01:10:03,864 --> 01:10:05,055 Think I don't care? 939 01:10:05,055 --> 01:10:06,138 I fuckin' do. 940 01:10:07,053 --> 01:10:08,429 - Charlie. 941 01:10:08,429 --> 01:10:09,262 - What? 942 01:10:10,395 --> 01:10:12,326 - I want everythin' 943 01:10:12,326 --> 01:10:14,993 you have in you to be put in me. 944 01:10:24,975 --> 01:10:27,327 What were you like before here? 945 01:10:27,327 --> 01:10:28,591 - [Charlie] You don't wanna know. 946 01:10:28,591 --> 01:10:30,824 (whimpering) 947 01:10:30,824 --> 01:10:33,491 - Charlie, I need you right now. 948 01:10:35,427 --> 01:10:36,776 - This doesn't last forever. 949 01:10:36,776 --> 01:10:37,609 - I know. 950 01:10:38,783 --> 01:10:40,725 I just thought that maybe 951 01:10:40,725 --> 01:10:42,642 you could stay with me. 952 01:10:45,491 --> 01:10:47,091 - This thing that I am, the person that I am, 953 01:10:47,091 --> 01:10:48,314 I'm not gonna change. 954 01:10:48,314 --> 01:10:50,481 I'm not gonna change this. 955 01:10:51,321 --> 01:10:53,105 - It's too late. 956 01:10:53,105 --> 01:10:54,772 - Too late for what? 957 01:10:55,953 --> 01:10:57,536 - Too late for you. 958 01:10:59,657 --> 01:11:02,240 (gentle music) 959 01:11:28,928 --> 01:11:30,362 - Hey lady, 960 01:11:30,362 --> 01:11:32,351 I saw you earlier today. 961 01:11:32,351 --> 01:11:34,203 Still working commercial companies? 962 01:11:34,203 --> 01:11:35,594 - I'm walkin'. 963 01:11:35,594 --> 01:11:36,445 - Walkin? 964 01:11:36,445 --> 01:11:37,654 Woah, woah, woah. 965 01:11:37,654 --> 01:11:38,577 Come here, come here, come here. 966 01:11:38,577 --> 01:11:40,497 Look, look, look, look. 967 01:11:40,497 --> 01:11:41,497 Wanna party? 968 01:11:42,882 --> 01:11:43,799 Come on in. 969 01:11:46,522 --> 01:11:48,689 Atta girl, that's my girl. 970 01:11:52,223 --> 01:11:53,473 That's my girl. 971 01:11:55,896 --> 01:11:58,896 (heavy metal music) 972 01:12:02,196 --> 01:12:05,196 (muttering angrily) 973 01:12:20,639 --> 01:12:24,501 ♫ Jealous dream, chapters close 974 01:12:24,501 --> 01:12:28,401 ♫ Nothin' happens, nothin' smoked, yeah 975 01:12:28,401 --> 01:12:31,452 ♫ You saw a body bag 976 01:12:31,452 --> 01:12:36,132 ♫ Wishes and dreams don't always last 977 01:12:36,132 --> 01:12:40,049 ♫ Things arise from the inside 978 01:12:43,865 --> 01:12:48,249 ♫ So mad, don't smile, it's okay, it's all right 979 01:12:48,249 --> 01:12:51,044 ♫ All right 980 01:12:51,044 --> 01:12:54,424 ♫ It's a guillotine 981 01:12:54,424 --> 01:12:58,591 ♫ You know, you're killin' me, yeah 982 01:12:59,755 --> 01:13:04,362 ♫ You're so messed up, hold on too tight 983 01:13:04,362 --> 01:13:06,410 ♫ Too tight 984 01:13:06,410 --> 01:13:10,080 ♫ Now I can barely breathe 985 01:13:10,080 --> 01:13:14,247 ♫ You're fuckin' killin' me, yeah 986 01:13:18,031 --> 01:13:21,490 ♫ You kill me ♫ 987 01:13:21,490 --> 01:13:23,206 - It's like the more tricks you do, 988 01:13:23,206 --> 01:13:27,123 the more drugs you take, the more sex you have, 989 01:13:28,090 --> 01:13:30,980 the more got somebody pou-poun-poundin' you, 990 01:13:30,980 --> 01:13:32,881 the more you don't think about 991 01:13:32,881 --> 01:13:35,714 how fucked up your life really is. 992 01:13:36,825 --> 01:13:38,472 ♫ When I dream 993 01:13:38,472 --> 01:13:42,139 ♫ Just rise from the inside 994 01:13:46,635 --> 01:13:51,406 ♫ So mad, don't smile, it's okay, it's all right 995 01:13:51,406 --> 01:13:53,684 ♫ All right 996 01:13:53,684 --> 01:13:57,517 ♫ Like a guillotine 997 01:13:57,517 --> 01:14:02,406 ♫ You know you're killin' me, yeah 998 01:14:02,406 --> 01:14:06,917 ♫ You're so messed up, hold on too tight 999 01:14:06,917 --> 01:14:09,361 ♫ Too tight 1000 01:14:09,361 --> 01:14:13,039 ♫ Now I can barely breathe 1001 01:14:13,039 --> 01:14:17,206 ♫ You're fuckin' killin' me, yeah ♫ 1002 01:14:31,847 --> 01:14:35,097 (gagging and coughing) 1003 01:14:46,328 --> 01:14:49,495 (gentle guitar music) 1004 01:14:55,449 --> 01:15:00,110 - Hey, hey there's a Sizzler in Houston, I think. 1005 01:15:00,110 --> 01:15:01,943 We should go sometime. 1006 01:15:02,790 --> 01:15:04,382 - Yeah. 1007 01:15:04,382 --> 01:15:05,544 I usually go to Taco Bell 1008 01:15:05,544 --> 01:15:07,211 when I eat hot food. 1009 01:15:10,405 --> 01:15:12,809 - Look, look, look. 1010 01:15:12,809 --> 01:15:14,048 Right there, that black. 1011 01:15:14,048 --> 01:15:15,981 That black right there. 1012 01:15:15,981 --> 01:15:17,137 - [Charlie] There's nothing there. 1013 01:15:17,137 --> 01:15:18,605 - It moved, it moved, it jumped. 1014 01:15:18,605 --> 01:15:21,456 - [Charlie] There's nothin' there. 1015 01:15:21,456 --> 01:15:24,123 - It just jumped, it just moved. 1016 01:15:25,159 --> 01:15:27,159 - There's nothin' there. 1017 01:15:30,604 --> 01:15:34,177 - Anxiety, it brings it to the surface. 1018 01:15:34,177 --> 01:15:37,344 Just when you, you think you can stop, 1019 01:15:38,520 --> 01:15:42,187 when you really wanna stop, it's just usin', 1020 01:15:44,375 --> 01:15:45,875 you can't, it's... 1021 01:15:50,307 --> 01:15:51,201 - See? 1022 01:15:51,201 --> 01:15:54,389 Anybody can stop with enough will power. 1023 01:15:54,389 --> 01:15:56,139 I choose not to stop. 1024 01:16:04,390 --> 01:16:05,640 I'm no quitter. 1025 01:16:16,195 --> 01:16:17,880 - It doesn't matter really, I love her. 1026 01:16:17,880 --> 01:16:22,047 You know, no matter what she did, I always loved her. 1027 01:16:23,493 --> 01:16:26,316 I don't know, I really thought 1028 01:16:26,316 --> 01:16:28,316 she wanted to get clean. 1029 01:16:31,422 --> 01:16:33,005 And she really did. 1030 01:16:34,345 --> 01:16:36,322 She really did, I know, fuck. 1031 01:16:36,322 --> 01:16:38,904 (moaning) 1032 01:16:38,904 --> 01:16:42,154 (gagging and coughing) 1033 01:16:49,228 --> 01:16:51,311 (crying) 1034 01:16:52,785 --> 01:16:55,762 (gunshot) 1035 01:16:55,762 --> 01:16:57,929 (gagging) 1036 01:17:13,644 --> 01:17:15,727 (crying) 1037 01:17:26,185 --> 01:17:29,527 - So what the fuck do you want me to do? 1038 01:17:29,527 --> 01:17:31,736 (crying) 1039 01:17:31,736 --> 01:17:34,319 (somber music) 1040 01:17:49,772 --> 01:17:51,255 - [Heather] Hang in there. 1041 01:17:51,255 --> 01:17:52,850 - [Charlie] I'm gonna die. 1042 01:17:52,850 --> 01:17:54,725 - No, hang in there. 1043 01:17:54,725 --> 01:17:55,920 It's okay, it's okay. 1044 01:17:55,920 --> 01:17:58,087 (moaning) 1045 01:18:09,723 --> 01:18:11,768 - That was the baptism. 1046 01:18:11,768 --> 01:18:14,613 Demanding the evil be gone. 1047 01:18:14,613 --> 01:18:16,794 Get the darkness out. 1048 01:18:16,794 --> 01:18:18,461 We got it out, amen. 1049 01:18:19,756 --> 01:18:21,283 You know what I like? 1050 01:18:21,283 --> 01:18:23,111 Or what I always wanted to like? 1051 01:18:23,111 --> 01:18:24,263 - [Charlie] What? 1052 01:18:24,263 --> 01:18:26,916 - That I know who I am again. 1053 01:18:26,916 --> 01:18:28,827 And people don't expect much. 1054 01:18:28,827 --> 01:18:30,124 It's like my grandmother used to take me 1055 01:18:30,124 --> 01:18:33,853 to these dance lessons and I was too young 1056 01:18:33,853 --> 01:18:37,127 to even know where I was, or too young 1057 01:18:37,127 --> 01:18:39,228 to even understand, and she had 1058 01:18:39,228 --> 01:18:42,225 these hopes and these dreams, and you know, 1059 01:18:42,225 --> 01:18:44,308 they're all gone now, but 1060 01:18:46,676 --> 01:18:48,759 at least I know who I am. 1061 01:18:50,923 --> 01:18:54,943 I never found pain to be poetic, that's true. 1062 01:18:54,943 --> 01:18:58,443 But there is something cleansing about it. 1063 01:18:59,634 --> 01:19:02,382 If you can swim through the pain, 1064 01:19:02,382 --> 01:19:06,095 and if you walk through the rain, then maybe, 1065 01:19:06,095 --> 01:19:10,262 just maybe, you deserve at least some time in the sun. 1066 01:19:12,795 --> 01:19:14,378 Clean and forgiven. 1067 01:19:24,419 --> 01:19:28,336 Maybe it's my fault, that she just looked so... 1068 01:19:30,675 --> 01:19:34,104 She just wanted to do it one more time, you know. 1069 01:19:34,104 --> 01:19:35,868 Just one more. 1070 01:19:35,868 --> 01:19:39,066 She was gonna be fine, and I wanted 1071 01:19:39,066 --> 01:19:40,566 to make her happy. 1072 01:19:41,821 --> 01:19:42,703 I tried. 1073 01:19:42,703 --> 01:19:47,398 I tried to wake her up, you know, I just sat there with her 1074 01:19:47,398 --> 01:19:50,648 and I just held her and just shook her. 1075 01:19:53,461 --> 01:19:56,986 I never got a chance to say goodbye to her, 1076 01:19:56,986 --> 01:19:59,398 and tell her, I mean, I told her I loved her, 1077 01:19:59,398 --> 01:20:00,231 I did, 1078 01:20:01,130 --> 01:20:02,631 many times, 1079 01:20:02,631 --> 01:20:05,960 but I just wonder if she ever really understood 1080 01:20:05,960 --> 01:20:07,870 what that meant to me. 1081 01:20:07,870 --> 01:20:10,870 (breathing heavily) 1082 01:20:14,098 --> 01:20:16,848 (sirens wailing) 1083 01:20:17,764 --> 01:20:19,431 She changed my life. 1084 01:20:20,683 --> 01:20:22,790 I mean, I was nowhere, I was nothin'. 1085 01:20:22,790 --> 01:20:24,704 I couldn't do anything. 1086 01:20:24,704 --> 01:20:26,531 I couldn't think of anythin', and then she came 1087 01:20:26,531 --> 01:20:30,031 into my life, this one little bright spot. 1088 01:20:34,961 --> 01:20:38,782 She just held me in my arms and made me feel so special 1089 01:20:38,782 --> 01:20:40,699 and so loved, that I... 1090 01:20:44,014 --> 01:20:47,928 In spite all of this, it's the best thing 1091 01:20:47,928 --> 01:20:50,678 that ever happened to me, I mean, 1092 01:20:52,213 --> 01:20:56,428 it sounds absurd that I'm even fuckin' sayin' this, 1093 01:20:56,428 --> 01:20:59,146 because it's horrible for this to happen, 1094 01:20:59,146 --> 01:21:02,313 but you know, I mean, I felt somethin' 1095 01:21:03,803 --> 01:21:05,720 I had ever felt before. 1096 01:21:39,318 --> 01:21:41,901 (gentle music) 1097 01:21:58,502 --> 01:22:01,159 ♫ Love is a gift 1098 01:22:01,159 --> 01:22:04,576 ♫ And this I give to you 1099 01:22:07,659 --> 01:22:10,579 ♫ Love is the truth 1100 01:22:10,579 --> 01:22:14,079 ♫ In which I live for you 1101 01:22:17,480 --> 01:22:21,647 ♫ My heart is twisted inside my chest 1102 01:22:26,587 --> 01:22:30,403 ♫ I bring your head down 1103 01:22:30,403 --> 01:22:33,820 ♫ Gently upon my breasts 1104 01:22:37,099 --> 01:22:39,432 ♫ And I cry 1105 01:22:41,669 --> 01:22:43,836 ♫ For you 1106 01:22:46,346 --> 01:22:48,679 ♫ And I die 1107 01:22:51,058 --> 01:22:53,225 ♫ For you 1108 01:22:55,183 --> 01:22:58,766 ♫ Would you die for me too 1109 01:23:16,647 --> 01:23:19,906 ♫ Walkin' down the lonely street, I 1110 01:23:19,906 --> 01:23:23,989 ♫ Find myself beneath the ground 1111 01:23:25,892 --> 01:23:29,413 ♫ Things ain't like they used to be, baby 1112 01:23:29,413 --> 01:23:34,131 ♫ Everything's been turned around 1113 01:23:34,131 --> 01:23:36,325 ♫ Again 1114 01:23:36,325 --> 01:23:39,366 ♫ I know what you miss me, brother 1115 01:23:39,366 --> 01:23:43,603 ♫ A penny saved is a penny earned 1116 01:23:43,603 --> 01:23:46,246 ♫ It burned 1117 01:23:46,246 --> 01:23:48,728 ♫ Always been so sweet to one another 1118 01:23:48,728 --> 01:23:52,811 ♫ Another fucking lesson learned 1119 01:23:55,497 --> 01:23:57,830 ♫ And I cry 1120 01:23:59,652 --> 01:24:01,819 ♫ For you 1121 01:24:04,730 --> 01:24:07,063 ♫ And I die 1122 01:24:09,369 --> 01:24:11,536 ♫ For you 1123 01:24:14,535 --> 01:24:16,868 ♫ And I cry 1124 01:24:19,250 --> 01:24:21,417 ♫ For you 1125 01:24:24,646 --> 01:24:26,979 ♫ And I cry 1126 01:24:29,011 --> 01:24:31,178 ♫ For you 1127 01:24:33,099 --> 01:24:37,266 ♫ Would you cry for me ♫